鄒和明先生三項諾貝爾獎推薦Mr. Zou He Ming's Three Nobel Prizes Recommendation Letters

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21世紀和平新政宣言等為提名諾貝爾獎的推薦函

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Recommended for Nobel Peace Prize nominations: (Subject to the subsequent Chinese original)

     Declaration of the New Deal for Peace in the 21st Century

( Foreword: Under the banner of the great man Dr. Sun Yat-sen, the only one that is conducive to the peaceful reunification of the two sides of the strait and is easily accepted by all parties, the reform of the Western-style political system, the participation of all political parties and associations in the administration and discussion of politics, and the absence of the great turmoil of the ruling party, the combination of China and the West, the optimization of the separation of powers, the popular election and the "imperial examination", and the new deal of peace in the 21st century of the rule of the wise man, China can take the lead and move from "democracy" to "wisdom-led"! Advocating wisdom to govern society, "democracy" is "wisdom-led" The initial stage is the prototype of the wise man governing the society and "wisdom leading". The real world should be dominated by the intelligent group first, and finally realized, and the wisdom system assists the real intelligent group and governs the best system of society.   

        Taking into account the realities of various political systems and countries, the vast majority of countries have chosen the Western political system for reform or change, but the Western political system still has the defects that need to be reformed, which has become a reason for some people to attack, reject or doubt. For example, it is difficult to produce the best decision-making, and most of them are neither good nor bad, and the compromise plan after the confrontation is made, so that the governance is not ideal, and the voters lose confidence; the consortium and business giants have too much influence on politics; the opposing political parties take turns to govern and make decisions that are easy to overturn and cost the people and money, and the voters will lose confidence if they are confused before and after; In addition, there are also campaigns in which the image and eloquence of the election campaign and the role of funds are too heavy, which is not conducive to the ideologues of erudition and the candidates who are not supported by the consortium; the majority of the well-known but not good at argumentation are easily defeated by the candidates who are only good at image and eloquence; the most obvious example of the weakness of the Western-style political system is that in countries like Iraq, it is impossible to solve the problem of peaceful governance of multiple parties and sects, which are not on the same page; It is also necessary to reform and improve the Western-style form of government, and it is important to develop the separation of powers of Sun Yat-sen, and it is necessary to examine and supervise. Reform the Western-style political system, all political parties and associations participate in politics and discuss politics without being in power, that is, only the ruling wise man is replaced smoothly, and there is no major turmoil in the ruling party, and the "21st Century Peace New Deal" is a combination of China and the West to optimize the separation of five powers, and the democratically elected imperial examination and the wise man governs the country.

       With the development of civilization and education in the new century, we should combine the rule of law with morality, that is, the rule of law with morality, and the treatment of symptoms with the root cause; the combination of the people with scholars and the will of the people with academic theory, such as the combination of the direct election of citizens with the selection and selection of scholars in the imperial examination; and the integration of the essence of Eastern and Western civilizations and the cultures of various nationalities, so as to open up a new 21 st century of rapid development. China is the key to influencing the development of peace and civilization in the new century, and people generally hope that China's great reform should be carried out in a peaceful manner to avoid paying huge social costs and heavy costs, and that the social reform in the new century should put an end to the bloodshed. The best choice for the purpose of making the vast majority of people acceptable, not completely Westernizing the combination of China and the West, and conducive to the peaceful reunification of the two sides of the Taiwan Strait, must be to gather under the banner of the great man Dr. Sun Yat-sen, perfect, perfect, and develop Sun Yat-sen's system of separation of powers, and implement the new deal for peace in the 21 st century, which is advocated in this article. Only when China has completed the great transformation that conforms to the tide of the people's will will it be the beginning of creating a new peaceful and civilized world in the 21st century!

        The reform of Western democracy has added oriental elements, and the system of separation of powers, which is relatively strong in the Western-style complete party politics of the great man Dr. Sun Yat-sen, has been further reformed into incomplete party politics. In ancient China, there was a saying that "forming a party for personal gain" meant that all political parties and associations participating in and discussing state affairs would not be in power, and there would be no distinction between ruling parties and opposition parties, so as to avoid the complete political malpractice of party politics in which the rights and interests of the ruling party itself are above the state and everything else. There will be no hardships and pains in which the ruling party will step down, passively overthrow, or be replaced by another party, so that there will be lasting stability. Political parties and organizations should give up the goal of striving for power and only participate in the administration and discussion of state affairs, give full play to their noble political wisdom and cultivation, revise the interests of their respective political parties and organizations and the personal interests of key members, give up their excessive desire for power and change their goals, and put the interests of the people first.

        This is the only one under the banner of the great man Sun Yat-sen that is conducive to the reunification of the two sides of the strait and is easily accepted by both sides, the separation of powers between China and the West is optimized, the right to the "imperial examination" examination is truly implemented, the high-IQ group is governed by the wise, all political parties and organizations participate in and discuss politics and are not in power, and the incomplete party politics is only the new deal for peace in the 21 st century, which is only smoothly replaced by the ruling wise man, and there is no great turmoil in the ruling party. That is, the democratic "trinomical government" system of the Magi guidance, with the separation of powers as the means and the end of the government, its structure is summarized as follows:

 1. The separation of five powers and the Western-style separation of powers proposed by the great man of reform, Mr. Sun Yat-sen, are divided into three governments: (1) the "executive government" (which can be referred to as the government) elected by the general election of the whole people's "national policy" after the new imperial examination, that is, the "wisdom" general election, and its institutions and functions are similar to those of the Western-style administration of the separation of powers; (2) the popular election, which is the "parliamentary government" for the purpose of legislation that is elected by the whole people in response to the "proposal" and does not require the new imperial examination (3) the new imperial examination does not require the people's election and has multiple checks and balances, and the government includes the exercise of the right to provide free education and medical institutions for all; the property rights of the cultural relics institute, the private property institute (including the patented) institute and the resource institute (including the land institute); the examination power of the academy of sciences, the moral and intellectual academy (including the public morality reward and punishment and think tank) and the examination institute; the procuratorate, Judicial powers such as the Anti-Corruption Yuan and the courts, and the supervisory powers such as the Media Court, the Integrity Court, and the Supervision Yuan (including newspapers and the Internet) form a loosely integrated government, so the government also has a small number of highly specialized administrative functions and some Western-style parliamentary and senate functions.

 2. The term of office of each government is four years, the general elections of the executive government and the parliamentary government are held every four years, and the new imperial examination is once a year. Those who participate in the imperial examination must be postdoctoral researchers of famous institutes who have passed the prescribed scope of qualification examination such as physical examination, integrity and criminal record, and they can be allowed to be selected for a maximum of three imperial examinations regardless of whether they have been selected for the imperial examination. The new imperial examination is subject to the subjects of administration, management, political science, law and economics, with supplementary questions, i.e., all many subjects. The new imperial examination is an examination of the number and range of test questions beyond the limit, and the talent IQ test (this talent IQ test is gradually promoted and deepened with the development of high technology, and finally transferred to the management of the whole society, relying on the guidance of the unmanned intelligence system).

 3. Gradually introduce a refined fair and efficient "voting share" system, that is, all important official matters such as election referendums and proposal voting, which have been accumulated according to the results of right and wrong and counted by the computer, and the different and changing "shares" of each person voted each time will be recorded in terms of integrity, qualifications and qualifications. To make all important votes of all people more careful and, in particular, more effective. It is necessary to fully follow and make use of the resources and role of the rapidly developing computer network technology to continuously improve the management level of the new policy. In the end, it was transformed into the management of the whole society, relying on the guidance of the unmanned intelligence system.

 4. The prime minister of the executive government (and the supreme commander of the military and police) shall apply for the election of the prime minister by the two people in the earliest order of the imperial examination, who shall be the candidate for the prime minister, and shall be the first to independently combine into two groups of running partners who are protected by the prime minister, and then elect the president and vice prime minister at the general election. The prime minister in the general election is approved by two-thirds of the three government joint meetings, and can be re-elected after being selected in the second and third imperial examinations and in the general election, and the prime minister candidate is not eligible to run for election if he is not elected three times. All government officials at the level of chief and deputy ministers shall be appointed by the prime minister from among the wise men who have passed the imperial examinations of the corresponding sessions, and may be resigned without any restrictions on the number of times they can be rehired after being approved by half of the other two governments. The chief and deputy chief executives of each province (special region or prefecture) and city and county (district) shall be elected by the local voters, and the other officials shall be appointed by the chief executive of the respective imperial examinations.

 5. After being elected, the chief executive at all levels shall resign from the original posts of associations, parties, sects, etc., and the administration shall not carry the bias of associations and sects, and flexibly select all the optimal decisions of all parties and factions that are not just one party and one party as needed, that is, the best political program "national policy" is composed of various issues of various political parties and associations without political party color and ideological orientation, and the "proposals" of any political parties, associations and personal political opinions are not the same as "national policies". Only when the executive government is set up up to the administrative organs at the city and county (special district or prefecture) level, and only offices are set up under it, that is, township offices and grass-roots village offices and neighborhood offices are appointed and dismissed by the chief executive at a higher level; To simplify the complexity and bloat of Western-style institutions, the concept of "administration" must be set up in cities and counties (special districts or states). The concept of "parliament" and "adjudication" can make full use of the Internet and its videos to streamline the administration and abolish its city, county (special district or state) level institutions.

6. Candidates of all parties, factions, associations, sects or personal identities registered within the jurisdiction may run for the "councilors" of the Central Council Government and the provincial (special region or prefecture) parliamentary government after qualification examination, and shall be elected by the voters under their jurisdiction, without the need for the imperial examination, and the number of elected terms is not limited. Participating in a general election in which the parliamentary government has a political party color or ideological orientation is different from a general election in which the executive government has no strong party color and no ideological orientation. The chairperson and deputy "speaker" of the parliament are elected by the current "councillors" of the parliamentary government and the total number of "speakers" of the central parliamentary government plus the "speakers" of each province (special region or prefecture) is equal to the number of the other two governments participating in the tripartite joint meeting.

 7. The chief and deputy judges, presidents, examiners, prosecutors and judges of the central government and the provincial (special region or prefecture) government shall be ranked by the qualified persons of the new imperial examination, that is, the wise men on the list, according to the scores of the corresponding subjects of the new imperial examination, and the scores of the corresponding disciplines in the new imperial examination, they can refer to the doctoral majors obtained by the original famous schools or the work majors they are engaged in and classified into the files. It does not need to be elected by the people, nor is it not responsible for the appointment of the chief executive, but only serves the country in accordance with the constitution and laws, and exercises all decisions in all cases, excluding only the need for the ruling of the "tripartite joint council", which is different from the Western-style form of government, and makes the judicial power, supervision power, and examination power more decentralized. The chief and deputy clerks, presidents, examiners, prosecutors and judges of each branch of the government shall resign after a term of four years, and shall be re-elected only after a new examination. After his resignation, he will be reverted to the position of a Wise Fellow of the Legislature, and may be appointed to a position other than that of the Chief Executive of the Territorial Executive or to the position of the Inspector General of the Governing Body.

8. Legislative proposals can be put forward by a simple majority and examined by all governments; the motions of the "executive government" may be submitted to the "administrative government" for amendment and then to the "parliamentary government" for examination and approval, or they can be repealed by more than two-thirds of the motions; the motions of the "administrative government" may be submitted to the "executive government" and may be submitted to the "legislative government" for examination and approval, or the "parliamentary government" may pass and repeal one of them by a two-thirds majority; the motions of the "parliamentary government" may be submitted to the "administrative government" first, and they may be submitted to the "executive government" as amendments, or they may be submitted to the "executive government" as amendments and then returned to the "parliamentary government" Motions approved by two-thirds of the "parliamentary government" do not need to be submitte

 9. The members of the presidium are all non-empowered senior ministers, among which the latest outgoing prime minister is the president of the state (symbolic head of state), the latest outgoing vice prime minister is the vice president of the state, and the president and vice president of the state are all with the rest of the previous outgoing prime ministers, outgoing chairmen and vice presidents and outgoing chief and vice presidents for the presidium for life, and the presidium exercises the functions of ceremonial envoys, independent investigations and inspection reports, and participation in the voting of major bills.

 10. The "three-style election system" of the New Deal for the people and the imperial examination is not only in line with the will of the people but also standardized in the academic theory, and the contrast between the "proposal" general election and the "national policy" (wisdom) general election is intertwined and optimized, and it is also conducive to the opportunity for erudite theorists and eloquent activists and talents with both to shine and contribute. The popular elections and imperial examinations of the New Deal are not limited by age, surname, ethnicity, political party, wealth or poverty, image and eloquence, etc., and are fair and reasonable, which is far stronger than the current Western-style elections.

 11. The New Deal for Peace is a "scholarly democracy", and all so-called democracy so far is only capable of being guided by those powerful parties and interest groups, and the sages and sages who have stood out through the imperial examination and popular elections are the representatives of public opinion and scholarship, not the representatives of a certain political party, association, sect or interest group. In the end, it was transformed into the management of the whole society, relying on the guidance of the unmanned intelligence system.

12. All ethnic groups and regions with their own characteristics have full autonomy, and the smallest group of the smallest ethnic group or the smallest region has the maximum vote rate of the prime minister, speaker of parliament, and theirs, as long as the wise person produces it, which is much greater than the current Western-style election rate, highlighting equality and justice.

        The party does not govern alone and the military does not participate in politics, which is the same and reasonable, and it is easy for the world to be peaceful, to avoid social divisions, to avoid coups and turmoil, and to be peaceful and safe. This new deal in the 21st century, which combines Chinese and Western incomplete party politics and governs the country by high-IQ groups and wise people, will lead to the gradual development of the "metaverse" system in the virtual world, and finally realize the ultimate system of human beings assisted by inhuman intelligence systems and governed by real intelligence groups!

Drafter: Zou Heming

April 22, 2024

E-mail: zohemng@outlook.com

Mobile: 18079108964

(The original Chinese version below shall prevail)

諾貝爾和平獎提名的推薦項:

     《21世紀和平新政宣言》

 （ 前言：在偉人孫中山先生旗下唯一有利兩岸和平統一且各方都易接受的，改革西式政體，一切政黨社團參政議政都不執政的，即只有執政智者平穩更換的，而無執政政黨大動盪更換的，中西結合優化五權分立的，民選科舉智者治國的21世紀和平新政，中國可先行，從"民主"發展而走向"智主"！崇尚智慧治理社會，"民主"是"智主"的初級階段，是智者治理社會"智主"的雛形。現實世界應先由智慧群體主導，最終實現無人智慧體系協助，現實智慧群體治理社會的最佳體制。）

         綜合各政體和各國現實，絕大多數國家改革或變革選擇了西方政體，但西方政體還有需改革的缺陷，已成為有人攻擊、拒絕或懷疑的理由。如:  很難產生最佳決策而大多是不優不劣，成心對抗後的折衷方案，使施政不理想，選民失去信心；財團商界巨頭對政治影響過大；對立政黨輪流執政決策易翻來覆去勞民傷財，前後易混亂選民也會失去信心; 並不只是幾人而是幾黨幾大群體竟爭最高權力，強對抗易使社會撕裂更易使選民失望；另外還有競選的形象口才和資金作用偏重，不利於博才寡言的理論家，和不利於無財團資助的競選人；大多數博才的卻不善辯的競選人易被僅僅是形象口才好的競選人擊敗等等；西式政體弱點最明顯的例子，在伊拉克之類的國家，就無法解決誓不兩立的多黨多教派的和平執政問題； 而實西式政體也有改革完善的必要，重要的是發展孫中山五權分立的，考試和監察很有必要。改革西式政體一切政黨社團參政議政都不執政，即只有執政智者平穩更換，而無執政政黨大動盪更換的，中西結合優化五權分立，民選科舉智者治國的“21世紀和平新政”。

        新的世紀隨文明和教育的發展，應以法治和德理相結合，即法治與德理，治標與理本相結合；以民眾與學者、民意與學理相結合，如公民直選與學者科舉的選與舉相結合；以東西方文明及各民族文化精華相結合，開創高速發展的新21世紀。中國是影響新世紀和平文明發展的關鍵，人們也普遍希望中國大變革應該和平過渡，避免付出巨大社會成本和沉重代價，新世紀社會變革更要終止殺人流血。旨在讓絕大多數人能接受的,  不完全西化中西結合的，有利兩岸和平統一的，最佳選擇必是都相聚在偉人孫中山先生的旗幟下，完善健全和發展孫中山的五權分立體制，實施本文倡導的21世紀和平新政。只有中國也完成了順民意世潮的大變革，才是開創21世紀全新的和平文明世界的開始！

        改革西方民主制加入東方元素，將偉人孫中山先生的西式完全政黨政治較濃厚的五權分立體制，進一步改革為不完全政黨政治。中國古代就有“結黨營私”一說，所有政黨社團參政議政都不執政，無執政黨和在野黨之分， 避免執政黨自身權益高於國家及一切的完全政黨政治弊病。將不會有執政黨下台被動推翻消亡或執政地位被他黨取代的艱險和痛苦，從而長存久安。政黨社團應放棄爭取執政的目標也僅參政議政，發揮高尚的政治智慧和修養，修改各自政黨社團和要員個人的利益訴求，放棄過高權力欲望更改奮鬥目標，以人民的利益為重。

        這一可供和平過渡的，偉人孫中山旗下唯一有利兩岸統一且兩岸都易接受的，中西結合優化五權分立的，真正落實考試權的高智商群體智者治國的，一切政黨社團參政議政都不執政的，不完全政黨政治的，只有執政智者平穩更換的，而無執政政黨大動盪更換的21世紀和平新政。即士輔民主的“三府合政”制，分權為手段合政為目的，其架構概述為：

 1，改革偉人孫中山先生提出的五權分立和西式三權分立為三府合政: （1）由新科舉考試後全民“國策”大選即“智慧”大選出的“行政府”（可簡稱官府），其各機構和職能與西式三權分立之行政相似；（2）民選即全民針對“提案”而大選出的，不需新科舉考試的旨在立法的“議政府”（可簡稱民府），其各機構和職能與西式三權分立之議會相似；（3）新科舉考試不需民選的具多重製衡權的“理政府”（可簡稱士府），理政府包括行使提供全民免費的教育院、醫療院等生存權；文物院、（包括專利的）私產院和（包括國土的）資源院等資產權；科學院、（包括公德獎罰和智庫的）德智院和考試院等考試權；檢查院、廉政院和法院等司法權；（包括報刊和網絡的）傳媒院、誠信院和監察院等監察權等的，組成鬆散結合的理政府，因此，理政府還具有小部分專業性極強的行政功能和部分西式議會參議院功能。

 2，每屆政府任期四年，行政府和議政府的大選為四年一屆次，新科舉考試為每年一次。參加科舉的人必須是經體檢、誠信和前科等資格審查的規定範圍的名所博士後研究員，參加科舉考試不管是否中榜任職過，最多可容許三屆科舉中榜。新科舉考試是主題為行政科管理學、政治科法學和經濟學，加輔題即全部眾多學科。新科舉考試是超極限數量和範圍之試題的考試，和才能智商檢測（此項才能智商檢測跟隨高科技發展逐步推進深化，最終轉為全社會管理依靠於無人智慧體系輔導）。

 3，逐步引入精細化的公正而且高效的“投票份額”制，即選舉公決和提案表決等一切重要公事投票表決的，歷次累積的取決於對錯結果並經電腦統計出的，每人每次投票的各自不同不斷變化的“份額”，並記入誠信、資歷和各資格等項。使所有人所有重要投票表決更認真謹慎，特別是更為有效。科舉考試及大選、政跡統計、新政評估和投票份額等等要充分緊跟並利用不斷飛速發展的電腦網絡技術的資源和作用，不斷提高新政的管理水平。最終轉為全社會管理依靠於無人智慧體系輔導。

 4，行政府總理（兼軍警最高統帥）由科舉的兩名排序最早的頭名科舉賢士申請參選總理者，為總理候選人，並在頭名賢士中自主結合成兩組競選夥伴受總理級保護，再全民大選出正副總理，是兩組就各政黨社團的各政治議題的組合得出各自最佳的競選綱領，交民投票選擇。大選上的總理經三府聯席會議三分之二通過可為第三次i競選人只競選再連任一屆；經二次和三次科舉中榜並大選上可再連任，總理候選人三次未選上則再無參選資格。各正副部長級行政府官員由總理在對口各屆科舉考試合格的中榜賢士中任命，經另兩府半數通過，可被辭但無再聘次數限制。各省（特區或州）及市縣（區）正副行政長官每職位取兩名，在各屆科舉考試合格中榜賢士中按規定屆序名次經電腦處理出的申請參選人經當地選民選出，其他官員由其行政長官任命。

 5，各級行政長官當選後辭去原社團黨派教派之類職務，行政不帶社團教派黨派偏見，按需靈活擇取各方各黨各派爭辯而出的非僅一方一黨的全部最優決策，即無政黨色彩無意識形態取向的各政黨社團的各議題的組合出最佳政綱“國策”，任何政黨社團及個人政見之“提案”不與“國策”等同。只有行政府設至市縣（特區或州）級行政機構止，和其下僅設辦事處即鄉辦鎮辦及基層村辦街辦由上級行政長官任免；議政府和理政府設至省（特區或州）級止其之下各級均不設立，僅由議政府和理政府常設適量“巡視組”據案需巡迴暫駐於所轄市縣（特區或州）行政府院內，議政府和理政府事務及案件（如起訴立案）可廣泛運用互聯網。簡化西式體制機構的繁雜臃腫，行政府是“管”的概念必須設至市縣（特區或州）。而議政府和理政府是“議”和“裁”的概念，完全可充分運用互聯網及其視頻而簡政減員和廢止其市縣（特區或州）級機構。

 6，以轄內註冊的各黨各派各社團教派身份或個人身份之參選者，經資格審查後均可角逐中央議政府和各省（特區或州）議政府議員，經由所轄選民選出不需科舉考試，當選屆次不限。參加有政黨色彩或有意識形態取向的議政府“提案”大選，與行政府無濃厚政黨色彩無意識形態取向的“國策”大選不同。其正副議長由議政府當屆議員選出得票多者擔任，中央議政府議員加各省（特區或州）正副議長的總人數與另兩府參加三府聯席會議的人數相當。

 7，中央理政府和各省（特區或州）理政府的正副理士、院長、考官、檢查官和法官等級要員由各屆新科舉考試合格人士即中榜賢士，根據其新科舉考試主題分數和輔題對口學科分數排名，可參照原名校獲得的博士專業或從事的工作專業分類入檔，定期內三志願對口投檔按規定屆序名次經電腦處理再公榜後上任。不需民選，也不由行政長官任命不對之負責，只依憲法法律為國服務，並行使僅不包括需“三府聯席會議"裁決的一切各案裁決，不同與西式政體，使司法權、監察權和考試權等更分權獨立。每界理政府正副理士、院長、考官、檢查官和法官等級要員任期四年後卸職，重新科考中榜才可連任。卸職後留理政府還原為理政府賢士，可接受理士的“巡視組”任職或屬地行政府正副行政長官之外的職務任命。

 8，立法提案三府均可經簡單多數提出由各府參與審核，行政府提案先交理政府可作修正案再齊交議政府審定其一或過三分之二通過廢止；理政府提案先交行政府可作修正案再齊交議政府審定其一或過三分之二通過廢止；議政府提案先交理政府可作修正案齊交行政府也可作修正案再回議政府審定其一修正案或過三分之二通過原提案；議政府過三分之二通過的提案為不需交另兩府直接審定，提案最終是由議政府審定由總理簽署，若拒簽則十日後自動生效。修憲、公決發起案、中央級彈劾案、主席團成員請辭除名等特大案的終審裁決需至少兩府表決通過提出，主席召集，須由“三府一團（主席團）聯席會議"過三分之二表決通過；各省級彈劾案及重大案由至少當地兩府表決通過提出，總理召集，須其當地“三府聯席會議"過三分之二通過；

 9，主席團成員均為無權的資政，其中最新卸任總理為國家主席（象徵性國家元首），最新卸任副總理為國家副主席，國家正副主席任滿後都與其餘歷屆卸任正副總理、卸任正副議長和卸任正副理士為主席團終身資政，主席團行使禮儀特使、獨立調查和巡視通報及參與特大案表決等職能。

 10，新政為民選和科舉有分有合的“三式選舉制”，既順民意而又規範於學理,   既“提案”大選和“國策”（智慧)大選的對比交織進而優化，也有利於博才寡言的理論家和靈話善辯的活動家及兩者兼優人才都有發輝和貢獻的機會。這新政的民選與科舉不受年齡，姓別、民族、黨派、貧富、形象和口才等局限，公平合理，遠強於現西式選舉。

 11，和平新政為“士輔民主制”，至今為止所有所謂民主，都是只有那些強大的黨派和利益集團才有能力導向的，經科舉和民選脫穎而出之賢人賢士則是民意與學理的代表，而不是某政黨、社團、教派或利益集團的代表。最終轉為全社會管理依靠於無人智慧體系輔導。

12，各民族和各具特色地區有充分自治權，一個最小的群體最小的民族或最小地區只要出智者就有出總理、議長、理士等最大摡率，遠比現西式選舉摡率大得多，突顯平等公正。

        黨不執政與軍不從政同理合理, 易天下太平避免社會撕裂，避免政變和動亂，和平且安全。這中西結合不完全政黨政治的，高智商群體智者治國的21世紀新政將導致——從"民主"走向"智主"！逐步發展虛擬世界“元宇宙”系統，最終實現無人智慧體系協助現實智慧群體治理社會---人類的終極體制！

起草人：鄒和明

2024年4月22曰

郵箱：zohemng@outlook.com

手機：18079108964

Recommended for nominations for the Nobel Prize in Physics:(Subject to the subsequent Chinese original)

      "Reflective Lines" Information Networks and "Reflective Lines" Informatics for Regulating War and Crime

       ---- an extension of the non-specular reflectance viewer I designed

        We all know that as long as any non-luminous object can polish its outer surface into a mirror, it can reflect the image like a mirror. Similarly, the computer only needs to scan and obtain the reflected light of all points that meet the conditions of each mirror surface of any object, and can also be processed by the computer to obtain the reflected image. It includes: optical long-range high-precision measurement scanner and computer.

       The smooth floor tiles can reflect the image because the upper surface of the floor tiles is ground into a lot of small mirrors almost on a plane, and any object surface can be regarded as a lot of small mirrors in different planes, and they are integrated on a mirror surface without polishing, and can only be imaged by a computer. After some experiments and analysis, the conclusions reached are positive and completely feasible. Non-mirror reflectance imagers will bring unexpected development in many aspects. For example, if it is installed on a car, it can see the situation of other road sections; the police can use it to monitor criminals or terrorists and carry out rescue operations; when it is mounted on a missile, it can more accurately cruise against hidden targets; and it also has a far-reaching impact on the fields of resource detection, medical observation, astronomical analysis, information network, and cultural customs.

       The years that have passed on earth have been confused by crime and war, and the smoke of murder can be smelled everywhere. In ancient times, wars caused the most casualties among civilians who had no defensive capability, followed by soldiers, and the supreme decision-makers were the safest; in modern times, wars have developed without targeting civilians, and the ratio of casualties between civilians and soldiers has changed, but it is still the safest decision-makers; in the new century, wars should not be aimed at civilians and soldiers, but should be aimed at decision-makers, weapons should be developed in the direction of high-precision strikes against single targets and complex and accurate cruises, and the concept of war in the new century should be innovated, and the cost of life in war should be concentrated among decision-makers; only in this way will war go to extinction and the role of the United Nations in peacekeeping can be greatly enhanced   Crime suppression is also a major aspect of social civilization, and thinking about this has strengthened my determination to study and explore this project.

        In the laboratory, the cross-section of the black plastic sheet that can be illuminated clearly by observing the image with a microscope, the polished side is on the top of the line, in the form of a discontinuity, and most of them are close to the point that has been on the line, which means that the "points" of the visual image that are strictly reflected by the mirror account for a very small proportion of the mirror surface. It should be pointed out here that the visual image is mentioned because it is not only specular reflective image information.

        In the laboratory, the cross-section of the black plastic sheet that can be illuminated clearly by observing the image with a microscope, the polished side is on the top of the line, in the form of a discontinuity, and most of them are close to the point that has been on the line, which means that the "points" of the visual image that are strictly reflected by the mirror account for a very small proportion of the mirror surface. It should be pointed out here that the visual image is mentioned because it is not only specular reflective image information.

          Any object surface can also find enough points where the facets are parallel to each other, or parallel to each other and parallel to the ideal mirror, that is, the mutilated mirror. You can also find a large number of mutilated convex and concave mirrors and tiny convex and concave mirrors, and for our discussion, any object surface is like a large number of flat mirrors and convex and concave mirrors of different sizes and different degrees of incompleteness. I have developed five integration options:

        Scheme 1: Use optical long-distance high-precision measurement and camera to obtain shape data such as surface precision position curvature scale and scanning information pixels such as reflection line, brightness and chromaticity of each scanning point in the specified object surface interval and scanning information pixels such as reflection line, brightness and chromaticity, and the computer extracts these data in the interval, each of which is on the same flat mirror surface, the same concave mirror surface, and the same convex mirror surface, especially on the tiny convex and concave mirror surface. All the points whose reflection angles conform to their specular conditions and their reflection line pixels form each possible incomplete image information, and stretch and flatten the distorted image information of each concave mirror and convex mirror surface as flat mirror image information (because the convex and concave mirror surface can write mathematical analysis formulas, it is easy to flatten it with a computer), and all the image information (each corresponding scanning point of the incident interval image only takes one of the reflection line pixels) is complemented into the reflection scanning image information of the clear observation object, and then input it into the display image.

        Scheme 2: also use optical long-distance high-precision measurement and camera to obtain the shape data such as the precise position, curvature and scale of the surface of the specified object surface interval and the corresponding scanning point reflection line pixels, and the computer also finds out the incident point position of the obtained reflection line pixel according to the normal of each point section in turn, so as to correct the corresponding point of the reflection line pixel in the image display screen. Specular reflection theoretically does not have such repetitive reflection line pixels. The reflection image is not visible to the naked eye, and the main reason is that the eye cannot make this kind of point correction, or preconceived and later deleted, while the computer can do it.

        Scheme 3: Without optical long-distance high-precision measuring instrument, with three high-precision stereo cameras and computers, from all the reflected pixels obtained, the precise surface shape of the reflective object surface is preliminarily analyzed, and the point of the section is roughly parallel to the theoretical mirror, and some approximate slightly convex and concave mirrors, after the computer sorts out the approximate image, intelligently corrects the surface shape data of the reflective object surface to further accuracy, and then sorts out the image, and so on many times until a clear image is obtained.

        Scheme 4: You can also use a computer with a high-precision camera to obtain the reflection line pixels of any object surface in turn, and locate the pixels corresponding to the incident and reflection with a method similar to cracking the code, (it is necessary to avoid or correct the reflection line pixels that are easy to repeat), and add intelligent correction to integrate the image. The above four schemes can be complementary or combined, in short, with the rapid development of science, there will be more schemes to achieve this goal.

        Scheme 5: There is also the easiest to implement the scheme is to use glass or chrome plating and other materials to make regular cloth paper-like such as developing photos, that is, "ground glass", a plausible "mirror", and the reflected invisible image can be displayed like a mirror after computer leveling processing.

        Therefore, I proposed the reflection information network and proposed the creation of reflection informatics, and the preliminary conclusions were derived:

        Conclusion 1: The image of any interval contains the image information of all the incident and reflection intervals of the reflected light in the interval from the light source, that is, the incident and reflected light in any interval can obtain the image information of all the incident and reflection intervals through which it passes, as long as the precise shape data of the object surface of the relevant intervals are obtained or recorded at the same time. For example, an image or a photograph can obtain image information about other areas outside the scene where light can be incident and reflected, and a photograph of the back of a criminal can obtain an image of the offender's front and the area outside the photo, as long as the relevant area of the background at the scene is collected with several precise shapes of the object surface. For another example, a medium that conceals a transparent but non-incident visual image in front of the camera lens can also obtain image information, as long as the precise structure and shape of the medium inside the medium are obtained. 

        Conclusion 2: The time difference between all image information in the incident or reflection region is equal to the distance divided by the speed of light, so that the time difference in various regions of the entire earth is negligible, so that the event images (including the clock images) in a considerable range of reflection regions are synchronously mutually verified in time, that is, they have time information. That is, an image or a photograph has reliable time data. This is very important, which means that the images of all processes such as signing and voting in reality and the network have reliable proof of time, so that the security and reliability of the network and the real-name socialization of the network have produced a breakthrough development. If this "non-mirror reflectance display" is installed in all directions in the large-scale reflection area of the ray, and the reflection information network is established, the complex and accurate surveillance, navigation, and cruising around the world can be regarded as very ideal, and it is also the "holy eye" of the "God" around criminals and war criminals, and it can also focus on monitoring and searching for murder weapons and weapons, and link them with the alarm and defense system to curb crime and war. To maintain privacy, you can set a graphics permission and password. The new century can bring crime and war to its death.

Zou He Ming

June 4, 2000

E-mail: zohemng@outlook.com

Mobile: 18079108964

(The original Chinese version below shall prevail)

諾貝爾物理學獎提名的推薦項:

      扼制戰爭和犯罪的反射信息網絡及反射信息學

       ----基於我設計的非鏡反射顯像器之擴展

        我們都知道任何非發光體物只要能將其外表面磨光成鏡面，就能像鏡子一般反射圖像．同樣，計算機只要掃描獲取任意物面的符合各鏡麵條件的所有點的反射光，也能由計算機處理獲得反射圖像．現有技術還沒有通過對任意物面的反射線作鏡面信息處理而獲得反射圖像的裝置，非鏡反射顯像器的發明提供了這種掃描圖像顯示。它包括：光學遠距高精度測量掃描儀和計算機.

        光滑的地磚能反射圖像是因為地磚的上表面磨成了許許多多幾乎在一個平面上的小鏡面，而任意物面則可視為許許多多在各個不同平面內的小鏡面，不磨光將它們整合在一個鏡面上，只有通過計算機來完成．經過部分實驗和分析得出的結論是肯定的和完全可行的．非鏡反射顯像器將為許多方面帶來預想不到的發展．比如將它裝在汽車上，可以看到別的路段狀況；警方可用它監視罪犯或恐怖分子，展開搶險救援行動；裝在導彈上，可以更準確的對隱蔽目標巡航；另外在探測資源、醫療觀察、天文分析、信息網絡和文化習俗等等領域產生深遠影響．

        過去了的人間歲月一直被犯罪和戰爭所困惑，到處還聞得到殺人的硝煙．古代，戰爭使沒有防衛能力的平民傷亡最多，其次是士兵，最高決策者則最安全；近代，戰爭有不以平民為目標的發展，平民和士兵傷亡比例有變化，但還是最高決策者最安全；進入新世紀戰爭應不以平民和士兵為目標，而以決策者為目標，武器應向單體目標高精度打擊和複雜準確巡航方向發展，創新新世紀戰爭的觀念，戰爭所付出的生命代價集中於決策者之間，只有這樣戰爭才將會走向消亡，可大大提高聯合國維和作用。扼制犯罪也是社會文明的主要方面．想到這些，更加強了我對本項目研究探討的決心．

        在實驗室里用顯微鏡觀察能照清圖像的黑塑料片的截面，拋光過的一面在最上邊的一直在線上，呈間斷點狀，而大部分是接近在這一直在線的點，也就意味鏡面嚴格反射可視圖像的“點”占鏡面的比例相當之少．絕大部分是近似圖像, 在理想鏡面上的點不會超過三個, 而且有相當一部分密布的間隙，如同電視機的有限亮點看不出間斷一樣。再觀察任意不反射可視圖像的物面截面，則上表面不呈直線．這裡需要指出的是，提可視圖像，是因為不只是鏡面可反射圖像信息．這裡討論的任意物面暫不包括發光體表面．

        任意物面同樣可以找到足夠多的切面相互平行，或相互平行且平行理想鏡面的點．也就是殘缺鏡面. 還可找到許許多多大的殘缺凸凹鏡面和微小的凸凹鏡面，對我們討論來說，任意物面如同由許許多多大小不同殘缺程度不同的平鏡和凸凹鏡組成．這也是任意物面反射的圖像不可視的原因．要從這任意物面獲取反射可視圖像就如同拼圖遊戲一樣，這種圖像的整合只有用計算機來完成．我研究出五種整合方案：

        方案一：用光學遠距高精度測量與攝像儀，獲取指定物面區間的表面精密位置曲率尺度等形狀數據和相對應各掃描點的反射線、亮度和色度等掃描信息象素，計算機提取該區間這些數據中的，各個在同一平鏡面、同一凹鏡面、同一凸鏡面特別是微小凸凹鏡面上的, 反射角符合其鏡麵條件的所有點及其反射線象素，形成各個可能殘缺的圖像信息，並伸縮展平各凹鏡面和凸鏡面的扭曲圖像信息為平鏡面圖像信息（因為凸凹鏡面能寫出數學解析式，故用計算機展平是容易的），並將這所有圖像信息（之中入射區間圖像的每一對應掃描點只取其中之一反射線象素）互補成清晰的觀察物的反射掃描圖像信息,再輸入顯示器顯示圖像。

        方案二：同樣用光學遠距高精度測量與攝像儀，依次逐行獲取指定物面區間的表面精密位置、曲率和尺度等形狀數據及各與之相對應掃描點反射線象素，計算機同樣依次逐行地，根據每點切面法線找出獲取的反射線象素的入射點位，從而修正決定該反射線象素在圖像顯示屏中的相對應的點位．顯示點位象素重複相同可取平均值，或先入為主後來刪除．鏡面反射理論上沒有這種重複相同的反射線象素。任意物面肉眼看不到反射圖像，也主要是眼睛不能作這種點位修正和先入為主後來刪除，而計算機卻完全可以做到．

        方案三：不用光學遠距高精度測量儀，用三台高精度立體攝像儀和計算機，從所獲取的全部反射象素，初步分析反射物面精確的表面形狀，找出其切面大致平行理論鏡面的點，和某些近似微凸凹鏡面，計算機整合近似圖像後，智能修正達更進一步精確的反射物面的表面形狀數據，再整合圖像，如此反覆多次而得到清晰圖像為止．

        方案四：也可用一台帶高精度攝像儀的計算機，依次獲取任意物面的反射線象素，用類似破解密碼的方法定位入射與反射對應的象素，（要考慮避免或修正易重複相同的反射線象素），加智能修正來整合圖像．只取普通計算機分辨率的顯示器總象素值也要相當快的計算機，也許量子計算機等新型計算機可以解決．上述四種方案可結合或綜合採用，總之，隨着科學的高速發展，將有更多的方案來實現這一目標．

        方案五：還有最易實施的方案是，用玻璃或鍍鉻之類材料，製成如洗照片的布紋狀 “毛玻璃”似是而非的“鏡面”，其反射的肉眼不可視圖像，經計算機展平處理後可如鏡般顯示清晰圖像。

        由此我提出反射信息網絡並提議創立反射信息學，初步導出結論：

        結論1：任何區間圖像都包含該區間反射光自光源所經過的所有入射和反射區間的圖像信息，即任何區間入射和反射光均可獲取其經過的所有入射和反射區間的圖像信息，只要同時獲取或記錄相關各區域區間物面的精密形狀數據。比如，一幅圖像或一張照片可獲取其外當時光可入射和反射的別的區域的圖像信息，一張罪犯背影照片可獲取罪犯正面像及照片外區域區間的圖像，只要採集現場該背景相關區域區間有關物面精密形狀數椐即可。又如，在攝像機鏡頭前掩蓋可透光但不入射可視圖像的介質也可獲取圖像信息，只要獲取介質內部的精密結構形狀。 

        結論2：所有圖像信息在入射或反射區之間的時差等於距離除以光速，這樣整個地球各個區域的時差就可忽略不計，因此相當大範圍反射區域的各事件圖像（包括各時鐘圖像）在時間上同步互證，即具有時間信息。也就是說，一幅圖像或一張照片具有可靠的時間數據。這一點很重要，這意味在現實與網絡中的簽約表決等一切過程的圖像具有可靠時間上的證明，使網絡的安全可靠和網絡的實名社會化產生突破性發展。若在射線大範圍反射區域全方位安裝這“非鏡反射顯像器”，建立反射信息網絡，全球的複雜準確監視導航和巡航可算到家了，也是罪犯和戰犯身邊"上帝"的"聖眼"，還可着重監視搜索兇器和武器，與報警防衛系統鏈接，以扼制犯罪和戰爭。為維護隱私權，可設置顯像權限和密碼。新世紀讓犯罪和戰爭走向消亡.

鄒和明

2000年6月4曰

郵箱：zohemng@outlook.com

手機：18079108964

Recommended for nominations for the Nobel Prize in Literature: (Subject to the subsequent Chinese original)

          "Talking about Disasters" 

           ---- heart to heart     

        I just didn't drink much, only two taels per meal, and I was a little drunk. Self-introduction, I was born at noon on September 11, 50, coincidentally the Huang Qingren Pharmacy in the center of Nanchang, a mile away, was set on fire at the same time and turned to the ground, which was said by my father who was found home by a neighbor at the fire site. It was also the eve of the first anniversary of the celebration of the quarter-world with the barrel of a gun, and it seems that my arrival on this continent on 9/11 was a symbol of blood and fire fifty-seven years ago, and it seemed destined to be more than just my life, but only for autobiography here.

        Fortunately, before I was born, my family went from being a possible target of sanctions to being the master of sanctions, as my father was unwilling to do nothing. In those turbulent times, his father became the son of a widow and the only man in four generations. The family's real estate and land are large in the whole Zou Village, but there is no man in charge, and it is only fortunate that the middle peasants are in a hurry to become poor. Protected by her grandmother's "Song" family, my grandmother's family is a well-known family and <天工開物>the family of Song Yingxing, the author of the first encyclopedia of great scientists and thinkers in Chinese history.

        After the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, the parents dared to give birth to the eldest sister and moved to Nanchang. The civil war became more and more fierce, and only a year after the end of the civil war did my parents dare to give birth to me, and I was named Heming, for the wisdom and brightness, and "harmony" has tomorrow, which is the common view of the people who hate the civil war after many years of resistance against Japan. In fact, parents will not know that they still chose the wrong "9.11". If you don't believe me, listen to me.

     The aftermath of the war---- malnutrition, was one of the main reasons why I grew so thin. I was powerless since I was a child, and I was often bullied by some wild children, and there were "Jin Gen" of the hired farmer and the "horse cub" of the rickshaw driver's family diagonally opposite the courtyard, etc., I didn't want to go out and always played in the small courtyard, but the sisters and brothers of the Li family next door, Li Qin and Li Yan, were very good to me, and Li Qin often comforted me: "Don't be sad, let's play with you."

        At that time, my father got a job in the city government, and we lived in a small bungalow courtyard at No. 2 Banbu Street, opposite the new city hall on Zigu Road, under the high stone steps of the Great Catholic Church. The Li family is a former municipal civil servant, Li Qin is one year older than me, Li Yan is two years younger than me, and they have a brother-in-law who lives with them. Li Qin's uncle is an artist in a theater troupe, his girlfriend is an actor in the troupe, Li Qin often learns to sing, and we are together almost every day. The Li family was amiable, and his family's humane lifestyle contrasted strongly with the outside world, which deeply affected my young mind. And I especially like to watch his uncle paint, in my young heart has secretly decided that only if he has the ability to be respected will not be bullied, my love of art began at this time, and I was also enlightened by his uncle. Later, one day, when I saw Li Qin crying, I heard that her uncle was a rightist and was arrested, and since then I have not seen his uncle's girlfriend come to the door. Li Qin and her younger brother also became the targets of bullying by Jin Gen and the horse cubs, and only the children of our two families played together.

        Before I went to school, my grandmother's cousin Song lived in the house, he came to take the university entrance examination, I heard that he was very knowledgeable, his grades were top in the county, and his two college entrance examination scores reached the score line of famous universities, but none of the universities admitted him, and the adults said that it was a class problem, and the real estate and land reform movement was confiscated, and his parents suffered from the suppression of the counter-revolutionary movement. This time his recommendation was very good, and he broke with the family, and Jiangxi Institute of Technology accepted him. He often taught me to read and write, and I still remember that the first two words I knew were also the words "three" that he wrote in the teacher's column on the cover of my practice book. I often talk about my favorite book when I was <十萬個為什麼>younger. But his grades took a 180-degree turn in his sophomore year, and the school said he was mentally ill and dropped out. And what I remember the most is that once he sat on the edge of the bed with his legs between my chest and back, I was breathless, my struggle was ineffective, my head was almost unconscious, and for the first time I felt almost breathless. A year later, this well-mannered cousin killed the only aunt who loved him the most and most in his hometown, saying that he had killed the class enemy and eliminated the harm for the people, and finally he died in an iron cage tailor-made for him, leaving me with only <十萬個為什麼>that.

        In September '57, due to the 11-day difference in my birthday, the public primary school that was in short supply at that time refused to accept it, so I entered the Tuas Yuan private primary school. Many of the teachers here have historical problems, and public schools are not allowed to use them. The head teacher who taught me Chinese, Mr. Cha, had a husband who was a counter-revolutionary, and some said that he was in custody and some said that he had been suppressed and executed. Mr. Hu, who taught me arithmetic, was a former Chongqing government employee, and the one who taught us music and art was also a newly unemployed substitute teacher in the old troupe. In the classroom, rows of six-person desks nailed from two thick boards and one or two thin plates are like shaking machines, and the nails often shake their heads, and the naughty students step on them either with their front toes or cut their heels, and 90 percent of the children in the city still come to class barefoot. For the head teacher, it is indeed a lot of hard work. However, some parents said that the head teacher was "atoning for her sins", and I once heard her say when she was talking to another parent that only by teaching these children well can they forget their grief and have a sense of comfort and a reason to survive. The head teacher in his thirties had gray hair, and I was always puzzled.

        In 1958, Li Qin's grandparents, who were pharmacists, introduced my mother to work in a pharmaceutical factory and often worked night shifts, while my father was a fan of drama and often went out to watch theaters at night. Our children also often go to the soy sauce factory opposite the courtyard to see the steelmaking, there are three or four steel-making furnaces in this small half-step street, which is in response to Chairman Mao's movement "Great Leap Forward", the output of steel-making exceeds that of the United Kingdom, all walks of life participate, workers, farmers, families, women and children shoot together, smashing pots to find iron, digging three feet into the ground is extremely hot, we are like going to see fireworks.

        One day, we saw dazzling "sparks" flying from the soy sauce factory in the small courtyard, followed by the shouts of "Burn people to death!", and Xiaobanbu Street began to hear more and more shouts and running sounds. My sister hurriedly dragged me and the Li family out of the courtyard door, and sat on the stone steps outside the church, my sister ran back to the small courtyard, the Li family sisters and brothers were scared and cried, our heads shrunk together, and I stretched out my arms to protect them for the first time. My sister brought my grandmother and ran back to the courtyard again, and within a few minutes, the twelve-year-old sister twice moved a suitcase that was about the same weight as her sister. The fire was extinguished for more than an hour, and later I heard that the fire was caused by the "steelworker" who had not closed his eyes for several days, fell asleep by the haystack of the soy sauce factory and was finally burned to charcoal, and the body could not be found from the steelmaking charcoal and the waste heap.

        The Great Steelmaking Movement ended because most of the scrap steel was produced, and the high ground of the abandoned Catholic church behind the wall of my house became a scrap steel warehouse. One day, I heard the shouting of my grandfather, and hurriedly said to my mother, "My new clothes are here", but my sister actually gave me a small flower dress and dyed blue. My sister and I ran out of the door together, and when I turned around, I saw my mother stepping out of the door, there was a loud noise, and the old wall of the Catholic church collapsed in the room, and a large pile of soil and scrap steel filled every corner of my house. I immediately ran to the Li family next door, and the Li family was also crushed, I shouted the names of their brothers and sisters, and my mother came to tell me that the Li family had gone out, and I was relieved. It wasn't until I learned physics in junior high school that I realized that it was the "resonance" caused by my sister and I running together, which eliminated the hidden danger that would sooner or later endanger the two families.

          Although the "People's Commune," "Social Education," and "Preparing for War to Liberate Taiwan" campaigns in China have been held one after another in the past few years, the social costs paid by them are all less than the costs paid in the struggle with the Soviet Union, which helped to lay down the fourth quarter of the world, and the entire Chinese people are tightening their belts to pay off their debts. The "natural disasters" that followed in the next three years were even worse, and countless people died of starvation, but at least the top brass could leave behind a "heroic image" in which 99 percent of them starved to death without bowing their noble heads, and the blockade of news and refusal of foreign aid to show that "the east wind suppresses the west wind." In my hometown, there are frequent reports of eating up the bark of trees, swallowing "Guanyin soil" to add belly swelling to death, and in some places there are incidents of meat eating the same kind that were not heard of during the war. My two uncles also picked up two large empty baskets, how could the kind mother see death without saving, bought most of the food stamps and money that were not enough, and watched her thin brother carry the heavy burden with tears, barefoot, and return to the hundred miles of mountain road to save the family, the mother did not expect that her only growing son would face hunger. During that period, my sister and I had to get up early, came to the door of the vegetable field on Dieshan Road, I took the basket, let my sister squeeze in front empty-handed, as soon as the door was opened, my sister could give full play to the speed of the top three sprints in the youth group of the city's games many times, ranking at the front of the vegetable stall, and buying back only the outer layer of broken leaves of Baolai that the people of the city bought with tickets, and the vegetable supply rolls of a few taels per household had to be invalidated. My neighbors often say that I am like a white and tender scholar who often paints at home, and the eldest sister can push a boy as tall as her a few meters away with a palm to prevent him from bullying me.

        I studied junior high school in Nanchang No. 19 Middle School, and my sister studied secondary school in Nanchang Normal Physical Education Teacher's Class, on the same campus. In junior high school, I preferred mathematics, physics and chemistry, and my English performance in memorizing words and memorizing texts was not satisfactory. There was only one exception, when I was given 90 points for my essay after studying the article "The Style of the Pine Tree", and I commented on it among the teachers in the teaching and research group. From a large number of dazzling themes such as "red plum", "green pine", "sunflower" and "sunshine", the teachers competed to see the only inconspicuous "pebble" that is written about and is ubiquitous in every corner of the world, saw it scattered at the ends of the earth and let the wind and waves blow, saw it trampled on by others in the middle of the road, and saw it united in the thick walls of high-rise buildings. "Xiaoshi" has become my pen name for painting, when I was young, I dreamed of becoming a disciple of the great painter Qi Baishi, from elementary school to junior high school, from painting Lei Feng to painting Mao Zedong, class magazines and even school magazines are often edited by me.

        In the second year of junior high school, I won the title of "Outstanding Student of the City", joined the Communist Youth League in advance at the age of 14, and attended the commendation meeting held by the Youth League Municipal Committee and the Municipal Education Commission in the Bayi Auditorium. After the awards, I walked out of the auditorium and came to the compound, and I saw Li Qin under a small tree, and she was also holding the award certificate in her hand. We talked together for about twenty minutes, but I can't remember what we talked about, what we asked each other, because she kept her head down, so that I dared to look at her carefully. I found that she was more beautiful, and although she had been the prettiest girl in my eyes and that of my neighbors, I was even more impressed by her kindness, gentleness, elegance, and intelligence. For the first time, I felt like a fire was burning from my mouth to the bottom of my heart, and my whole body was boiling. It may also be that they are young, hot and cold quickly, and often cannot be together, and because they are busy studying, this enthusiasm has come and gone for more than a year, and the whole country has also changed from the "social education" movement to the "Cultural Revolution" movement.

        The so-called cultural revolution in '66 began when I graduated from junior high school, and the high school where I was recommended and selected could not go, and everyone stayed in school to make a revolution. As one of the few members of the Communist Youth League in every class, for the sake of communism, in response to Chairman Mao's call, for the liberation of all mankind, and for the liberation of the Western people from the dire misery, most of these underage students became political activists and revolutionaries overnight. I was no exception, and I used the pocket money I had saved up for a year to buy a hardcover bound volume of Mao Zedong's anthology to study. I participated in the Red Guards (royalists) organized by the provincial party committee, and the "four olds" were burned to destroy books, smash historical monuments, and replace old cards, so as to put the carpet of families with bad class composition to the bottom. I didn't move much since I was a kid, and I just followed behind.

       In the second half of the year, together with my sister, I joined the delegation to Beijing selected by the school and participated in the August 18 Tiananmen Chairman Mao's parade of one million Red Guards. Due to the large number of people in Beijing, I ate the "Dog Ignore Hard Flatbread" airlifted from Tianjin, and a few days later I had a sudden stomach problem, and my sister sent me to the hospital, starting my history of stomach disease, but fortunately I did not contract meningitis that is epidemic in many parts of the country. After returning to Nanchang through a "great connection" with the "radical" students of Tsinghua University in Beijing, I became a "radical" of the Red Guards, and was in charge of propaganda and broadcasting on campus. After I saw an unclaimed corpse by the "radicals" by the left door of the auditorium stage, and after I heard the deafening gunshots often ringing out on campus, I gradually came to my senses, and I quit the activities of the "radicals" and became a "dissipator." I took my sister's books to teach myself high school mathematics, and bought a set of three Soviet high school textbooks "Elementary Physics" to study at home.

        One day in '67, I came to the provincial library to look for reference books. In one of the least populous and quietest corners of the building, I saw a girl looking down at a book, and when I looked closely, it was Li Qin. I sat down next to her and started talking in a whisper, it turned out that she had been here a lot for months, preparing to go to the conservatory in the future. We agreed to come to the library together on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday mornings, and the rest of the time we studied at home, and I helped her with math and physics, and she helped me with Chinese and English, and she was one year older than me.

        During this period, I was deeply attracted by her beauty, and I began to study the relationship between her appearance, expression, personality and intelligence. I thought to myself, I must not lose this rare research opportunity given to me by God, and I often look through these kinds of books in the library. When I was younger, I admired Leonardo da Vinci the most, admired his brilliant achievements in painting and invention, and was most interested in Darwin's writings in his later years<人與動物的表情>. Inspired by Darwin's book: If a person or an animal is in a certain emotional and mental state for a long time, and the facial muscles are partially developed or atrophied and show a static expression, I think that from this static expression (appearance) of a person, we can also see what kind of mental state he has been living in for a long time, and what kind of personality tendency he will develop. It will also affect their words and deeds, posture and figure, eye intelligence, and even handwriting and fonts. However, this kind of analysis needs to be multifaceted and based on scientific or inductive methods, rather than the unfounded nonsense of fortune tellers, which is very learned. 

        During this period, I was deeply attracted by her beauty, and I began to study the relationship between her appearance, expression, personality and intelligence. I thought to myself, I must not lose this rare research opportunity given to me by God, and I often look through these kinds of books in the library. When I was young, I admired Leonardo da Vinci the most, admired his brilliant achievements in painting and invention, and was most interested in Darwin's later work "The Expression of Man and Animal". Inspired by Darwin's book: If a person or an animal is in a certain emotional and mental state for a long time, and the facial muscles are partially developed or atrophied and show a static expression, I think that from this static expression (appearance) of a person, we can also see what kind of mental state he has been living in for a long time, and what kind of personality tendency he will develop. It will also affect their words and deeds, posture and figure, eye intelligence, and even handwriting and fonts. However, this kind of analysis needs to be multifaceted and based on scientific or inductive methods, rather than the unfounded nonsense of fortune tellers, which is very learned. 

        During this period, I was deeply attracted by her beauty, and I began to study the relationship between her appearance, expression, personality and intelligence. I thought to myself, I must not lose this rare research opportunity given to me by God, and I often look through these kinds of books in the library. When I was young, I admired Leonardo da Vinci the most, admired his brilliant achievements in painting and invention, and was most interested in Darwin's later work "The Expression of Man and Animal". Inspired by Darwin's book: If a person or an animal is in a certain emotional and mental state for a long time, and the facial muscles are partially developed or atrophied and show a static expression, I think that from this static expression (appearance) of a person, we can also see what kind of mental state he has been living in for a long time, and what kind of personality tendency he will develop. It will also affect their words and deeds, posture and figure, eye intelligence, and even handwriting and fonts. However, this kind of analysis needs to be multifaceted and based on scientific or inductive methods, rather than the unfounded nonsense of fortune tellers, which is very learned. From this, I have comprehensively sorted out the "Inductive Self-Positioning, Selection and Correction Table": (Refer to the original in Chinese)

       For months, whether it was windy or rainy, Li Qin and I never stopped coming to the library, and we came and went on foot. Once we were late to take the bus home together, at the entrance of the road the car suddenly braked, my head was close to Li Qin's head, smelling the fragrance of her hair, I couldn't help it, along with the inertia of the brake on her face lightly kissed, this is the first kiss I have always wanted but dare not dare. Then she said to her hypocritically in a somewhat trembling voice: "Well, that man is so bold, he overtakes the car", she bowed her head and said nothing, her face was red to the base of her ears, and she felt as if she was leaning against my body as if she wanted to move away, but she did not move away. After getting off the bus, I said to her, "It's been a hot few days, can we go to Mingde Road Park at night to cool off?" It's close to your house, and I sometimes go there to sketch," she hesitated for a moment and agreed.

        I was so excited that I spent two or three hours in the afternoon silently writing Li Qin's face, expressions, and postures in preparation for sketching her in the evening. In the evening, I found a place in the park with less people and less light in a quarter of an hour early and returned to the agreed location. She came on time, and in order to avoid meeting acquaintances, after she saw me, I walked and gestured to the place I had chosen, and we sat down on a stone bench. I offered to give her a sketch and asked her to sing a song first, and I knew she was confident in that and agreed. In order not to alarm the people around her, she sang a song in a low voice, and I took advantage of the interest of the beautiful singing voice to start the outline of the painting, and after about half an hour, I showed her the painting, and her satisfied smile was my greatest comfort. Since then, I have painted her three times in the library, and I have also used her name to form butterflies and lotus flowers, painted them on white silk with perfume tones, made bookmarks, and given her the poetic name of "butterfly lotus painting". In order not to let her family condense, she only used the pen name "Xiaoshi". It's easy to meet acquaintances in the park and don't go again, but I'm happy to see you in the library. However, on November 15 of that year, the library was announced to be closed indefinitely. After discussion, we decided to change to the stone rockery on the "small island" on the other side of the Jiuqu Bridge in Bayi Park, where she could sing loudly and I could paint watercolors and gouache. Every time I sit on the highest part of this rockery, which is only a few meters large, tourists will not come up when they see it, she sits among the stones, and will not be recognized by acquaintances.

        One day, at the time of the breakup, I told her that there was a letter from me in the record book. I wrote: "For several years, whenever I think of you, I have almost forgotten everything else in this world, you have filled my whole mind, you have covered my whole vision, your voice has kept reverberating in my ears, resounding in my whole ear, the sea, whether it is calm or agitated, the wilderness, whether it is desolate or prosperous, the sky, whether it is dark and clear, Li Qin, you have to let me know, let me be sober, I also love this world." "This is my true feeling of deep love and ambition in the garden of Xiaoshi Mountain. The time I spent with Li Qin was undoubtedly the most unforgettable of my life.

        Soon a few months passed, one day, I waited on the rockery until half past twelve at noon and did not see Li Qin, I judged that something must have happened to her or the family, as soon as it was dark, I came to a big tree in the corner of the alley in front of her house, waited for more than ten minutes, saw her slowly walked out, as if she knew that I would come, looked left and right, saw me walk out from behind the tree, she walked slowly, and when I saw her red and swollen eyes too late to ask, I heard her suppressed and heavy sobs accompanied by the sound of:" Unexpectedly, my beloved father Jing was a historical counter-revolutionary and was arrested... Let's not see each other again in the future", hearing the latter sentence, seeing her so sad, I hugged her and said firmly in her ear, "No matter what the future holds, I will never be able to leave you", she sobbed on my shoulder for a while, and suddenly pushed me away and said: "I have no hope, I have become your hostile class overnight, don't associate with each other anymore." After saying that, he turned around and ran home. I stood in this tree late into the night and never saw her come out again.

        The next day, I told my parents the news, and my mother said that the pharmaceutical company had put up a big-character poster of Li Qin's grandfather in the past few days, and that tomorrow there would be a criticism meeting to bring down this bourgeois technical authority. The next day, my mother got off work and brought the news that Li Qin's grandparents committed suicide by taking sleeping pills at home at the same time last night. I immediately rushed to Li's house, only to see that the door had been sealed, and I inquired with the neighbors to find out that her sister and brother and her mother were escorted by the rebels yesterday morning to the old area of a mountain village in southern Gannan, and the specific county was not clear. I felt that my head was ringing at Weng, my eyes were wet, and I hurriedly walked out of the courtyard gate and involuntarily came to Minde Road Park. Sitting down on the stone bench where we had sit, bowing my head, feeling the pain of losing her, the pain of wanting to see her but not being able to see her, the pain of wanting to say but not being able to say to her. What will she be like at this time? What will be the moment she leaves Nanchang? What will happen when she knows what will happen to her grandparents after they die? Maybe they don't know that their grandparents died. Oh my God, why so soon one disaster after another befell an angelic good and weak girl. In this era of turmoil and catastrophe, such a beautiful, lovely, and controlled girl went to an ignorant and backward mountain village and wild area, and there was a lot of bad luck! After that, I couldn't get any news from Li Qin's family when I inquired everywhere.

        One day I was walking on Bayi Bridge, and while thinking about Li Qin, I improvised a tune, and this spiritual melody prompted me to rush home and write it down with a simple score, go for a walk and run back. Then I studied the stave by myself for more than ten days, changed to the stave and filled in the words: Li Qin, don't torture me, I am anxious and sad in my heart, Li Qin, if I don't see you, how can I live day and night, ah, big black eyes, curved and soft figure, beautiful and gentle voice, ....... However, in the Cultural Revolution, there can only be class feelings, love is the word of the bourgeoisie, the proletariat only has the comradeship of a revolutionary partner, love and infinite affection can only be given to the great leader and the party, and even the clothes are only popular army green.

       In 1968, the "four directions" allocation began, and all graduates of junior high and high schools across the country had to leave their guardians and be assigned to factories, rural areas, and labor education corps. Nearly half of the minors left their parents to become workers and farmers. I was fortunate enough to be assigned to work as a steel making preparation worker in a large factory in Qingyunpu, Nanchang. I didn't work for a few days, but on the recommendation of my dormitory supervisor, I was seconded to the propaganda room of the factory's political department as a graphic designer. I spent all day writing Chairman Mao's quotes, large slogans, and painting Chairman Mao's portrait, which was a "red ocean" style propaganda work. The larger walls of the factory almost all have my handwriting left, and the pavilion at the entrance is a huge portrait of Chairman Mao. As someone who is almost eighteen years old, people think I am only fifteen years old and call me a "little painter".  

I have a habit of drawing portraits of Chairman Mao with a slightly red face because the representatives of the factory army ordered him to have a bright red face. Even if I painted all of him like a drunken person, I could still receive their praise, but I couldn't be different from Chairman Mao. This would be a political issue that would kill me. The brutality and madness of the Gang of Four were unmatched by Qin Shi Huang and Hitler, and it was truly unprecedented.

         This period is a good opportunity for me to start learning oil painting and sculpture for free. In order to paint a huge outdoor red flag and keep Chairman Mao's face unchanged, a bottle of Foshan Yinzhu costs more than 24 yuan, equivalent to my salary for one and a half months. A bottle costs only a dozen pens, and a huge cost can be imagined. Political propaganda is at no cost, not to mention money, even if it costs many lives. In order to fight the big brother of the Soviet Union, tens of millions of people died in the early 1960 s, not to mention the unprecedented Cultural Revolution. Four or five people helped hundreds of millions of people to call every day not to be afraid of sacrifice and defend the great leader to the death. In this non-war era, compatriots all over the country are killing each other, and gunshots are heard everywhere. It is even more out of print and unprecedented. I also set up a sculpture hall commemorating the class struggle in the "Rent-collecting House" in the factory, and I painted all the scenes and posters of three or four model dramas performed by various military companies in the factory. I also "invented" the method of using soap to adjust advertising color and painting economical and durable scenery on sacks with industrial talcum powder and cow glue as the bottom.

More than a year passed like this, during which I never stopped inquiring about Li Qin's news. In my dreams, I waited for her letters, for my familiar handwriting, words, and even mournful singing.

         My sister was working as a broadcaster at the Shengli District Broadcasting and Propaganda Station. Her unit received a task to paint six giant promotional murals at the entrance of the "Third Generation Conference" (now Hongdu Hotel). I asked for a painting for the factory. At that time, my factory was planning to have two people go to paint, but that person didn't dare to go. I only had one person to go. In order to save time, I go to paint every day at dawn. The next morning, I found a monk standing behind me watching. Suddenly, I remembered Li Qin saying that his uncle had entered Buddhism a few years ago. I turned around and saw that it was indeed him, but my art enlightenment teacher had aged a lot. I quickly asked Li Qin and his family where they were. He placed his hands on his chest, closed his eyes slightly, and said two words in a row, "It's good not to mention it," before turning around and heading towards the direction of Bayi Bridge. I quickly packed up my things and caught up with him. After repeated questioning, he only briefly said:

"Sister is crazy, my nephew is taking care of her"

"Where's your niece?" I asked, and he remained silent and lost in thought,

"You say it",

"The revolutionary rebel township head who was in power raped, jumped into the river, couldn't find it, ascended to heaven, and was liberated from the grass behind the small hills by the river."

My mind was blank, and I asked weakly in a trembling voice, "So, so, have you caught the township head?"

Is murder and rape still rare among today's Cultural Revolution rebels? What if we dig our hearts and lungs? Are counter revolutionaries and their families human now? Who would dare to speak for the daughter of counter revolutionaries“

My head was struck by lightning, and I stared blankly as he walked. Suddenly, I ran over and squeezed his right arm with both hands, asking:

"When did you die?"

"Four days before the Dragon Boat Festival, June 4th"

"Where are they placed?"

"I don't know, don't disturb them."

I shook off his hand forcefully, and he continued walking forward without looking back. I lay down on the grass near the bridge, accompanied by a small tree. The tree bent, but I didn't know if it would break. I didn't seem to have any strength. My head was ringing on the ground again, tears made it difficult for me to see whether the sky was white or black, and my ears could only hear the frequent collision of my upper and lower teeth. I clenched my fists and pounded hard on the ground, then pinched them in front of my ears. For a long time, tears couldn't flow out, and there were waves of pain in my hands. I hate myself, why didn't I find Li Qin at that time? Why not take the initiative to request the delegation of Gannan? I hate her, why cut off contact with me cruelly, why! Why leave me here alone! She's over there! Can she still come back? Why do people have such pain?!

         I don't know how long it took, but I walked to the Bayi Bridge. In the distance of the upper reaches of the Gan River, swallowing my beloved, I looked up at the brightest star in that direction, casting its glow into the surging river water. Gradually, the faint and faint flicker followed, and looking down at the deep vortex beneath my feet, I seemed to want to follow the stars and escape the pain of this reality.   My head then fell on my chest, is it only the right of the rough and mediocre to survive? The knowledgeable Song Biao Ge went crazy and died; Teacher Gao also died after being sent down; The homeroom teacher, who was single at the age of thirty, also had white eyebrows; Li Qin's mother went crazy, and Li Qin's handsome uncle became a monk; Li Qin's grandparents passed away overnight; Now that Li Qin has also gone, the only thing that Li Yan can't help but be crazy about is not returning. I don't understand, but I must understand! I seemed to hear their cries, as if they were not one, ten or millions of voices. I realized my responsibility in the future, regained some consciousness, felt the shaking of my hands and the growling of my stomach. I dried my hands and blood stains on my face, went to the small shop near the bridge, and bought some food and a bottle of Baijiu.

            There is no one at home, my mom works the night shift, and my dad may have gone to the theater again. After my sister gets married, I have a separate room. I closed the door and drank alone. This was my first time to drink Baijiu, which opened my drinking history I also understood the anesthetic effect of alcohol and had only tasted glutinous rice sweet wine made by my mother before. After drinking the first glass, my face started to heat up, and I woke up the next morning after drinking half a bottle. After packing up, I left the house before my mother came back and ran across the entire Changbei area across the Bayi Bridge. The next day, there was no news of Uncle Li Qin from the Xishan Temple, which was several tens of miles away. For three days, I waited for him at the bridgehead every morning for two or three hours, and I began to wonder if he was in Nanchang.

On the fourth day, I received a letter at home. The envelope was signed by Li Qin's uncle. When I opened it, I found Li Qin's diary:

       February 2nd... I can't believe that my younger brother and I, who have been taught since childhood to love our country and people, are kind and honest, always willing to help and respect everyone, are enemies of the people. Competition will be the enemy of the people... My father's arrest the day before yesterday will mean the complete shattering of my ideals. My uncle's classification as a right-wing member has dealt a huge blow to the whole family, and now... Although breaking ties with He Ming the day before yesterday was not my intention, it is an inevitable outcome. Interacting with the daughter of an anti revolutionary will inevitably destroy his future. I understand that he will not care about these things, but I cannot help but worry about him. He will make a difference, and his success will make my heart ache. Comfort, but it will be a lifelong regret to be destroyed by me... Heming, I haven't closed my eyes for two days, and I don't know how many tears I have shed. I will never forget your love for me in my lifetime. But we don't have fate, it's my fate... Today we were taken to a foreign land, maybe we will spend our whole lives here I am well aware that my mother has been worried about her father, grandfather, and grandmother, but she still has to constantly comfort me and my brother. The pressure inside her is unimaginable. Tears keep me from watching.

       There have been reports of murders and heart gouging incidents of cannibalism in various parts of the country. However, this time it is not the same as a few years ago when people were starving, but rather a true manifestation of class hatred, which is usually just talk about it and "I wish I could bite you". The remains of class enemies are abandoned in the wilderness, and relatives dare not claim them. I heard that a young girl in Jiangxi was executed by firing squad after being labeled as an active counter revolutionary for harboring the words "Ningning Cultural Revolution" in her love letter to a soldier. An old neighbor dug out the vagina of the abandoned girl and collected it at home. Class enemies can only be eaten by insects and mice for their meat, and only by wild dogs for their bones can they satisfy their hatred and offer loyalty. The instigated Red Guard rebels used a hate race against the "enemy" to demonstrate "clear love and hate, firm stance.". If young people don't believe it, just ask every honest and outspoken person around you, and you will believe what happened twenty years after the post-war "peaceful environment".

On June 4th of the following year, I lit candles on the windowsill. Until now, on this day every year, I can only use this method to mourn the spirit of Li Qin.

            I have come to see more and more clearly the crazy evil of four or five people fighting for power and profit. I spent nearly a year's salary of over 100 yuan to buy the best "Red Flag" three band semiconductor radio in the domestic market at that time. Listening to shortwave until late at night every day, listening to domestic and foreign current events and political discussions, makes my eyes brighter and brighter. Friend, do you know? Listening to external channels during the era of the Gang of Four or Five was a counter revolutionary activity, and even if caught without being shot, one would be killed or even executed. I have no fear at all. I also put red quotes on the plastic surface of my study notebook bag that I carry with me. Whenever I say "long live" to Chairman Mao before and after class, during meals, or during meetings, only I hold high the quotes of science and knowledge. During my secondment to the Propaganda Department of the Political Department as a graphic designer, sometimes the Political Department thought I was in the company, and the company thought I was in the Political Department, which allowed me to avoid all political and loyalty giving activities that had to be participated in. I may have been the only one in the entire factory who did not participate in the "voter voting" activity, where I played gongs and drums to call the names and queue up. This habit has made me, who is nearly sixty years old, never participate in the "voter voting" to this day. Later, the 6011 unit led by the Secretary of the Provincial Party Committee, Cheng Shiqing, came three times to recruit me and a colleague who played accordion to become literary and artistic soldiers. There would be an opportunity to enjoy the treatment of an officer, and the factory army representative would only let one person go without me. In fact, I was not willing to go either. This period was the lowest point of my                  youth emotions, and I hardly ever drew a painting that I felt satisfied with myself, even though my ears were filled with praise.

           On a day in early September 1996, which was also a memorable one for me, my close colleague Gong Dongjian (now teaching in the United States) was recruited by the General Administration Military Band to work as a baritone singer. He returned to Chang for the first time, and I invited him to eat crabs at home at noon. Amidst the drunkenness, we heard the sound of mournful music on the radio outside. It wasn't until we walked to the balcony that we could hear that Chairman Mao had passed away. The two of us finished a large bowl of crabs, and we had a premonition that, in fact, it was the end of the era of crab rampage in the Gang of Four, and it was also the expectation of the people of the whole country at that time.

        After the fall of the Gang of Four and Five, my mood also improved, and I participated in many technical research and technological innovation activities, such as the processing of new product parts without special machine tools and tools, and the design and production of missing parts of machine tools imported from East Germany; After the invention of the "spiral flying knife tooth method", without special machine tools and special tools, you can process a variety of standard non-standard and foreign standard gear tooth shape of the Chinese patent, at that time China Mechanical and Electrical News and local newspapers, also reported this spiral flying knife tooth development method and my dozens of technological innovations, but also made me evaluate the only technician in the four types of rolling and plugging sylum milling in the whole factory. However, I am always worried that if reform and opening up only carries out economic structural reform, it is like prolonging the painful life of terminally ill patients without curing the root cause, and the virus will also gain rich nutrients, making their life worse than death.

        During the Dragon Boat Festival on the 10th anniversary of Li Qin, I wrote an elegy after drinking and posted it on both sides of my home:

                The ancient Taoist government is harsh and fierce, and the current Yanfu is defeated and takes drugs.

        A neighbor student asked me at my door: "Uncle Zou, there is a meat word missing under the corrupt word rot", and I replied: "The meat is rotten, only the body is left".

        After the reform and opening up, in order to establish a relationship with a sand and gravel company in a model town-run enterprise, and to design a gatehouse and a popular iron fence fence for it, I spent more than half a month to understand the difference between architectural drawing and mechanical drawing, and used my art expertise to design and guide the construction. This makes the surrounding large units also envy the façade building, and soon obtained two sand and gravel companies hundreds of miles apart to sign a contract with us to make sand and gravel electromechanical conveyor lines, sand screening machines and riverside wide overhang 100 meters long cool gate corridor business. I was responsible for both the design and manufacturing of both. In the year when the "10,000 households" appeared, I made a net profit of more than 30,000 yuan for these two businesses, excluding the additional contract payment to the branch, and the second phase of the automatic sand and gravel conveyor line in the middle of the river and the shore that I designed for one of them was even more profitable. With the funds, I can start working for a non-technical real ideal, and when I was reported by the Nanchang Evening News and other publications, I announced my decision to start the Jiangxi Song Yingxing Research Association.

        Towards the end of the project, I also took over the business of repairing sand dredging ships and other businesses of this famous company, and arranged for the niece of the wife of the manager of this famous company to learn electric welding, she is only 19 years old on the pseudonym, surnamed Wang. But two days later, someone from the construction site said that Xiao Wang was sent to the town hospital by an electric fan, and I hurried to the hospital. The doctor was stitching her, and the bone was almost visible from the wound on the back of her hand. I had more than ten stitches without anesthetic, but she didn't hum, she lowered her head and gritted her teeth, she was very strong, this was the first impression that the girl gave me.

        When I came to visit her the next day, I found that her eyes were very big like Li Qin's, which made me immersed in the memories of being with Li Qin. Her mother came home that day, and I had to take care of her more during the hospitalization, and gradually I was ashamed to have a good impression in her heart, she often said, "You are so good", and I gradually had the feeling of being by Li Qin's side. Even though I'm thirty-six years old, most people think I'm not much older than the young people on the construction team. It is not difficult to see this from the wedding photos of me and Xiao Wang, and it is not difficult to find this genetic trait from the current appearance of my daughter. My daughter will graduate from the music department next year, and it can be seen that she looks like a junior high school student, with white skin and a baby face.

       Li Qin has been dead for 16 years, and I have been chasing her since I was 36 years old and unmarried, and now I have found her again, which seems lucky. My parents have been retired for many years, and my mother is sick, so it is time for me to get married and do my filial piety. After my relationship with Xiao Wang became closer, I showed a willingness to further develop our relationship and take her home to meet her parents. Her parents agreed, at her insistence. So in '86, I took her back to Nanchang to prepare for the marriage, and the marriage was registered on March 14, and the wedding was held on May 1. One thing that saddens me is that the portrait I painted for Li Qin more than ten years ago and Li Qin's diary were burned by Xiao Wang, leaving only a half-formed jade statue of Li Qin.

      To anyone's surprise, the competition would talk about divorce on the night of the wedding, and because I had been busy all day, I lay in bed at night and closed my eyes and pondered, and Xiao Wang thought I was asleep and put a hand around my head. When there was water dripping on my face, I saw that she was crying, and asked her "what's wrong", and after asking for a long time, she said, "You are good at everything, if you can be a little younger". I understand that any "if" is easy to do, but this "if" cannot be done. I also understood that despite her determination in front of her parents, it was hidden in her heart, because it happened after she thought I was asleep. I sincerely told her that if in the future we were not compatible in appearance, and if she found a more suitable one, we would divorce.

        On October 10 of the lunar calendar, at 1 o'clock on November 11 of the Gregorian calendar, my daughter was born, and there is also a "qin" at the end of the name.

        When Xiao Wang's mother knew about the "cave room departure", perhaps it was the appearance of Xiao Wang's "Li Qin's beauty", every time she went to the dance hall with her mother, a boy would chase her to the door. Soon we got a divorce by mutual agreement at the street office. My daughter is unilaterally supported and guardianed by me, she can come to see the child at any time, and she eats at my house until she remarries. I also said that she could come to me at any time if she had trouble speaking, and I also added some supplies to her afterwards. Since her hukou had been transferred to Nanchang, I asked my colleague to help her get a work index. But there was no job to work, so I first paid Xiao Wang's one-year salary to the contractor of the sales department of the factory, and she could start working. I know that as long as she goes to the service industry to apply for a job, she will compete for it based on her appearance, but the service industry is too messy, and if something goes wrong, at least I'm sorry for my daughter. In this way, more than a year of marriage, including pregnancy and nursing, ended.

        In the following years, I organized, improved and completed several patented inventions, and the sense of accomplishment made me find new spiritual sustenance, and I also became addicted. Before I participated in the national institutional invention paper presentation, Xiao Wang's factory asked me to help contact the patent cooperation of Fan's quick clamp vise, which won the international award, which was reported by major media at that time. After I saw the structure of the Van vice at the meeting, I found that adding multiple small components with high precision and poor strength to the rough tools that are often beaten increased cost and reduced life was its fatal weakness, which was later proved by loss and obsolescence. Therefore, I didn't talk about it, when Xiao Wang factory asked about it, I designed a high-efficiency quick clamping vice in three days, reducing the traditional vice of 20 or so parts to six or seven parts, the full stroke quick clamping workpiece and steering locking are completed at one time, and can be manufactured without cutting, beautiful and durable and good precision cast steel galvanized or chrome-plated (the international market has not yet been available) vice, the cost is lower than the current cast iron painted vice.

        After obtaining the Chinese patent, the Labor Bureau took a fancy to me and transferred me out of the factory to build a school-run factory in Nanchang Technical School to prepare for production. Soon after, the Chinese Patent Office organized a delegation to participate in the Singapore Invention Exhibition, and I and a deputy director-general of the Labor Bureau participated, and the two of them paid more than 40,000 yuan, but the director (who had already been sentenced) asked me to receive 90,000 yuan in exchange for US dollars, so I did not show up until before departure. Anyway, I didn't go alone, and I wasn't afraid that I would go to the soup. Before lunch on the second day of the exhibition, a businessman paid 50,000 US dollars to buy my patent for a quick clamp pipe wrench, I decided on the spot that I was going abroad at public expense, and I did not find the businessman at lunch five minutes later. Afterwards, some people complained about me, and I should give some to another person on the spot, and I can make my own decisions about personal patents, but I don't have the consciousness of bribing at all. After winning the gold medal for the high-efficiency quick clamping vice, the school asked me to change several individual patents that have won awards at home and abroad to the school, although I agreed to give the school free of charge to develop and produce and asked not to change, but finally signed the change document against my wishes, but the Chinese Patent Office did not accept it, and the school was very dissatisfied. At this time, Mr. Fan of a research institute in Northeast China, the inventor of Fan's vice, wrote a seven- or eight-page letter to the leaders of our school, using specific examples of his own losses to persuade the school not to put into production, and was rushing to add fuel to the fire. I decided to start my own studio at home after working for three months without getting paid, and I haven't been to work since.

         A month later, a small Singaporean businessman made a special trip to Nanchang to discuss the joint development of patents, and I brought it to the bureau. At this time, because the provincial TV station broadcast several of my inventions, the magistrate of Zou County, whose ancestral hometown was Fengxin, made a special trip to Nanchang to discuss cooperation with me. First, the Sino-Singapore joint venture "Jiangxi Xinhua Science and Technology Development Co., Ltd." was established for patent development, and then signed a contract with Singapore-Malaysian businessmen in Shenzhen to invest in the production of high-efficiency fast clamping vices, but unexpectedly, the Fengxin China Merchants Competition Association unilaterally changed two places in the contract that had reached the agreement, in which the chairman and deputy general manager appointed by the two sides were replaced. Therefore, Xinhua Technology Company also ended the cooperation a year later because the Singapore side refused to receive funds.

 ......

       It's getting dark, and it's time for me to drink two taels again.

        Drinking can not only relieve sorrows, but also reminisce while drinking, and feel like a fairy, at this time it is really burning your buttocks, and you will look back and continue to write without hurry.

        Looking back on the changes in my thinking after Li Qin's death, I sorted out the "multi-level rounding theory" that I first put forward in my letter to Jian Rou more than 20 years ago. I knew that it would be difficult to express these ideas at the time, so I thought of publishing them in the same way as a patent application procedure. In this way, the world's first "patent" application involving social sciences that seeks only social benefits and not individual economic benefits was <電腦民主高速公路系統>published in the mid-nineties. Then one after another, I understood that the review of these journals in the field of natural sciences did not have "sensitive nerves", and that the aspect was much more relaxed, and the National Intellectual Property Publishing House, the People's Pictorial Press, and the People's Daily Publishing House published the computer democracy highway system I proposed one after another. 

        As I was writing this, my eight-year-old daughter's first patent, the invention of the multi-purpose paper clip. One day, when I was writing, I asked my daughter to bring me a pin, and she didn't find it, so she straightened the paper clip in half and cut it to me. It inspired her to think more and repeatedly improve it to make it more functional, so that a multi-purpose paper clip with the functions of paper clip, pin, stretch needle, pin and thumbtack applied for a Chinese patent. Because it resembles the handwritten characters "6" and "4", it was named "6.4 needle". I guess it touched a certain "sensitive nerve" in the intellectual circles at that time, and the TV station reported on my daughter's invention one after another, and sometimes it was cynical and funny for decades. Immediately afterwards, he won the first prize of provincial and municipal youth innovation and invention, made an exception to be absent from the exhibition and won the silver medal of the 96 Beijing International Invention Exhibition and the silver medal of the National Youth Innovation Competition, Wang Danping and Chen Xiangmei and other bonuses, and CCTV "Star of Hope" and the national "21st Century Star" and other titles, and her daughter was rated as an academician by the Chinese Juvenile Academy of Sciences in 2001.

        Since then, many schools have invited me to give lectures on innovation and invention, and I ask teachers and parents to cultivate children's sense of innovation from an early age: when it comes to innovation and invention, many people will say that it is difficult, but in fact, it is not the case, as long as you give up part of the time to chat and play cards, and "crooked brains" move less, you can also engage in invention. It can be said that it will be easier than doing math problems, because math problems often have only one or two answers, while the answers to invention projects can be different, thousands, and each has its own merits. Math problems are given by the teacher, and there is no choice, and the invented topics are everything and things around you, and there are enough. Some math problems you may not be able to do in an hour or two, while others you can invent and innovate in a few minutes. The key is to develop the habit of always living in a sense of innovation, and dissatisfaction with reality is the driving force for you and even the progress and development of society.

        In 97, my mother has been hospitalized for more than ten years, accumulating hundreds of thousands of yuan in public expenses and self-expenses, and on June 1 of this year, the mother's original public-funded medical treatment began to be more stringent. June 4th is Li Qin's Memorial Day, I have been in a bad mood in the hospital, my mother thought I was worried about medical expenses, and said to me: "Take me home, I can't be cured, I'm leaving, the salaries of the officers in my unit are starting to become problems, don't waste it, you still have to live." I refused, and my mother stumbled that night to argue with the doctor to be discharged. A few days later, the doctor saw that her complexion had improved and allowed her to be discharged, but on the night of the fourth day of discharge, that is, the night Jiangxi TV reported the news of my daughter's award, my mother passed away. I was in great pain, my mother was deeply impressed by her hard work and kindness all her life, and she was seriously ill with bronchitis after decades of working in a pharmaceutical factory, and she was still thinking of her public colleagues at the end of her life.

       After my mother died, I was no longer busy and lonely, and the machinery industry was sluggish, so my old classmates suggested that I learn computers. I bought a computer and began to learn it seriously when I was nearly forty-eight years old. After a year of self-study, there was a problem with the computer's hard drive, and the saved data was lost. I opened the hard disk circuit board, my daughter's eyes are good, she found that there are small holes on the small tin surface of the wiring contacts, which are easy to contact poorly, and everything is normal after flattening. I feel the importance of hard drives and know that this is the hardest problem in computer repair. I bought dozens of bad hard disks from different manufacturers from the market, and after a year of intermittent research, I set up a dust-free studio, and set up the first computer data recovery and hard disk repair studio in the province, ashamed to have a certain impact on the computer market, some of them sent some to my studio, although I learned to apply for a short time, but the level of repair in the eyes of the young bosses in the computer market is a rare white-haired "expert" old man in the computer industry.

      The repair method is basically the same in all countries of the country, and in order to highlight my own level, I have been researching my own methods for the most difficult hard drives for several years. For example, the data recovery of special file formats such as CNC machines that cannot be viewed under DOS, imported microcomputer printing machines, or photocopiers with hard disks. If the hard disk cannot be recognized, it will be hot-swapped and replaced after the hard disk is booted, but it should not be restarted and exited repeatedly before it has been repaired and verified. To this end, I have compiled the program "Heming Hard Disk Data Repair Tool Platform PC sos 6.4", so that the repair and inspection software can be quickly switched between each other after all rewrites, without restarting or exiting. The main difference in the functions of the repair and inspection software is that the longer the repair and inspection time, the more thorough it is. When I received the consultation call, I learned that the merchant downloaded the simplified version from my website and made a CD with the same name, which has been distributed in major cities across the country.

         A few years ago, buying a hard disk in China required an ordinary person's salary for one or two months, and my kind daughter sent an email to several major hard disk manufacturers around the world about the design problems of the hard disk body and its circuit board wiring that we found, and she received a heartfelt thank you and souvenir from the reply. The poor wiring method has more than 50 percent, and the hard disk of the laptop is as high as more than 80 percent. Quantum and IBM are almost all wiring methods, the wiring of the hard disk circuit board is composed of two rows of more than ten small tin heads, and the relative position on the disk body is composed of more than ten small contacts. If one or two screws are pressed at both ends or in the center, the temperature of the hard disk will increase significantly after use, and the circuit board is very thin, and the heating after pressing the screws will become concave or convex, resulting in some of the contacts being broken or in poor contact, and it is easy to produce electric sparks, so that the tin head will produce small holes and produce an oxide layer with poor conductivity. It's no wonder that the famous brand is discolored.Hard drive manufacturers merge and transfer.

       In 2000, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the anniversary of Li Qin's anniversary, I wrote after drinking:

Seven absolutes: grievances distort the Central Plains

The soul of the land rushed to the sky,

The raging sea turned into tears and sprinkled to the Central Plains,

The strong bones are used as hammers to break the century,

The body is crushed into the shape of a tympanic membrane, awakening the human world.

......

In 93, after the discussion and approval of the meeting of the Provincial Association for Science and Technology and the issuance of a document, I was responsible for inviting dozens of professors, experts and scholars from inside and outside the province, including Tsinghua University, to establish the Jiangxi Song Yingxing Research Association. The Civil Affairs Department and the Provincial Association for Science and Technology have different opinions, and the Civil Affairs Department asks for a large amount of funds, but the Association for Science and Technology does not think so about academic organizations and wants us to operate as soon as possible. I bought a studio with the money from the sale of patents and support from the new party, and continued to design new patent projects while forming a research group.     

      After my daughter enrolled in school, my mother's bronchitis worsened, which was related to decades of working in a pharmaceutical factory, and she began to need to be hospitalized for more than half a year at first. I also started moving between the hospital, school, and home. At the same time, I applied for patents one after another, and my neighbors said that I was thinking about problems when I walked, like I was addicted, and I often designed until one or two o'clock in the evening, and sometimes I got up after falling asleep to write, for fear that I would forget it the next day. And I began to focus on the social issues that I was really interested in, the ones that led to a series of disasters around me for decades, and eight or nine years later, I became more interested in them.

      In 90, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the anniversary of Li Qindian, I wrote after drinking:

        It's getting dark, and it's time for me to drink two taels again.

        Drinking can not only relieve sorrows, but also reminisce while drinking, and feel like a fairy, at this time it is really burning your buttocks, and you will look back and continue to write without hurry.

        Looking back on the changes in my thinking after Li Qin's death, I sorted out the "multi-level rounding theory" that I first put forward in my letter to Jian Rou more than 20 years ago. I knew that it would be difficult to express these ideas at the time, so I thought of publishing them in the same way as a patent application procedure. In this way, the world's first "patent" application involving social sciences that seeks only social benefits and not individual economic benefits was <電腦民主高速公路系統>published in the mid-nineties. Then one after another, I understood that the review of these journals in the field of natural sciences did not have "sensitive nerves", and that the aspect was much more relaxed, and the National Intellectual Property Publishing House, the People's Pictorial Press, and the People's Daily Publishing House published the computer democracy highway system I proposed one after another. 

        As I was writing this, my eight-year-old daughter's first patent, the invention of the multi-purpose paper clip. One day, when I was writing, I asked my daughter to bring me a pin, and she didn't find it, so she straightened the paper clip in half and cut it to me. It inspired her to think more and repeatedly improve it to make it more functional, so that a multi-purpose paper clip with the functions of paper clip, pin, stretch needle, pin and thumbtack applied for a Chinese patent. Because it resembles the handwritten characters "6" and "4", it was named "6.4 needle". I guess it touched a certain "sensitive nerve" in the intellectual circles at that time, and the TV station reported on my daughter's invention one after another, and sometimes it was cynical and funny for decades. Immediately afterwards, he won the first prize of provincial and municipal youth innovation and invention, made an exception to be absent from the exhibition and won the silver medal of the 96 Beijing International Invention Exhibition and the silver medal of the National Youth Innovation Competition, Wang Danping and Chen Xiangmei and other bonuses, and CCTV "Star of Hope" and the national "21st Century Star" and other titles, and her daughter was rated as an academician by the Chinese Juvenile Academy of Sciences in 2001.

        Since then, many schools have invited me to give lectures on innovation and invention, and I ask teachers and parents to cultivate children's sense of innovation from an early age: when it comes to innovation and invention, many people will say that it is difficult, but in fact, it is not the case, as long as you give up part of the time to chat and play cards, and "crooked brains" move less, you can also engage in invention. It can be said that it will be easier than doing math problems, because math problems often have only one or two answers, while the answers to invention projects can be different, thousands, and each has its own merits. Math problems are given by the teacher, and there is no choice, and the invented topics are everything and things around you, and there are enough. Some math problems you may not be able to do in an hour or two, while others you can invent and innovate in a few minutes. The key is to develop the habit of always living in a sense of innovation, and dissatisfaction with reality is the driving force for you and even the progress and development of society.

        In 97, my mother has been hospitalized for more than ten years, accumulating hundreds of thousands of yuan in public expenses and self-expenses, and on June 1 of this year, the mother's original public-funded medical treatment began to be more stringent. June 4th is Li Qin's Memorial Day, I have been in a bad mood in the hospital, my mother thought I was worried about medical expenses, and said to me: "Take me home, I can't be cured, I'm leaving, the salaries of the officers in my unit are starting to become problems, don't waste it, you still have to live." I refused, and my mother stumbled that night to argue with the doctor to be discharged. A few days later, the doctor saw that her complexion had improved and allowed her to be discharged, but on the night of the fourth day of discharge, that is, the night Jiangxi TV reported the news of my daughter's award, my mother passed away. I was in great pain, my mother was deeply impressed by her hard work and kindness all her life, and she was seriously ill with bronchitis after decades of working in a pharmaceutical factory, and she was still thinking of her public colleagues at the end of her life.

        After my mother died, I was no longer busy and lonely, and the machinery industry was sluggish, so my old classmates suggested that I learn computers. I bought a computer and began to learn it seriously when I was nearly forty-eight years old. After a year of self-study, there was a problem with the computer's hard drive, and the saved data was lost. I opened the hard disk circuit board, my daughter's eyes are good, she found that there are small holes on the small tin surface of the wiring contacts, which are easy to contact poorly, and everything is normal after flattening. I feel the importance of hard drives and know that this is the hardest problem in computer repair. I bought dozens of bad hard disks from different manufacturers from the market, and after a year of intermittent research, I set up a dust-free studio, and set up the first computer data recovery and hard disk repair studio in the province, ashamed to have a certain impact on the computer market, some of them sent some to my studio, although I learned to apply for a short time, but the level of repair in the eyes of the young bosses in the computer market is a rare white-haired "expert" old man in the computer industry.

The repair method is basically the same in all countries of the country, and in order to highlight my own level, I have been researching my own methods for the most difficult hard drives for several years. For example, the data recovery of special file formats such as CNC machines that cannot be viewed under DOS, imported microcomputer printing machines, or photocopiers with hard disks. If the hard disk cannot be recognized, it will be hot-swapped and replaced after the hard disk is booted, but it should not be restarted and exited repeatedly before it has been repaired and verified. To this end, I have compiled the program "Heming Hard Disk Data Repair Tool Platform PC sos 6.4", so that the repair and inspection software can be quickly switched between each other after all rewrites, without restarting or exiting. The main difference in the functions of the repair and inspection software is that the longer the repair and inspection time, the more thorough it is. When I received the consultation call, I learned that the merchant downloaded the simplified version from my website and made a CD with the same name, which has been distributed in major cities across the country.

         A few years ago, buying a hard disk in China required an ordinary person's salary for one or two months, and my kind daughter sent an email to several major hard disk manufacturers around the world about the design problems of the hard disk body and its circuit board wiring that we found, and she received a heartfelt thank you and souvenir from the reply. The poor wiring method has more than 50 percent, and the hard disk of the laptop is as high as more than 80 percent. Quantum and IBM are almost all wiring methods, the wiring of the hard disk circuit board is composed of two rows of more than ten small tin heads, and the relative position on the disk body is composed of more than ten small contacts. If one or two screws are pressed at both ends or in the center, the temperature of the hard disk will increase significantly after use, and the circuit board is very thin, and the heating after pressing the screws will become concave or convex, resulting in some of the contacts being broken or in poor contact, and it is easy to produce electric sparks, so that the tin head will produce small holes and produce an oxide layer with poor conductivity. It's no wonder that the famous brand is discolored.Hard drive manufacturers merge and transfer.

       In 2000, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the anniversary of Li Qin's anniversary, I wrote after drinking:

A few years ago, buying a hard drive in China required an average person's salary of one or two months. Our kind-hearted daughter sent an email to several major hard drive manufacturers around the world regarding the design issues we discovered with the hard drive body and its circuit board wiring. She received a heartfelt thank you and souvenir in response. The poor wiring method is more than 50%, and the laptop hard drive is more than 80%. Almost all Kunteng and IBM use this wiring method. The wiring of the hard drive circuit board is composed of two rows of more than ten small tin heads, and the relative position on the disk body is composed of more than ten small contacts. One or two screws are pressed on both ends or in the center, and the temperature of the hard drive increases significantly after use. The circuit board is very thin, and after pressing the screws, it deforms into concave or convex shapes due to heat, causing some contacts to break or have poor contact, which is easy to produce electric sparks, causing small holes in the tin heads and producing an oxide layer with poor conductivity. Squeezing the small holes in the tin heads and installing the polished contacts will restore everything. Normal. This is a problem that is easily overlooked in design and inspection, but in important equipment and fields, it may cause major accidents or disasters, No wonder the brand has faded. The merger and transfer of hard drive manufacturers

In 2000, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the 30th anniversary of Li Qin's sacrifice, after drinking, I wrote:

  Four evils on the mainland

Exile sitting

Beasts

Mao and so on, froze to death

Toilet is small

        I have always been keen to explore new social models, and I have also published my insights in the invention patent program, and "The Network Dominates the Social System" has attracted many requests for publication.

        At the beginning of this century, in order to mourn Hu Yaobang and others, I wrote an elegiac couplet on the Internet:

"It is rare for the Central Plains to shine on the purple sun, and the mainland is fortunate to have a husband Yaobang", horizontal criticism: "The sky of the liberated area".

        As an autobiography I have to respect the facts, if it hurts anyone, I have to do the same, at least today I will sleep soundly, well, it's three o'clock in the night, I should sleep for a few hours!

        ......。

        The morning news of the TV led me to the living room again, my daughter turned on the TV but did not see her, the TV was reporting on the young singer contest of the Central Channel, in the interview with the original singer group, I found that the teacher was very familiar, take a closer look, "Li Qin"! With the deep impression that I had studied when I was young, I was very sure to cry out. Ah, she didn't die! From the TV report, I learned that she "Li Qin" was a teacher in a mountain village of an ethnic minority in the south, and this time she brought students to Beijing to compete and sing the original ecological songs she had excavated. I was so excited that I quickly called to inquire about the plane to Beijing, and bought a plane ticket when I went to work. After lunch, I rushed to the airport, arrived in Beijing at about 3 o'clock in the afternoon, and took a taxi to CCTV quickly. After contacting the organizers of the competition in the duty room, he learned that Li Qin was at the Galaxy Hotel of the Jiangxi Office in Beijing. It was seven o'clock in the evening when I came to the Galaxy Hotel, and I didn't care about having dinner and waited for this "Li Qin" to appear at the service desk in the hotel lobby. Three minutes later, she came to me, stared at me blankly, after I said "I am Zou Heming", her tears welled up, I can't describe the mood at this time, and I can't take care of so many people around me, I stepped forward and hugged her tightly, this is the third hug since the fire on Banbu Street fifty years ago and the night of the breakup forty years ago, we both sobbed for several minutes.

"I didn't expect you to be alive," I said, slapping her face with both hands, and said with great emotion.

"I didn't expect to see you again," she said, wiping away tears.

I helped her sit down on the couch next to her,

"It's been forty years, why don't you come to see me?

"After I was rescued by the fisherman Uncle Li and my aunt, I just want to spend the rest of my life in that mountain village, and I am satisfied to see and understand you on TV and in newspapers and magazines. "The hand that grabbed me tightened and tightened.

"Is your family okay?" I asked.

"My father died of illness after being imprisoned for more than a year, and my grandparents also died during the Cultural Revolution, and after the fall of the Gang of Four, I took my mother and younger brother to Uncle Li's mountain village, where my younger brother became a family, my mother died of illness the year before last, and my uncle was in the ancient temple of his hometown in northwest Jiangxi. ”

"What about you, what about your husband and children?", she didn't answer, and bowed her head.

"You, you won't be unmarried, will you?" she remained silent, and after a while she whispered:

"Marriage didn't make sense to me thirty-seven years ago", I couldn't help but put her head on my shoulder when I heard this. When she saw the others looking at us with curious eyes, she straightened up slightly.

"Let's not separate anymore, let's grow old. I clasped her hand to my chest with both hands and said firmly.

.......

        We talked about it at nine o'clock, and I decided to settle in Gannan. At this point, I was a little hungry, so I took her to a bar and asked for a bottle of wine to celebrate our reunion after 40 years. Didn't get back to the hotel until two in the morning.

The next day was also the day they originally returned to Jiangxi, and I took the train with them to the hometown of Li Qin's godfather and godmother Li and his wife. After two days of preparation in this beautiful mountain village, we held a wedding according to local customs. Li Yan and his wife and two children came, holding a large number of fireworks and .......

        Suddenly there was a loud bang, I felt ashamed to come back to reality from another world, and I opened my eyes and saw the dense raindrops on the window, one thunder after another, needless to say, you also know that the above is really an illusory dream, and I can't remember the first time this wonderful illusion is this, but I can tell you that it will not be the last.

        I have been sprouting the flame of love since I was fourteen years old, and I have had a seemingly non-existent married life for more than a year at the age of thirty-six, and now I am nearly sixty years old with gray hair, leaving only a dream-like fusion of thought and wine. There are no fewer people who have had similar experiences to me, but a significant number of people are numb, not like I need to rely on alcohol.

        As for my patents, I have no energy and no good at developing them, all the proceeds will be donated to public welfare, my cornea or all organs with transplant or research value will be donated, I am willing to do my best to do something for the society, this is the only wish and meaning of the rest of my life.

        More than half a month ago, Li Qin's alma mater, which is also my daughter's alma mater when she invented the "six-four needles", asked me to help complete two of the tallest and largest handmade murals in the city today, and to design and produce the six-decimeter-square, four-meter-high non-embroidered steel iconic sculpture at the school gate. The main body of the sculpture I designed is composed of a red scarf, which resembles a "six-four needle" with a "6" and "4" bow-tie, so the sculpture can be described as a "six-four knot", and I would like to justify the name of the blood-red scarf. At the beginning of this month, the sculpture was completed before the seventh anniversary of Li Qin's seventh year, and I poured wine and wrote in order to comfort her:

Six-four knots

Eight or nine blood outside the White Bone Hall

Six-four knots under the red flag corner

It is not known who killed the deer

Democracy will come out of the way

(Note "Eight-nine": Eight - nine is not separated from ten, here it means that it must not be a small number, that is, "many")

In the wake of the 9/11 disaster, only by understanding and eradicating terror and evil can we truly usher in harmony. My screen name is "Lu Shi Sailor", and 6.4 My two favorite people, Li Qin and my mother, passed away one after another. The heart is on fire and drinking, talking about the original in the world, the battle between good and evil "Lu Shi Sailor" asked Cangtian Deer whose hand ...... died, but I only heard Li Qin's firm answer.

    Zou and Ming                                            

   2007.6.12

E-mail: zohemng@outlook.com

Mobile: 18079108964

(The original Chinese version below shall prevail)

諾貝爾文學獎提名的推薦項:

          《聊災》 

           ----心火聊原     

        剛喝不多, 每餐不過二兩, 有點醉意而止。 自我介紹，本人生於50年9月11日中午, 巧合的是一里遠的南昌市中心的黃慶仁大藥棧同時起火化為平地 ,是當時在火場被鄰居找回家的父親說的。此時也正是號召慶祝槍桿子打出四分之一世界一周年的前夕，看來我於9.11降臨這塊大陸在五十七年前就是血腥火酷的標誌, 似乎也註定了決不僅僅是我的一生，但這裡只作自傳。

        有一點是幸運的，在我出生前，因父親不願務農無所成就而得福，我家從可能被“專政的對象”，成了“專政的主人”。在那動盪的年代，父親成了遺腹子，也是四代人中唯一男人。家中房地在整個鄒村是大戶，但沒有當家男人，僅僅是急趨貧下中農算是幸運。全靠祖母鄒宋氏娘家蔽護，祖母娘家是赫赫有名的大家族，也是中國歷史上偉大科學家和思想家第一部百科全書<天工開物>作者宋應星的家族。

        抗戰勝利後，父母才敢把姐生出來，遷居南昌。內戰又越打越烈，內戰結束一年後，父母才敢把我生出來，取名"和明"，"和"為明智，"和"則光明，"和"才有明天，是多年抗日後百姓痛恨內戰的普遍看法。其實，父母不會知道還是選錯了"9.１１"。不信，聽我言歸正傳。

        戰爭的後遺症----營養不良，是我長得瘦小的主要原因之一。我從小力不從心，常受一些野孩子的武力欺負，有小院斜對面僱農家的"金根"和人力車夫家的"馬崽"等，我不願出門總是在小院內玩耍，但隔壁李家的姐弟倆李琴和李硯對我很好，李琴常寬慰我："別難過，我們跟你玩"。

        那時父親找到市府的工作，我們住在子固路新市府對面的半步街2號，大天主教堂高石階下的平房小院裡。李家是前市政文職人員，李琴比我大一歲，李硯比我小兩歲，還有一小舅與他們生活在一起。李琴舅舅是一劇團美工，他的女友是劇團演員，李琴常根着學唱歌，我們幾乎天天在一起。李家人和藹可親，他家富有人情味的生活方式與外界對比強烈，深深影響我年幼的心靈。而且我特別喜歡看其舅畫畫，在我幼小的心底已暗下決心，只有像他那樣有本領受人尊敬才會不被人欺負，我愛好美術就從這時開始，也得到其舅的啟蒙。後來有一天，見李琴在哭，聽說其舅是右派分子被抓走了，從那以後也再沒有見過其舅女友登門。李琴和弟弟也成了金根和馬崽們的欺負對象，只有我們這兩家的小孩在一起玩。

        在我學前，祖母娘家我的宋表哥住進了家，是來考大學的，聽說他很有學問, 成績全縣拔尖，兩次高考成績都達名牌大學分數線，但是卻沒有一所大學錄取他，大人說是階級成分問題，房地土改運動被沒收，其父母鎮壓反革命運動遭殃。這次他的推薦評語很好，與家庭決裂，江西工學院收了他。他常教我識字，至今還記得，我最先認識的兩個字，也是他在我練字本封面上教師欄寫下的"三人"二字，他說，三人行必有我師，三人為眾，以眾為師取眾之長才會有進步。還常講少時我最愛的<十萬個為什麼>一書。但他在大二的學年裡成績一百八十度轉彎，學校說他患精神病，退學了。而我印象最深  的是，一次他坐在床沿兩腿夾着我的胸背，我喘不過氣，掙扎也無效，頭冒金星近乎失去知覺，第一次感受幾乎致息的滋味。一年後這位文質彬彬的表哥，在家鄉殺死了唯一最親和最疼愛他的嬸嬸，說是殺死階級敵人為民除害，最後他死在為其量身定製的鐵籠里，留給我的只有<十萬個為什麼>。

        五七年九月，由於我生日差11天，當時緊缺的公立小學拒收，便進了大士院民辦小學。這裡的老師許多是有歷史或家庭出身問題的，公立學校是決不准用他們的。教我語文的班主任茶老師，丈夫是反革命分子，有的說在押也有的說已鎮壓處死。教我算術的胡老師，是原重慶政府職員，教我們音樂美術的也是舊劇團新失業的代課人員。教室里，由兩塊厚板中加一兩塊薄板釘成的一排排六人課桌，倒象是搖床，鐵釘常搖頭而起，調皮學生踩上去不是夾着前趾，便是劃破後跟，城市百分之九十的孩子還是光着腳來上課。對班主任來說，確確實實勞了不少神。可是有的家長說班主任她在“贖罪”，而我有一次聽她在與另一位家長交心時說，只有全心教好這些孩子才能使自己忘記那些悲痛，才有心慰的感受支撐着生存的理由。三十多歲的班主任滿頭白髮，我一直很納悶。

        五八年，李琴做藥師的外公外婆介紹我母親進藥廠工作，常常上晚班，而我父親是個戲迷，晚上常出門看戲。我們小孩也常去小院對面醬油廠看煉鋼，這小小的半步街就有三、四個煉鋼土爐，是響應毛主席又發起的運動“大躍進”，大煉鋼鐵產量超英國，各行各業均參與，工人農民家庭婦幼齊出手，砸鍋尋鐵挖地三尺異常火熱，我們像去看焰火一樣趕熱鬧。

        一天我們在小院內就看到醬油廠飛出耀眼的“鋼花”，緊接着傳來“發火燒死人啦！”的呼喊，小半步街開始聽見越來越多的喊叫和跑步聲。我姐趕緊拖我和李家姐弟出院門，按坐在教堂外石階上，姐跑回小院，李家姐弟嚇哭了，我們的頭縮在一起，我第一次像男子漢展臂護着他倆。姐姐攙來祖母后再次跑回小院，幾分鐘內，十二歲的姐兩次搬來與姐差不多重的箱子。大概一個多小時火被撲滅，後來聽說火因是“煉鋼工人”幾天未合眼，在醬油廠草堆邊睡着了最後被燒成炭，屍體無法從煉鋼炭和廢堆中找出，有人說就讓他完完全全投身大煉鋼鐵運動，“貢獻最後一份熱”死得更光榮吧。

        大煉鋼鐵運動由於出的大都是不合格廢鋼而結束，我家牆後廢棄的天主教堂高地基上成了廢鋼倉厙。一天，我聽見染衣爺爺的吆喝聲，趕緊對媽說：“我的新衣來了”，其實是姐姐穿小了的花衣染藍給我的。我和姐一同跑出門，回頭剛見母親踏出房門，一聲巨響，房內靠着天主教堂的老牆塌了，一大堆土和廢鋼壓滿我家每一角落，好在祖母在小院乘涼，我家人沒出事。我即刻跑到隔壁李家，李家也被壓垮，我大聲呼減他們姐弟的名字，母親過來告訴我李家人都出門了，我才放下心。直到初中時學到物理才明白，是我和姐齊步跑產生的共振提前除去了遲早會危害兩家的隱患。

        幾年國內的“人民公社”、”社教”和“備戰解放台灣”等運動雖然一個接一個，但其所付社會成本，均小於與幫助打下這四分之世界的蘇聯之爭所付代價，全中國人民在繫緊褲帶還債。緊接着的三年“自然災害”便是雪上加霜，餓死無數，但至少高層可以留下餓死百分之九十九也不低下自己高貴的頭的“英雄形象”，和封鎖消息拒絕外援以示“東風壓西風’的大好形勢。我家鄉頻頻傳來樹皮吃盡，吞食"觀音土”添肚脹死的消息，有的地方競有戰亂期間都未聞的，肉食同類的事件發生。我兩個舅舅也先後挑來兩大空籮筐，善良的母親哪能見死不救，把大部分本來就不夠用的糧票和錢，買滿籮筐，含淚目送其瘦弱的哥哥挑着重擔，赤着腳，回歸百里山路去救家人，母親並不是沒想到她唯一的正在發育期的兒子將面臨飢餓。那期間，我和姐姐都要趕早起床，來到疊山路菜場門口，我拿萊籃，讓姐姐空手擠在前面，一開大門，姐姐可發揮其多次獲全市運動會少年組短跑前三名的速度，排在菜攤最前面，買回只有城市老百姓憑票買到的包萊外層碎葉，晚了每戶幾兩的蔬菜供應卷只得作廢呢。鄰居常說我家生反了孩子，我像白白嫩嫩的書生常在家畫畫，而姐姐一掌可將與她一般高的欺負我的男孩推到一丈之外。

        我是在南昌十九中念初中，原名南昌師範附中，我姐在南昌師範體師班念中專，在同一校園內。初中我偏愛數理化，死背單詞的英語和背課文的語文成績就不理想，都是六十來分。只有一次例外，學過"松樹的風格"一文後的作文，我被宋老師給了九十分，並在教研組的老師們中講評。老師們從一大堆"紅梅"、"青松"、"向日葵"和"陽光"等耀眼的題材中，競看到唯一寫不起眼的，而世界每一角落無處不在的"小石子"，看到流落於天涯海角任憑風吹浪打的它，看到在路中任人踐踏的它，看到團結於高樓厚牆中的它，老師們建議再給我加五分。"小石子"也就成了我作畫的筆名，少時夢想成為大畫家齊白石老人的弟子，從小學到初中，從畫雷峰到畫毛澤東，班刊甚至校刊常由我主編。

        初中二年級，我獲得了"全市優秀學生"稱號，十四歲提前加入共青團，並出席由團市委和市教委在八一禮堂舉行的表彰大會。發獎完後等待放電影，我走出禮堂來到大院，在一棵小樹下我看到了李琴，她手上也拿着獎狀。我們在一起聊了大約二十分鐘，但我記不得聊了些什麼，相互問了些什麼，因為她常低着頭，使我敢用心仔細地看看她。我發現她長得更漂亮了，雖然此前在我和鄰居們心中她已是無不讚美的最漂亮的女孩，她的善良、溫柔、高雅和聰慧給我的印象更深。白裡透紅的臉蛋與那雙大而黑的水晶般明亮的眼睛，使我第一次感覺從口腔至心底似火在燃燒，全身熱血在沸騰。也可能是年紀小，熱得快也冷得快，常不能在一起，也由於忙於學習，一年多里這種熱情時來時去，全國也由“社教”運動轉為"文革"運動。

        六六年所謂的文化革命是從我初中畢業時開始，我被推薦與選拔的高中不能去了，全體留校鬧革命。作為每班屈指可數的共青團員，為了共產主義，為響應毛主席的號召，為解放全人類，把西方人民從水深火熱中解救出來，這些大都未成年的學生們都一夜之後，成了政治活動家和革命者。我也不例外，用一年積存的零用錢買來毛選精裝合訂捲來學。我參加了省委組織的紅衛兵(保皇派)，"破四舊"即焚書砸古蹟換舊牌之類，把階級成分不好的家庭地毯式操個底朝天數遍，我從小不好動粗, 只是根在後面。

       下半年和姐姐一起，加入了學校選出的赴京代表團，參加了八一八天安門毛主席檢閱百萬紅衛兵大遊行。由於在京人多，吃的是天津空運來的”狗不理硬大餅”，幾天后我胃病突發，姐送我住進了醫院，開始了我的胃病史，好在沒染上全國多地流行的腦膜炎。在京通過與清華大學造反派學生的"大串聯"，返昌後我轉為紅衛兵的造反派, 負責校內宣傳廣播工作。之後武鬥展開，百分之九十以上的老師遭打和凌辱，在我看到禮堂舞台左門邊一具被造反派打死無人認領的死屍後，在我聽到校園常響起振耳的槍聲之後，漸漸覺悟，我便退出了造反派的活動，成了消遙派，開始想到學習文化知識。我拿姐的書自學高中數學，買了三本一套的前蘇聯高中教材“初等物理學”在家自學。

        六七年的一天，我來到了省圖書館找參考書。在這個全市人最少最安靜的, 大樓深處的一個角落，我見一女孩低頭在看書，仔細一看正是李琴。我在她身旁坐下，開始小聲談聊，原來幾個月來她經常來這裡，準備將來考音樂學院。我們約好每逢周一、三、五早上一起來圖書館, 其它時間在家自學，我幫助她攻數學物理，她幫我攻語文英語，她比我高一屆念過高一。

        這期間我深深被她的美貌所吸引，仔細看隱藏一種人見人愛的，此般標緻者少有的動人特色，我開始去研究她的容貌、表情、性格和智力等之間的關係。心想，決不能失去老天賜給我這難得的研究機會，在圖書館常會翻翻這類書籍. 少時最崇拜達芬奇，敬佩他在繪畫與發明等等方面的輝煌偉績，最感興趣的是達爾文晚年著作<人與動物的表情>。深受達爾文這一書的啟發： 既能人或動物若長期處在某種情緒及精神狀態下, 面部肌肉部分發達或萎縮而呈一靜態表情，我想，反過來從人的這一靜態表情（容貌）, 也就可看出其長期處在怎樣一種精神狀態下生活的, 又會養成怎樣一種性格傾向. 同樣也會影響其言行舉止、姿態身材、眼神智能甚至筆跡字體等等。不過, 這類分析需要多方面的綜合, 有科學的或歸納法的依據, 而不是像算命先生無根無據的瞎說,其中很有學問.由此我在後來綜合整理出了《歸納法自我定位、選擇與修正表》： 

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性    格   | 不定型 （o   | 憂鬱型 （a）| 興奮型 （b   |中和型（ab）

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 特         |順從隨和不穩|柔弱陰鬱冷靜|剛強直爽急躁|剛柔婉轉適中

             |膽小粗心盲從|膽小細心條理|膽大粗心冒進|膽大細心理智

             |耐勞厚道義氣|刻苦勤儉小氣|享樂浪蕩大方|可塑實在瀟灑

             |天真誠實猶豫|靦腆保守固執|活躍開動好奇|幽默穩重堅毅

             |熱情衝動好動|敏感善思忍讓|靈敏激情好鬥|敏銳創新好勝

 征         |劣者怨世瘋狂|劣者瘋而不狂|劣者狂而不瘋|劣者玩世奸詐

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年    齡   16以下80以上|60-80者偏多 |16-35者偏多 |35-60者偏多

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血    型 O型    偏多 |  A型    偏多 | B型    偏多   |AB型 偏多

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外    觀   強壯者  偏多 | 玪瓏者  偏多 | 艷麗者  偏多| 標緻者 偏多 

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膚    色 深             |中度      |   淺白          |偏淺

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地    區   沙漠高原偏多|內陸平原偏多 |島嶼沿海偏多|都市港灣多

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氣    候  炎熱酷寒偏多 |亞熱地帶偏多|寒冷地帶偏多|溫暖地帶多

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資    源 貧乏          | 較充足      | 中等           |來源廣

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代    謝 發快衰快    |發慢衰中度   |發中度衰較慢|發中度衰慢

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教    育 初等多       |初、中等偏多|中、高等偏多|高等多

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傾    向  極端  不平等  |教條  不平等 | 教條   平等  |科學  均衡

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生    活  疲乏衣食至上 |壓抑    小康  | 緊張   富有  |愉快  富足

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習    慣 粗雜  無規律   |偏素    節制 |偏葷   暢欲   |衛生 有規律

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信 仰 者 信鬼甘於人下|信佛崇拜偶像|信神虛無漂渺|自信心安理得

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易 病 因 營養    遺傳   | 精神    消化 |血液循環      |環境污染 

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人 為 因  奴役世襲人治|封閉代襲人治|民主屆任法治|民選科舉德理

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壽    命   較短多人為亡|偏短多人為亡|偏長有因人為|較長少因人為

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成 就 業   體育與竟技  |理論與研究   |藝術與創造   |經營與管理

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選    配    ab、b、a    |  b、ab、o   | a、ab、o    |ab、b、a、o

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因涉及領域廣因素複雜難能十分完美準確,會有較高參考價值。

        幾個月裡，不管颳風還是下雨，我和李琴從未間斷來圖書館，而且我們來去都是步行的。有一次我們出館晚了一同乘公交車回家，在一路口汽車突然剎車, 我的頭挨近了李琴的頭，聞到她秀髮的清香，我抑制不住，順着剎車的慣性在她的臉上輕輕吻了一下，這就是我一直想而不敢的初吻。接着虛偽地用有些顫抖的聲音對她說:"那，那人膽真大，單車超汽車" ，她低頭不語，臉紅到耳根，感覺靠着我的身子像是要移開，卻又沒有移開。下車後我對她說："這幾天很熱，我們晚上去明德路公園乘涼好嗎? 那離你家近, 我也有時會去那寫生"，她遲疑了一下最後同意了。

        我興奮極了，下午我用了兩三個小時默寫李琴的面容、表情和姿態，為晚上給她畫素描作好準備。晚上，我提前一刻鐘在公園找到一處人少而且燈光較弱的地方，回到約好的位置。她準時來了，為了避免遇上熟人, 在她看到我之後, 我一邊走一邊用手勢指向我選好的位置，我們在一個石凳上坐下。我提議給她畫幅素描，並要求她先唱首歌，我知道這方面她很自信，果真同意了。為了不驚動周圍人，她低聲唱了一首，我乘優美歌聲的興致，為畫開始打輪廓，約半小時後，我把畫給她看，她那滿意的笑容是我最大的安慰。從那以後，我在圖書館還三次畫過她的像，還用她的姓名組成蝴蝶和蓮花，用香水調色畫在白絹上，製成書籤，取“蝶蓮畫”詩意之名，也給了她。為了不讓她家人懷凝，只用"小石子"簽名。那公園很容易遇上熟人就沒再去，能在圖書館親密相見我心滿意足。可是，就在這年的十一月十五日，圖書館通知無限期關門。我們商討後決定改在八一公園九曲橋那邊"小島"的石假山上，在這裡她可以放聲歌唱，我可以畫水彩和水粉。我每次都坐在這不過幾米大的假山最高處，遊人見了不會上來，她坐在石間，不會被熟人認出來。

        有一天，在分手的時候告訴她五線譜本中有我的一封信。我信中寫道："幾年來每當我想起你的時候，幾乎忘記這世上還有的一切，你充滿了我的整個腦海，你遮全了我的整個視野，你的聲音在耳邊不停地迥盪，響徹我的整個耳空，大海啊，是平靜還是激盪，原野啊，是荒涼還是興旺，天空啊，是昏暗還明朗，李琴啊，你要讓我知道，讓我清醒吧，我也愛這個世界。"這是我在小石山世外挑園中的情深志大的真實感受。 與李琴在一起的這段日子無疑是我一生最難忘卻的。

        很快又過了幾個月，一天，我在石假山上等到中午十二點半還不見李琴來，我判斷她或家裡一定出了什麼事，天一黑我就來到她家門口小巷角的一棵大樹下，等了十幾分鐘，見她慢慢走出，像是知道我會來，左右看了一下，見我從樹後走出，她緩緩走來，等我看清她紅腫的眼還來不及問時, 聽見她壓抑而又沉重的抽泣聲伴出:"沒想到，我敬愛的爸爸競是歷史反革命分子，被抓走了...以後我們不要再見面了"，聽到後面一句，見她這般傷心，我把她抱過來在她耳邊堅定地說"不管將來如何，我永遠無法離開你"，她在我肩上又抽泣了一會兒，忽然推開我說："我沒希望了，一夜間我已經成了你的敵對階級，別再來往了。"說完轉身低頭跑回家了。那晚我站在這棵大樹至深夜沒見她再出來。

        第二天我把這個消息告訴了父母，母親說藥廠這幾天貼出了李琴外公的大字報, 明天要開打倒這個資產階級技術權威的批鬥大會。次日，母親下班又帶來李琴外公外婆昨晚在家同時服安眠藥自殺身亡的消息。我立即趕往李家，只見門已貼上封條，向鄰居打聽才知道，昨天早上她姐弟倆和母親就被造反派押送下放贛南一山村老區，具體縣份不清楚。我覺得頭在翁翁的響，眼睛濕了，趕緊走出院門，不由自主地來到民德路公園。在我倆坐過的石凳上坐下，低下頭，感受到失去她的痛苦，想見她而見不到的痛苦，想說而無法對她說的痛苦。此時的她會是怎樣？離開南昌的那一刻會是怎樣？知道外公外婆去世後又會是怎樣? 也許她們現在還不知道外公外婆去世。天啦！為什麼如此快一個接一個的災難，降臨到一個天使般善良和柔弱的女孩身上。在這動亂浩劫的年代，一個如此美麗可愛而又受管制的女孩，去一個愚昧落後的山村野區，凶多吉少！此後我到處打聽都無法得到李琴一家的一點消息。

        一天在八一橋散步，邊想李琴邊即興哼出一曲調，這一心靈的旋律，促使我趕回家用簡譜記下，去散步而跑步回。隨後我自學了十多天的五線譜，改用五線譜並填詞：李琴你不要折磨我，我內心焦急又難過，李琴啊，我若不見你，日夜思念怎能生活，啊，大黑的眼睛，曲柔的身形，聲音動聽又溫和……。可是，文革中只能有階級的感情，愛情是資產階級的詞彙，無產階級只有革命伴侶的同志情，愛和無限深情只能給偉大領袖和黨，連衣着也只流行軍綠色。

        六八年"四個面向"分配開始，全國所有三屆初高中學畢業生都必須離開監護人分到工廠、農村和勞教兵團，近一半的未成年人，離開父母當工人和農民，我幸運分進了南昌青雲譜一大工廠當煉鋼準備工人。沒上幾天班，經寢室室長推薦，我被借調到廠政治部宣傳室作美工，整天寫毛主席語錄牌、大型標語和畫毛主席像，即”紅海洋”式宣傳工作。工廠大一點的牆壁幾乎都留有我的筆跡，進門口的亭樓是搭五層竹架畫的巨幅主席像，快滿十八歲的我，人們都認為只有十五歲，都以"小畫家"稱呼。我畫主席像習慣臉色偏紅，因為廠軍代表命令畫主席一定要滿面紅光，即使我全畫得像是喝醉酒的人, 也能得到他們的好評，但絕對不能不像主席，這會是置我死地的政治問題， 四、五人幫的殘忍和瘋狂是秦始皇和希特勒也無法比及，的確史無前例。

        這期間是我開始免費學習油畫和雕塑的好機會，為了畫的室外巨幅紅旗和毛主席其面不改色，一瓶佛山銀硃要廿四元多，相當於我一個半月工資。一瓶不過用十來筆，一巨幅的成本可想而知，為政治宣傳是不計代價的, 別說是錢,就是要許多人命也得付出。為了與蘇聯老大哥斗六十年代初不惜死幾千萬人,何況此時是史無前例的文革, 四五人幫要億萬人天天在叫不要怕犧牲,誓死悍衛偉大領袖。在這非戰爭年代全國各地同胞互相殘殺槍聲四起,兒不認娘夫不認妻殺聲一片,更是絕版的史無前例。我還在廠搞“收租院”階級鬥爭紀念雕塑館，全廠各軍編連隊演出的三、四個樣板劇的全場布景與海報，都是我一人畫完。我還“發明”了用肥皂調廣告色，在用工業滑石粉和牛膠作底的麻袋上，畫經濟耐用布景的方法。

        就這樣又過了一年多，在此間我從未間斷地打聽李琴的消息，做夢都在等她的來信，等我熟悉的筆跡、話語和即使是悲哀的歌聲。

        我姐當時在勝利區廣播宣傳站做廣播員，她單位接到在"三代會"(現洪都賓館)門口畫六幅巨型宣傳壁畫的任務。我為廠要來一幅，當時我廠準備二人去畫，但那位不敢去，我只有一人去。為了搶時間，我每天天一亮就去畫，第二天清晨我發現有一和尚站在我身後看，我忽然想起李琴說過幾年前其舅已入佛門，猛回頭一看，果然是他，只是我這美術啟蒙老師老了很多。我趕緊詢問李琴一家在何處，他雙手合於胸前，微閉着眼連說兩句"不提的好"，並轉身朝八一橋方向而去。我火速收拾東西追上了他，在我反覆追問下，他只簡短的說：

   "姐瘋了，外甥在照料她"

   "你外甥女呢"我追問，他沉默發呆，

   "你說呀"，

   "被當道的革命造反派鄉長在江邊小山的草堆後面強暴了，跳江了，找不到了，升天了，解脫了。"

  我頭腦一片空白，有氣無力地用顫抖的聲音問"那，那，鄉，鄉長抓到了嗎？”

  “殺人、強姦在今天的文革造反派中還少嗎？挖心掏肺又怎樣？如今反革命分子和家屬是人嗎？誰會誰又敢為反革命分子的女兒說話？！"

     我的頭象是被雷轟了，呆呆的看他走去，我忽然跑過去，雙手使勁捏着他的右臂問:

    "什麼時候死的？"

    "端午節前四天，六月四日"

    "她們下放在那裡？"

    "我不知道，不要去打擾他們。"

        我用力甩掉他的手，他頭也不回的繼續往前走。我就近在橋邊草地上伴着一棵小樹躺下，小樹彎了，也不知它會不會斷，我似乎沒有一點氣力。頭又在翁翁地響，淚水使我看不清天是白的還是黑的，耳朵也只能聽見上下牙齒頻頻相撞的聲音,我還握緊雙拳在地上使勁捶打，然後雙拳夾向耳前。許久，眼淚流不出來了，手上一陣陣疼痛。我恨自己，當時為什麼沒找到李琴？為什不主動要求下放贛南？我恨她，為什麼狠心與我斷絕來往，為什麼！為什麼丟我一個人在這裡！她在那裡！她還能回來嗎？為什麼人會有這般的痛苦？！

        不知過了多久，我走到了八一橋上。在這條贛江上游的遠方，吞食了我最心愛的人，抬頭看着那方最亮的一顆星星，順其輝光投入滔滔江水，隨之漸漸暗淡幽幽而來的閃爍，低視到腳下深暗的漩渦，我似乎想隨之而下，追隨星光逃離這現實的痛苦。我猛然又抬頭對天大吼："毛主席啊，你真偉大，你說嬌嬌者易折，她真的升天了!"。我的頭隨後又掉在胸前，難道只有粗庸者的生存權？博學的宋表哥瘋了，死了；高老師下放後也死了；三十歲就獨身的班主任眉毛也白了；李琴她媽瘋了，李琴英俊的舅舅成了和尚；李琴外公外婆一夜雙亡；如今李琴也去了，李硯面前難以不狂的可能只有不歸路。我想不明白，但我一定要明白！我似乎聽到了他們的呼喊，好像不是一個、十個和千百萬聲音的呼喊，我意識到今後的責任，恢復了一些知覺，感覺到手的振抖和肚子的咕叫，我擦乾手和臉上的血跡，來到橋邊小商店，買了一些食物和一瓶白酒。

        家裡沒人，媽上夜班，爸可能又聽戲去了，姐出嫁後我有單獨的房間。關上門，一個人喝起酒來，這是我第一次喝白酒，從此揭開了本人的飲酒史. 也領會了酒的麻醉特效，以前只喝過母親做的糯米甜酒。幹了第一杯，我的臉就發燒，喝完半瓶醒來己是第二天早晨。我收拾好後在母親回來之前出了家門，我跑遍了八一橋對岸整個昌北。第二天到幾十里外的西山大寺廟，都無李琴舅舅的消息。三天裡我每天早晨都在橋頭等他兩三小時，我開始懷凝他是否在南昌。

        第四天，我在家收到一封信，信封上簽名是李琴的舅舅，打開一看卻是李琴的日記:

        "....二月二日...我無法相信從小教育我和弟弟要愛祖國愛人民的，為人善良誠實的，一貫樂於助人無一不尊敬的父親，競會是人民的敵人...父親前天被抓走，將意味我理想的徹底破滅。舅舅劃為右派分子已對全家是巨大的打擊，如今……。前天與和明斷交，雖不是我本意，但這是必然的結局。與一個反革分子的女兒交往必然毀滅他的前途，我明白他不會顧及這些，可我不能不為他考慮，他會是有所作為的，他的成功將會讓我心慰，但是，因我而毀將是遺恨終生的事。……和明，我兩天都沒有合眼，我不知流了多少淚，你對我的情意我一生都不會忘記。可我們沒有緣分，是我命苦……今天我們被押到異地他鄉，也許一輩子將在這裡渡過。……我很清楚，母親心裡一直在擔心父親、外公和外婆，可還要不斷安慰我和弟弟，她內心的壓力不可想象……。"眼淚讓我無法看下去。

        此間各地傳出一起起殺人、挖心肉食同類事件，不過這回不是幾年前的飢不擇食，而是滿懷階級仇恨，也就是通常只是說說而己的, "恨不得咬你一口"的真正的有”階級感情”的體現，階級敵人殘屍棄於荒郊，親屬不敢認領。聽說我們江西就有一少女因在給當兵的情人信中，有懷凝文革字眼而被打為現行反革命分子後，執行槍決。鄰居一老頭將此棄屍的少女陰戶挖出收藏於家中。階級敵人其肉只有蟲食鼠咬，其骨只有任野狗斯啃才能解恨，以獻忠心。被鼓動的紅衛兵造反派用對“敵人”的仇恨競賽來表現"愛憎分明，立場堅定"。年輕人若不信，只要問問你身邊那些誠實敢言的每一個過來人，你才會相信戰後"和平環境”二十年後所發生的事。

        第二年6月4日，我在窗台上點亮了臘燭。直到現在，每年的這一天，我只能用這種方式祭李琴之亡靈。

        我越來越看清了四、五人幫爭權奪利的瘋狂罪惡，我用了近一年的工資一百多元，買了當時國內市場最好的"紅旗"三波段半導體收音機。每天收聽短波至深夜，聽聽國內外時事與政論，眼睛也就越來越亮了。朋友，你知道嗎？在四、五人幫年代收聽外台是現行反革命，抓到不槍斃也會被打死或整死，我己無所畏。我還將隨身帶的學習筆記本包上紅語錄塑料面，每當班前飯後或開會時向毛主席作早敬中敬晚敬呼“萬萬歲”時，唯有我高舉的是科學與知識的語錄本。借調政治部宣傳室作美工期間，有時政治部認為我在連隊，而連隊又認為我在政治部，藉此可以躲避所有必須參加的政治和”獻忠”活動。連打鑼敲鼓點名排隊去參加的“選民投票”活動，全廠可能只有我一人沒去參加，這一習慣使近六十歲的我，至今從未參加過“選民投票”。後來，程世清省委書記的6011部隊三次來人，要徵招我和一名拉手風琴的同事去當文藝兵，將有享受軍官待遇的機會，廠軍代表也只放走一人而不放我走，其實我也不願意去。這期間是我青年時期情緒的最低谷，我幾乎沒有畫過一幅自己也感覺滿意的畫，儘管我耳邊全是讚美聲。

       七六年九月初的一天，也是我記憶深刻的一天，我要好的同事龔冬健（現在美國任教），當時被總政軍樂團招去作男中音歌唱演員，他第一次返昌，我中午請他在家吃螃蟹。酒興之中聽到外面廣播傳來哀樂聲，我倆走到陽台才聽清是主席去世。我倆人把一大盆螃蟹吃完了，預感到而且事實上也是四、五人幫“螃蟹橫行時代“的結束，也是當時全國人民的期望。

        四、五人幫的倒台，我心情也好了起來，多次參加技術攻關和技術革新活動，如新產品零件無專用機床與刀具的加工, 和對東德進口機床的缺件設計製作 ；去銅棱測繪日本產礦山機械配件球面蝸輪蝸杆，回廠設計單刀展成，加工銅件還很快。此後整理髮明了“螺旋飛刀展齒法”，無需專用機床及專用刀具，便可加工各種標準非標準及國外標準的齒輪齒形的中國專利，當時的中國機電報和地方報紙, 也報道這一螺旋飛刀展齒法和我幾十項技術革新，也使我考評上了全廠滾插鉋銑四工種中唯一的技師。但我期待的政治體制改革卻看不到實質的進展，總是憂心重重.改革開放若只搞經濟體制改革, 尤如只是延長絕症病人痛苦的生命,而不去治病根,病毒同樣獲得豐富營養,令其生不如死。

        在李琴十周年祭日的端午節間，我酒後寫下輓聯貼在家門兩旁:

                古道政苛猛逾虎，今言府敗勝吸毒。

        鄰居學生在我門口問我：”鄒叔叔，腐敗的腐字下面少了個肉字”，我回答說：“肉，爛掉了，只剩軀殼了”。

        改革開放後，分廠為與模範鎮辦企業一家沙石公司建立關係，為其設計與名企業相稱的門樓和剛流行的鐵柵圍牆，我用了大半個月了解建築製圖與機械製圖的區別，利用我的美術專長，設計並指導施工。這使周邊大單位也羨慕的門面建築，很快就獲得了兩個相距數百里的沙石公司與我方簽訂合同，製作沙石料機電輸送線、篩沙機和江邊寬懸長百米涼柵走廊業務。我一人同時承包這兩家的設計與製造業務。在出現“萬元戶”稱乎不久的當年，這兩家業務我除去給分廠的承包支付額外，純利潤有三萬餘元，而且我為其中一家設計的江中與岸邊自動沙石輸送線二期方案利潤更大。有了資金，我可以開始為非技術性的真正理想而努力，南昌晚報等刊物報道我時，我宣布了創辦江西宋應星研究會的決定。

        工程快結束後我還接了這家名企業的修挖沙船等業務，並安排了這家名企經理妻子的外甥女學電焊，她化名冊上只有十九歲，姓王。可兩天后工地來人說小王被電風扇打着手送鎮醫院了，我急忙趕到醫院。醫生正在給她縫針，手背上一“廾”字傷口幾乎可見到骨頭。沒上麻藥縫了十多針，但她一聲都沒有哼，低頭咬緊牙關，很堅強，這是女孩給我的第一印象。

        第二天我來看望她時，才發現她眼睛象李琴特別大，這又使我沉浸於與李琴在一起的回憶中。當天她母親回家了，住院期間我只有多去關照她，漸慚在她心中產生了好感，她常說“你這人真好”，我又漸漸有了在李琴身邊的那種感覺。雖然我已三十六歲，但大多數人認為我比施工隊裡的年輕人大不了很多。從我和小王的結婚照就不難看出這一點，從我女兒現在的樣子也不難發現這一遺傳特徵。女兒明年音樂系大四要畢業了，可見她的人都說像個初中生，膚白小個頭一幅娃娃臉蛋。

       李琴已去世十六年了，三十六歲未婚的我一直在追逐她的身影，如今又找到了，看似幸運。我父母都退休多年，母親又多病，五代單傳的我該結婚盡孝子之心了。在我和小王的關係越來越親密之後，我表現出進一步發展兩人關係的意願，並帶她回家與父母見面。她父母在她的堅持下也同意了。於是八六年我帶她回南昌籌辦婚事，三月十四日辦了結婚登記，五月一日舉行婚禮。有一點令我痛心的是, 我十多年前給李琴畫的肖像油畫和李琴日記被小王付之一炬，只留下半成形的李琴玉質雕像。

       使任何人也想不到的是競會在婚禮當天晚上談及離婚，那天由於忙乎了一天，晚上我躺在床上閉目沉思，小王以為我睡着了，用一隻手摟着我的頭。當有水滴在我臉上時，張眼見她在流淚，問她“怎麼了”，追問很久，她說："你什麼都好，如果年齡能小一點的話"。我明白，什麼"如果"都好辦，唯獨這個"如果"無法辦。我也明白，儘管她在父母面前那般堅決，可這是隱藏在深處的心裡話，因為此情景是發生在她以為我睡着了之後。我真誠地向她表示，如果今後我倆在外表上也不相稱，如果她找到了更合適的，我們就離婚。

        農曆10月10日公曆11月11日1時我女兒出生，取名尾亦有一“琴”字。

        當小王母親知道那“洞房離約”之後，也許是小王的“李琴之美”的外表部分的作用，她每次同母親上舞廳，都會有男孩追到家門口。不久我們在街辦辦了協議離婚。女兒由我單方面供養和監護，她可隨時來看孩子，她再婚前就吃在我家。我也表示她生話有困難可隨時找我，之後我還給她增加了些用品。由於她戶口已調來南昌，我請同事幫忙為她搞到一個工作編制指標。但無崗位上班，我便先將小王一年的工資付給該廠門市部承包人，她可開始上班。我知道，她只要去服務行業應聘，憑她的外表都會爭着要，但服務行業太雜亂, 出了問題至少對不起女兒。就這樣，結束了連懷孩哺女在內的一年多婚姻。

        此後幾年我整理、改進和完成了幾項專利發明，成就感使我找了新的精神寄託，也成癮了。在我參加全國機構創造發明論文發表會前，小王厂部要我幫助聯繫當時各大媒體報道的，獲國際大獎的范氏快夾台虎鉗的專利合作事宜。我在會上看到范氏台鉗的結構後就發現，在常受敲打的粗糙工具中增加精度較高強度差的多個小構件，增加成本壽命下降是其致命的弱點，後來虧本和淘汰也證明了這一點。因此我沒有去談，當小王厂部問及此事後，我在三天裡設計了一種高效快夾台虎鉗，將傳統台虎鉗的二十來個零件減少到六、七個零件，全行程快夾工件與轉向鎖緊一次完成，又可無切削製造成，美觀耐用功能又好的精鑄鋼鍍鋅或鍍鉻（國際市場至今還沒有）的台鉗，成本還低於現行鑄鐵噴漆台鉗。

        在獲中國專利後，勞動局看上了，把我調出廠，在南昌技校興建校辦工廠準備投產。不久由中國專利局組團參加新加坡發明展，我和勞動局一副局長級領導參加，兩人會費四萬多，但局長（己判刑）要我領九萬元換美元，我便藉故到出發前才露面而沒有經手。反正不是我一人去，不怕會泡湯。展會第二天中午吃飯前，有一個商人出五萬美金要買我的快夾管子鉗專利，我是公費出國參展不好當場決定，五分鐘後午餐時，我全場也沒有找到那商人。事後有人怨我，應當場成交給另外一人一些，個人專利自己可以作主，但我根本就沒有行賄的意識。在高效快夾台虎鉗獲金獎後，校方要我將幾項在國內外獲獎的個人專利變更為校方所有，儘管我同意無償給校方開發和生產而要求不作變更，但最後還是違願簽了變更文件，可是中國專利局未受理，校方為此很不滿。此時，范氏台鉗發明人東北某研究所的范先生，寫了一封七、八頁的信給我校領導，以自己虧本的具體實例勸校方不要投產，正趕火上加油。我在三個月上班而未拿到工資的情況下，決定在家搞個人工作室，從此，就沒去上班。

         一月後有一家新加坡小商人專程來南昌談合作開發專利一事，我帶到局裡，局幹部在進餐時了解到投資不多而不了了之。此時由於省電視台播出了我的幾項發明成果，祖籍奉新的鄒縣長專程來南昌與我談合作，由於當時個人不能與外商合資，我便將這商人和不久又來的一新馬大商人介紹給老家。先成立了中新合資“江西新華科技開發有限公司”作專利開發，又與新馬商人在深圳簽了投資辦廠生產高效快夾台虎鉗的合同，但沒想到，奉新招商局競會在已達協議的合同中單方面改了兩處，其中雙方委派的正副總經理調換了。因此新華科技公司也在一年後新方資金不肯到位而結束合作。

        九三年，經省科協會議討論批准並發文，由我負責邀請包括清華大學的省內外數十名教授、專家和學者，創辦了江西宋應星研究會。民政廳與省科協意見不一，民政廳要求打入大額的資金，但科協對學術組織不這樣認為，要我們儘快運作。我用賣專利和新方支助的錢買了一套工作室，一邊組建研究會工作，一邊繼續設計新專利項目。     

      在女兒入學後，我母親的支氣管炎加重，此病與幾十年藥廠煙塵下工作有關，開始每年有半年多需住院治療。我也開始在醫院、學校與家之間奔忙。同時，我一個接一個的申請專利，鄰居說我走路都在想問題，像是有癮，我常設計至深夜一兩點，有時睡下後又爬起來寫，生怕第二天忘了。並且開始把精力集中於我真正感興趣的社會問題，也就是幾十年裡導致我周圍一系列災難的問題，八九年之後更使我熱衷於這些問題。

      90年在李琴廾周年祭日的端午節間，我酒後寫下:

七絕 屈曲中原

陸地冤魂沖九天,

肆海化淚灑中原,

壯骨作錘破世紀,

烈軀碾鼓喚人間.

......

        天暗了，又到了我喝二兩的時候了。

        喝酒不僅能解愁，邊喝邊回憶，飄然如仙的感覺，此時真的火燒屁股，也會不慌不忙的回頭瞧瞧，繼續寫下去。

        回顧李琴去世後我的思想變化，整理在二十多年前給劍柔信中第一次提出的“多級趨圓論”。我很清楚這些觀點當時很難發表，便想到以發明專利的申請程序方式發表。就這樣，世界上自有專利史以來第一項涉及社會科學只求社會效益，不求個人經濟效益的“專利”申請<電腦民主高速公路系統>，於九十年代中期公告了。接着一個個文獻大典紛紛來函約稿，我明白這些自然科學領域的刊物審稿沒有“敏感的神經”，那方面松得多，國家知識產權出版社、人民畫報社和人民日報出版社，便一家接一家登載了我提出的電腦民主高速公路系統。 

        在我寫這編文章的時候，引來了我八歲女兒的第一項專利“多用回形大頭針”的發明。一天，我在寫時叫女兒拿大頭針來，她沒有找到便將一回形針拉直一半剪去交給我，我一看，不僅可作大頭針，還保留了回形針的功能。便啟發她多想想，反覆改進使它有更多功能，這樣，一種具備回形針、大頭針、繃針、別針和圖釘等功能的多用回形大頭針申請了中國專利。由於形似手寫“6”與“4”字，便取名“6.4針”。我估計會觸動那時的知識界某一“敏感神經”，電視台相繼報道了女兒的發明，有時為此玩世不恭捧腹而生數十年難得的一笑. 緊接着又獲省市青少年創新與發明一等獎、破例缺席參展獲96北京國際發明展銀獎和全國青少年創新賽銀獎、王丹萍和陳香梅等獎金，及中央電視台"希望之星"和全國"21世紀之星"等稱號，女兒在2001年被中國少年科學院評為院士.

        從此，不少學校邀請我作創新發明輔導講座，我要求老師和家長們，從小培養孩子們的創新意識：說到創新發明，不少人會說難，其實並非如此，只要你把閒聊打牌的時間讓出一部分，"歪腦筋"少動一些，你也可以搞發明。可以說會比做數學題還容易，因為數學題往往只有一兩個答案，而發明項目的答案可以不同，成千上萬，各有千秋。數學題是老師給的，沒得選擇，而發明的課題是你周圍的一切事和物，夠多了。有的數學題你可能一兩小時還做不出，而有的發明創新你幾分鐘就可想到。關鍵是養成永遠在創新意識中生活的習慣, 對現實不滿才是你乃至社會進步和發展的動力。

        97年母親己住院十來年，累計化費公費和自費數十萬元，這年的6月1日，母親原廠公費醫療開始更嚴格的規定。6月4日是李琴祭日，我在醫院心情一直不好，媽以為我憂心醫療費，對我說："接我回家吧,治不好了，我是要走了，我單位幹事的人的工資開始成問題,不要浪費，你們也還得生活下去"。我不肯，母親當晚跌跌撞撞去吵醫生要出院。過了幾天醫生見她氣色好轉准她出院，但出院第四天的晚上，也就是江西電視台報道我女兒獲獎消息的當晚，母親離開了人世。我極度痛苦，母親一生勤勞善良給我深刻印象，數十年藥廠工作使她氣管炎病重不治，臨終想到的還是公家同事。

        母親去世後，我不再來往奔忙甚感寂寞，機械行業不景氣，老同學建議我學電腦。我買來電腦，在我年近四十八歲時開始認真學電腦。自學一年後，電腦硬盤出問題了，保存的數據面臨丟失。我揭開硬盤線路板，女兒眼睛好使，她發現接線觸點小錫面有小空穴易接觸不良，壓平後一切正常。我感覺到硬盤的重要性，也知道這是電腦維修中最難的問題。我從市場買來幾十個不同廠家的壞硬盤，間斷地研究一年後，搞起了一間無塵工作室，辦起了全省第一家電腦數據恢復和硬盤維修工作室，慚慚在電腦市場上產生一定影響，他們有的寄有的送來我的工作室，我雖然學申腦時間短，但修復水平在電腦市場年輕老闆們眼裡是電腦界少見的白髮“專家”老頭。

全國各家修復的方法基本相同，為突出自己的水平，幾年裡我對最難修復的硬盤研究出自已的方法。比如DOS下無法查看的數控機器、進口微電腦印刷機或帶硬盤複印機等特殊文件格式的數椐恢復。不能識別的硬盤則經好硬盤引導後熱插拔替換，但未修完驗好不要反覆重起與退出。為此，我編了“和明硬盤數椐修復工具平台PC sos 6.4”程式，使全部改寫後的修復與檢側軟件能相互快速切換，不需重起或退出。修復與檢側軟件功能差異也主要在於，修復與檢側時間越長越徹底而已。在我收到諮詢電話才知道，商家從我網站上下載簡易版並製作同名光盤已在全國各大城市發行。

         前幾年，在中國買一個硬盤需要普通人一兩個月的工資，好心的女兒將我們發現的硬盤盤體與其線路板接線方式的設計問題，向全球幾大硬盤生產廠商發去電子郵件，她得到回函的衷心感謝和紀念品。那不佳的接線方式有百分之五十以上，筆記本電腦硬盤高達百分之八十以上．昆騰和IBM幾乎都是這種接線方式，硬盤電路板的接線處是由兩排十餘個小錫頭組成，盤體上相對位置由十餘個小觸頭組成．兩頭或中央壓上一兩螺釘，硬盤在使用後溫度明顯升高，而電路板很薄，壓螺釘後受熱變形成凹或凸狀，致使部分觸頭斷路或接觸不良，很容易產生電火花，使錫頭產生小洞和產生導電性能差的氧化層．擠壓平錫頭小洞和磨光觸頭裝好，則一切恢復正常．這是很容易在設計和檢查中忽視的問題，但在重要的設備和領域中.可能造成重大事故或災難,也難怪名牌失色.硬盤廠商兼併的兼併, 轉讓的轉讓.

       2000年在李琴卅周年祭日的端午節間，我酒後又寫下:

  大陸.四害

流 亡 坐 困

氓 命 井 獸

茅 等 僵 死

廁 小 則 裏

東 嬪 明 崩    注: 茅等:毒草之類,  裏:歸宿, 東:東家.

        我一直熱衷於探討新型的社會模式，並將我的見解同樣以發明專利程序公告，<網絡主導社會體系>引來眾多約稿供發表。

        本世紀初，為了悼念胡耀邦等人，我在網上寫下輓聯:

“中原難得照紫陽，大陸幸有夫耀邦”，橫批:“解放區的天”。

        作為自傳我必須尊重事實，如果會觸痛什麼人，我也得這樣，至少今天我會睡得安穩，好了，已經是深夜三點了，我該睡幾個小時了！

        ……。

        電視的早間新聞又把我引到了客廳，女兒打開了電視卻不見她人影，電視正在報道中央台的青年歌手大賽，在採訪原生態歌手組合的鏡頭中，我發現其老師很面熟，仔細一看，“李琴”！憑我少時研究過的深刻印象，我很有把握的叫出聲來。啊，她沒有死！從電視報道中得知她“黎琴”在南方一個少數民族的山鄉做老師，這次帶學生來京參賽，演唱她挖掘的原生態歌曲。我興奮極了，趕緊打電話問詢去北京的飛機，上班時刻買來機票。午飯後趕往機場，下午三點多到達北京，乘的士迅速趕到中央電視台。在值班室與大賽組織人聯繫後，得知黎琴在江西駐京辦事處銀河賓館。來到銀河賓館己是晚間七時，我顧不得吃晚飯在賓館大廳服務台等這位”黎琴”出現。三分鐘後，她來到我面前，呆呆的看着我，在我說完"我是鄒和明"之後，她的淚水一涌而出，我無法形容此時的心情，也顧及不得周圍那麼多人，上前張手抱緊了她，這是自五十年前半步街大火和四十年前分手之夜後的第三次擁抱，我倆抽泣了數分鐘之久。

“沒想到你還活着"，我雙手棒着她的臉，異常激動地說。

“我也沒想到還會見到你”她一邊說一邊擦着淚。

我扶着她在旁邊的沙發上坐下，

“四十年了，你為什麼不來見我？你生活還好嗎？”。

“我被漁夫黎大伯和大媽救活之後，只想在那山鄉渡過餘生，能在電視和報刊中見到和了解你，我心滿意足了。”抓着我的手也越握越緊。

“你家人還好嗎？”我又追問。

“父親入獄一年多後病故，外公外婆文革中也去世了，四人幫倒台後，我把媽媽和弟弟接來黎大伯的山村，弟弟在那裡成了家，媽媽前年病故，舅舅在贛西北老家古廟裡。”

“你呢？你丈夫和孩子呢？”，她沒有回答，低下了頭。

“你，你不會還沒結婚吧？”她還是不語，過了一會兒她低聲說：

“結婚對我來說三十七年前就沒意義了”，聽到這話，我又不由自主地將她的頭靠到我的肩上。當她看到旁人用好奇的眼神看着我倆白髮人時，稍微直起了身子。

“我們不要再分離了，讓我們白頭到老吧。”我用雙手把她的手緊握到胸前堅定地說。

…….

        我們談到了九點多鐘，我決定定居贛南。這時，我肚子有些餓，便帶她來到一家酒吧，要了瓶葡萄酒，慶祝我倆四十年後的相逢。直到凌晨兩點才回到賓館。

第二天也是她們原本返贛的日子，我和她們一起乘火車去李琴乾爹乾媽黎氏夫婦的家鄉。我們在這個風景美麗的山鄉籌備兩天后，按當地風俗舉行了婚禮。李硯夫婦和兩個孩子都來了，他們捧着一大堆焰火禮花……。

        忽然一聲巨響，我像慚慚從另一世界回到現實中來，猛一張眼，看見窗上密集的雨滴，一個接一個的雷聲，不用我說你也知道以上這段才真正是虛幻的夢，而這美妙的虛幻我記不清是第幾次了，但是我可以告訴你，不會是最後一次。

        我從十四歲開始萌芽而一直強烈燃燒的愛情之火，在卅六歲有過一年多的似有似無的夫妻生活，如今年近六十滿頭白髮，只留有思維和酒的夢般融合。與我有相似經歷的人決不會少，只是相當一部分人麻木了，而不是像我需依賴於酒。

        至於我的專利，我無精力也不善於開發, 全部收益將捐於公益事業， 我的眼角膜或全部有移植或研究價值的器官都將捐獻，能為社會做些什麼我願去盡力，這是我餘生僅有的願望和意義。

        半個多月前，李琴母校，也是我女兒發明“六-四針”時的母校，請我幫助完成了兩幅當今全市最高最大的手工壁畫，並設計與製作校門口的六分米方四米高不繡鋼標誌性雕塑。我設計雕塑主體是紅領巾組成的，形似“六-四針”的“6”與“4”字狀領結，故雕塑可謂“六-四結”，願以此給血紅的領巾正名。本月初李琴卅七年祭日前雕塑落成，我為告慰她，灑酒並寫下:

六-四結

白骨堂外八-九血

紅旗角下六-四結

鹿死誰手非未知

民主出頭必昭雪

（注 “八-九”：八-九不離十，此處是指一定不會是小數目, 即”許多”的意思）

聊此吾臨“9.11”之災,認識和根除恐怖與邪惡才能真正迎來和諧。我的網名是“陸肆水手”，6.4我最愛的兩人--李琴和母親先後去世。心火燒酒,聊原於世,正邪之爭“陸肆水手”問蒼天鹿死誰手……, 可我只聽到李琴的堅定回答。

    鄒和明                                            

   2007.6.12

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