邹和明先生三项诺贝尔奖推荐Mr. Zou He Ming's Three Nobel Prizes Recommendation Letters

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21世纪和平新政宣言等为提名诺贝尔奖的推荐函

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Recommended for Nobel Peace Prize nominations: (Subject to the subsequent Chinese original)

     Declaration of the New Deal for Peace in the 21st Century

( Foreword: Under the banner of the great man Dr. Sun Yat-sen, the only one that is conducive to the peaceful reunification of the two sides of the strait and is easily accepted by all parties, the reform of the Western-style political system, the participation of all political parties and associations in the administration and discussion of politics, and the absence of the great turmoil of the ruling party, the combination of China and the West, the optimization of the separation of powers, the popular election and the "imperial examination", and the new deal of peace in the 21st century of the rule of the wise man, China can take the lead and move from "democracy" to "wisdom-led"! Advocating wisdom to govern society, "democracy" is "wisdom-led" The initial stage is the prototype of the wise man governing the society and "wisdom leading". The real world should be dominated by the intelligent group first, and finally realized, and the wisdom system assists the real intelligent group and governs the best system of society.   

        Taking into account the realities of various political systems and countries, the vast majority of countries have chosen the Western political system for reform or change, but the Western political system still has the defects that need to be reformed, which has become a reason for some people to attack, reject or doubt. For example, it is difficult to produce the best decision-making, and most of them are neither good nor bad, and the compromise plan after the confrontation is made, so that the governance is not ideal, and the voters lose confidence; the consortium and business giants have too much influence on politics; the opposing political parties take turns to govern and make decisions that are easy to overturn and cost the people and money, and the voters will lose confidence if they are confused before and after; In addition, there are also campaigns in which the image and eloquence of the election campaign and the role of funds are too heavy, which is not conducive to the ideologues of erudition and the candidates who are not supported by the consortium; the majority of the well-known but not good at argumentation are easily defeated by the candidates who are only good at image and eloquence; the most obvious example of the weakness of the Western-style political system is that in countries like Iraq, it is impossible to solve the problem of peaceful governance of multiple parties and sects, which are not on the same page; It is also necessary to reform and improve the Western-style form of government, and it is important to develop the separation of powers of Sun Yat-sen, and it is necessary to examine and supervise. Reform the Western-style political system, all political parties and associations participate in politics and discuss politics without being in power, that is, only the ruling wise man is replaced smoothly, and there is no major turmoil in the ruling party, and the "21st Century Peace New Deal" is a combination of China and the West to optimize the separation of five powers, and the democratically elected imperial examination and the wise man governs the country.

       With the development of civilization and education in the new century, we should combine the rule of law with morality, that is, the rule of law with morality, and the treatment of symptoms with the root cause; the combination of the people with scholars and the will of the people with academic theory, such as the combination of the direct election of citizens with the selection and selection of scholars in the imperial examination; and the integration of the essence of Eastern and Western civilizations and the cultures of various nationalities, so as to open up a new 21 st century of rapid development. China is the key to influencing the development of peace and civilization in the new century, and people generally hope that China's great reform should be carried out in a peaceful manner to avoid paying huge social costs and heavy costs, and that the social reform in the new century should put an end to the bloodshed. The best choice for the purpose of making the vast majority of people acceptable, not completely Westernizing the combination of China and the West, and conducive to the peaceful reunification of the two sides of the Taiwan Strait, must be to gather under the banner of the great man Dr. Sun Yat-sen, perfect, perfect, and develop Sun Yat-sen's system of separation of powers, and implement the new deal for peace in the 21 st century, which is advocated in this article. Only when China has completed the great transformation that conforms to the tide of the people's will will it be the beginning of creating a new peaceful and civilized world in the 21st century!

        The reform of Western democracy has added oriental elements, and the system of separation of powers, which is relatively strong in the Western-style complete party politics of the great man Dr. Sun Yat-sen, has been further reformed into incomplete party politics. In ancient China, there was a saying that "forming a party for personal gain" meant that all political parties and associations participating in and discussing state affairs would not be in power, and there would be no distinction between ruling parties and opposition parties, so as to avoid the complete political malpractice of party politics in which the rights and interests of the ruling party itself are above the state and everything else. There will be no hardships and pains in which the ruling party will step down, passively overthrow, or be replaced by another party, so that there will be lasting stability. Political parties and organizations should give up the goal of striving for power and only participate in the administration and discussion of state affairs, give full play to their noble political wisdom and cultivation, revise the interests of their respective political parties and organizations and the personal interests of key members, give up their excessive desire for power and change their goals, and put the interests of the people first.

        This is the only one under the banner of the great man Sun Yat-sen that is conducive to the reunification of the two sides of the strait and is easily accepted by both sides, the separation of powers between China and the West is optimized, the right to the "imperial examination" examination is truly implemented, the high-IQ group is governed by the wise, all political parties and organizations participate in and discuss politics and are not in power, and the incomplete party politics is only the new deal for peace in the 21 st century, which is only smoothly replaced by the ruling wise man, and there is no great turmoil in the ruling party. That is, the democratic "trinomical government" system of the Magi guidance, with the separation of powers as the means and the end of the government, its structure is summarized as follows:

 1. The separation of five powers and the Western-style separation of powers proposed by the great man of reform, Mr. Sun Yat-sen, are divided into three governments: (1) the "executive government" (which can be referred to as the government) elected by the general election of the whole people's "national policy" after the new imperial examination, that is, the "wisdom" general election, and its institutions and functions are similar to those of the Western-style administration of the separation of powers; (2) the popular election, which is the "parliamentary government" for the purpose of legislation that is elected by the whole people in response to the "proposal" and does not require the new imperial examination (3) the new imperial examination does not require the people's election and has multiple checks and balances, and the government includes the exercise of the right to provide free education and medical institutions for all; the property rights of the cultural relics institute, the private property institute (including the patented) institute and the resource institute (including the land institute); the examination power of the academy of sciences, the moral and intellectual academy (including the public morality reward and punishment and think tank) and the examination institute; the procuratorate, Judicial powers such as the Anti-Corruption Yuan and the courts, and the supervisory powers such as the Media Court, the Integrity Court, and the Supervision Yuan (including newspapers and the Internet) form a loosely integrated government, so the government also has a small number of highly specialized administrative functions and some Western-style parliamentary and senate functions.

 2. The term of office of each government is four years, the general elections of the executive government and the parliamentary government are held every four years, and the new imperial examination is once a year. Those who participate in the imperial examination must be postdoctoral researchers of famous institutes who have passed the prescribed scope of qualification examination such as physical examination, integrity and criminal record, and they can be allowed to be selected for a maximum of three imperial examinations regardless of whether they have been selected for the imperial examination. The new imperial examination is subject to the subjects of administration, management, political science, law and economics, with supplementary questions, i.e., all many subjects. The new imperial examination is an examination of the number and range of test questions beyond the limit, and the talent IQ test (this talent IQ test is gradually promoted and deepened with the development of high technology, and finally transferred to the management of the whole society, relying on the guidance of the unmanned intelligence system).

 3. Gradually introduce a refined fair and efficient "voting share" system, that is, all important official matters such as election referendums and proposal voting, which have been accumulated according to the results of right and wrong and counted by the computer, and the different and changing "shares" of each person voted each time will be recorded in terms of integrity, qualifications and qualifications. To make all important votes of all people more careful and, in particular, more effective. It is necessary to fully follow and make use of the resources and role of the rapidly developing computer network technology to continuously improve the management level of the new policy. In the end, it was transformed into the management of the whole society, relying on the guidance of the unmanned intelligence system.

 4. The prime minister of the executive government (and the supreme commander of the military and police) shall apply for the election of the prime minister by the two people in the earliest order of the imperial examination, who shall be the candidate for the prime minister, and shall be the first to independently combine into two groups of running partners who are protected by the prime minister, and then elect the president and vice prime minister at the general election. The prime minister in the general election is approved by two-thirds of the three government joint meetings, and can be re-elected after being selected in the second and third imperial examinations and in the general election, and the prime minister candidate is not eligible to run for election if he is not elected three times. All government officials at the level of chief and deputy ministers shall be appointed by the prime minister from among the wise men who have passed the imperial examinations of the corresponding sessions, and may be resigned without any restrictions on the number of times they can be rehired after being approved by half of the other two governments. The chief and deputy chief executives of each province (special region or prefecture) and city and county (district) shall be elected by the local voters, and the other officials shall be appointed by the chief executive of the respective imperial examinations.

 5. After being elected, the chief executive at all levels shall resign from the original posts of associations, parties, sects, etc., and the administration shall not carry the bias of associations and sects, and flexibly select all the optimal decisions of all parties and factions that are not just one party and one party as needed, that is, the best political program "national policy" is composed of various issues of various political parties and associations without political party color and ideological orientation, and the "proposals" of any political parties, associations and personal political opinions are not the same as "national policies". Only when the executive government is set up up to the administrative organs at the city and county (special district or prefecture) level, and only offices are set up under it, that is, township offices and grass-roots village offices and neighborhood offices are appointed and dismissed by the chief executive at a higher level; To simplify the complexity and bloat of Western-style institutions, the concept of "administration" must be set up in cities and counties (special districts or states). The concept of "parliament" and "adjudication" can make full use of the Internet and its videos to streamline the administration and abolish its city, county (special district or state) level institutions.

6. Candidates of all parties, factions, associations, sects or personal identities registered within the jurisdiction may run for the "councilors" of the Central Council Government and the provincial (special region or prefecture) parliamentary government after qualification examination, and shall be elected by the voters under their jurisdiction, without the need for the imperial examination, and the number of elected terms is not limited. Participating in a general election in which the parliamentary government has a political party color or ideological orientation is different from a general election in which the executive government has no strong party color and no ideological orientation. The chairperson and deputy "speaker" of the parliament are elected by the current "councillors" of the parliamentary government and the total number of "speakers" of the central parliamentary government plus the "speakers" of each province (special region or prefecture) is equal to the number of the other two governments participating in the tripartite joint meeting.

 7. The chief and deputy judges, presidents, examiners, prosecutors and judges of the central government and the provincial (special region or prefecture) government shall be ranked by the qualified persons of the new imperial examination, that is, the wise men on the list, according to the scores of the corresponding subjects of the new imperial examination, and the scores of the corresponding disciplines in the new imperial examination, they can refer to the doctoral majors obtained by the original famous schools or the work majors they are engaged in and classified into the files. It does not need to be elected by the people, nor is it not responsible for the appointment of the chief executive, but only serves the country in accordance with the constitution and laws, and exercises all decisions in all cases, excluding only the need for the ruling of the "tripartite joint council", which is different from the Western-style form of government, and makes the judicial power, supervision power, and examination power more decentralized. The chief and deputy clerks, presidents, examiners, prosecutors and judges of each branch of the government shall resign after a term of four years, and shall be re-elected only after a new examination. After his resignation, he will be reverted to the position of a Wise Fellow of the Legislature, and may be appointed to a position other than that of the Chief Executive of the Territorial Executive or to the position of the Inspector General of the Governing Body.

8. Legislative proposals can be put forward by a simple majority and examined by all governments; the motions of the "executive government" may be submitted to the "administrative government" for amendment and then to the "parliamentary government" for examination and approval, or they can be repealed by more than two-thirds of the motions; the motions of the "administrative government" may be submitted to the "executive government" and may be submitted to the "legislative government" for examination and approval, or the "parliamentary government" may pass and repeal one of them by a two-thirds majority; the motions of the "parliamentary government" may be submitted to the "administrative government" first, and they may be submitted to the "executive government" as amendments, or they may be submitted to the "executive government" as amendments and then returned to the "parliamentary government" Motions approved by two-thirds of the "parliamentary government" do not need to be submitte

 9. The members of the presidium are all non-empowered senior ministers, among which the latest outgoing prime minister is the president of the state (symbolic head of state), the latest outgoing vice prime minister is the vice president of the state, and the president and vice president of the state are all with the rest of the previous outgoing prime ministers, outgoing chairmen and vice presidents and outgoing chief and vice presidents for the presidium for life, and the presidium exercises the functions of ceremonial envoys, independent investigations and inspection reports, and participation in the voting of major bills.

 10. The "three-style election system" of the New Deal for the people and the imperial examination is not only in line with the will of the people but also standardized in the academic theory, and the contrast between the "proposal" general election and the "national policy" (wisdom) general election is intertwined and optimized, and it is also conducive to the opportunity for erudite theorists and eloquent activists and talents with both to shine and contribute. The popular elections and imperial examinations of the New Deal are not limited by age, surname, ethnicity, political party, wealth or poverty, image and eloquence, etc., and are fair and reasonable, which is far stronger than the current Western-style elections.

 11. The New Deal for Peace is a "scholarly democracy", and all so-called democracy so far is only capable of being guided by those powerful parties and interest groups, and the sages and sages who have stood out through the imperial examination and popular elections are the representatives of public opinion and scholarship, not the representatives of a certain political party, association, sect or interest group. In the end, it was transformed into the management of the whole society, relying on the guidance of the unmanned intelligence system.

12. All ethnic groups and regions with their own characteristics have full autonomy, and the smallest group of the smallest ethnic group or the smallest region has the maximum vote rate of the prime minister, speaker of parliament, and theirs, as long as the wise person produces it, which is much greater than the current Western-style election rate, highlighting equality and justice.

        The party does not govern alone and the military does not participate in politics, which is the same and reasonable, and it is easy for the world to be peaceful, to avoid social divisions, to avoid coups and turmoil, and to be peaceful and safe. This new deal in the 21st century, which combines Chinese and Western incomplete party politics and governs the country by high-IQ groups and wise people, will lead to the gradual development of the "metaverse" system in the virtual world, and finally realize the ultimate system of human beings assisted by inhuman intelligence systems and governed by real intelligence groups!

Drafter: Zou Heming

April 22, 2024

E-mail: zohemng@outlook.com

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(The original Chinese version below shall prevail)

诺贝尔和平奖提名的推荐项:

     《21世纪和平新政宣言》

 （ 前言：在伟人孙中山先生旗下唯一有利两岸和平统一且各方都易接受的，改革西式政体，一切政党社团参政议政都不执政的，即只有执政智者平稳更换的，而无执政政党大动荡更换的，中西结合优化五权分立的，民选科举智者治国的21世纪和平新政，中国可先行，从"民主"发展而走向"智主"！崇尚智慧治理社会，"民主"是"智主"的初级阶段，是智者治理社会"智主"的雏形。现实世界应先由智慧群体主导，最终实现无人智慧体系协助，现实智慧群体治理社会的最佳体制。）

         综合各政体和各国现实，绝大多数国家改革或变革选择了西方政体，但西方政体还有需改革的缺陷，已成为有人攻击、拒绝或怀疑的理由。如:  很难产生最佳决策而大多是不优不劣，成心对抗后的折衷方案，使施政不理想，选民失去信心；财团商界巨头对政治影响过大；对立政党轮流执政决策易翻来覆去劳民伤财，前后易混乱选民也会失去信心; 并不只是几人而是几党几大群体竟争最高权力，强对抗易使社会撕裂更易使选民失望；另外还有竞选的形象口才和资金作用偏重，不利于博才寡言的理论家，和不利于无财团资助的竞选人；大多数博才的却不善辩的竞选人易被仅仅是形象口才好的竞选人击败等等；西式政体弱点最明显的例子，在伊拉克之类的国家，就无法解决誓不两立的多党多教派的和平执政问题； 而实西式政体也有改革完善的必要，重要的是发展孙中山五权分立的，考试和监察很有必要。改革西式政体一切政党社团参政议政都不执政，即只有执政智者平稳更换，而无执政政党大动荡更换的，中西结合优化五权分立，民选科举智者治国的“21世纪和平新政”。

        新的世纪随文明和教育的发展，应以法治和德理相结合，即法治与德理，治标与理本相结合；以民众与学者、民意与学理相结合，如公民直选与学者科举的选与举相结合；以东西方文明及各民族文化精华相结合，开创高速发展的新21世纪。中国是影响新世纪和平文明发展的关键，人们也普遍希望中国大变革应该和平过渡，避免付出巨大社会成本和沉重代价，新世纪社会变革更要终止杀人流血。旨在让绝大多数人能接受的,  不完全西化中西结合的，有利两岸和平统一的，最佳选择必是都相聚在伟人孙中山先生的旗帜下，完善健全和发展孙中山的五权分立体制，实施本文倡导的21世纪和平新政。只有中国也完成了顺民意世潮的大变革，才是开创21世纪全新的和平文明世界的开始！

        改革西方民主制加入东方元素，将伟人孙中山先生的西式完全政党政治较浓厚的五权分立体制，进一步改革为不完全政党政治。中国古代就有“结党营私”一说，所有政党社团参政议政都不执政，无执政党和在野党之分， 避免执政党自身权益高于国家及一切的完全政党政治弊病。将不会有执政党下台被动推翻消亡或执政地位被他党取代的艰险和痛苦，从而长存久安。政党社团应放弃争取执政的目标也仅参政议政，发挥高尚的政治智慧和修养，修改各自政党社团和要员个人的利益诉求，放弃过高权力欲望更改奋斗目标，以人民的利益为重。

        这一可供和平过渡的，伟人孙中山旗下唯一有利两岸统一且两岸都易接受的，中西结合优化五权分立的，真正落实考试权的高智商群体智者治国的，一切政党社团参政议政都不执政的，不完全政党政治的，只有执政智者平稳更换的，而无执政政党大动荡更换的21世纪和平新政。即士辅民主的“三府合政”制，分权为手段合政为目的，其架构概述为：

 1，改革伟人孙中山先生提出的五权分立和西式三权分立为三府合政: （1）由新科举考试后全民“国策”大选即“智慧”大选出的“行政府”（可简称官府），其各机构和职能与西式三权分立之行政相似；（2）民选即全民针对“提案”而大选出的，不需新科举考试的旨在立法的“议政府”（可简称民府），其各机构和职能与西式三权分立之议会相似；（3）新科举考试不需民选的具多重制衡权的“理政府”（可简称士府），理政府包括行使提供全民免费的教育院、医疗院等生存权；文物院、（包括专利的）私产院和（包括国土的）资源院等资产权；科学院、（包括公德奖罚和智库的）德智院和考试院等考试权；检查院、廉政院和法院等司法权；（包括报刊和网络的）传媒院、诚信院和监察院等监察权等的，组成松散结合的理政府，因此，理政府还具有小部分专业性极强的行政功能和部分西式议会参议院功能。

 2，每届政府任期四年，行政府和议政府的大选为四年一届次，新科举考试为每年一次。参加科举的人必须是经体检、诚信和前科等资格审查的规定范围的名所博士后研究员，参加科举考试不管是否中榜任职过，最多可容许三届科举中榜。新科举考试是主题为行政科管理学、政治科法学和经济学，加辅题即全部众多学科。新科举考试是超极限数量和范围之试题的考试，和才能智商检测（此项才能智商检测跟随高科技发展逐步推进深化，最终转为全社会管理依靠于无人智慧体系辅导）。

 3，逐步引入精细化的公正而且高效的“投票份额”制，即选举公决和提案表决等一切重要公事投票表决的，历次累积的取决于对错结果并经电脑统计出的，每人每次投票的各自不同不断变化的“份额”，并记入诚信、资历和各资格等项。使所有人所有重要投票表决更认真谨慎，特别是更为有效。科举考试及大选、政迹统计、新政评估和投票份额等等要充分紧跟并利用不断飞速发展的电脑网络技术的资源和作用，不断提高新政的管理水平。最终转为全社会管理依靠于无人智慧体系辅导。

 4，行政府总理（兼军警最高统帅）由科举的两名排序最早的头名科举贤士申请参选总理者，为总理候选人，并在头名贤士中自主结合成两组竞选伙伴受总理级保护，再全民大选出正副总理，是两组就各政党社团的各政治议题的组合得出各自最佳的竞选纲领，交民投票选择。大选上的总理经三府联席会议三分之二通过可为第三次i竞选人只竞选再连任一届；经二次和三次科举中榜并大选上可再连任，总理候选人三次未选上则再无参选资格。各正副部长级行政府官员由总理在对口各届科举考试合格的中榜贤士中任命，经另两府半数通过，可被辞但无再聘次数限制。各省（特区或州）及市县（区）正副行政长官每职位取两名，在各届科举考试合格中榜贤士中按规定届序名次经电脑处理出的申请参选人经当地选民选出，其他官员由其行政长官任命。

 5，各级行政长官当选后辞去原社团党派教派之类职务，行政不带社团教派党派偏见，按需灵活择取各方各党各派争辩而出的非仅一方一党的全部最优决策，即无政党色彩无意识形态取向的各政党社团的各议题的组合出最佳政纲“国策”，任何政党社团及个人政见之“提案”不与“国策”等同。只有行政府设至市县（特区或州）级行政机构止，和其下仅设办事处即乡办镇办及基层村办街办由上级行政长官任免；议政府和理政府设至省（特区或州）级止其之下各级均不设立，仅由议政府和理政府常设适量“巡视组”据案需巡回暂驻于所辖市县（特区或州）行政府院内，议政府和理政府事务及案件（如起诉立案）可广泛运用互联网。简化西式体制机构的繁杂臃肿，行政府是“管”的概念必须设至市县（特区或州）。而议政府和理政府是“议”和“裁”的概念，完全可充分运用互联网及其视频而简政减员和废止其市县（特区或州）级机构。

 6，以辖内注册的各党各派各社团教派身份或个人身份之参选者，经资格审查后均可角逐中央议政府和各省（特区或州）议政府议员，经由所辖选民选出不需科举考试，当选届次不限。参加有政党色彩或有意识形态取向的议政府“提案”大选，与行政府无浓厚政党色彩无意识形态取向的“国策”大选不同。其正副议长由议政府当届议员选出得票多者担任，中央议政府议员加各省（特区或州）正副议长的总人数与另两府参加三府联席会议的人数相当。

 7，中央理政府和各省（特区或州）理政府的正副理士、院长、考官、检查官和法官等级要员由各届新科举考试合格人士即中榜贤士，根据其新科举考试主题分数和辅题对口学科分数排名，可参照原名校获得的博士专业或从事的工作专业分类入档，定期内三志愿对口投档按规定届序名次经电脑处理再公榜后上任。不需民选，也不由行政长官任命不对之负责，只依宪法法律为国服务，并行使仅不包括需“三府联席会议"裁决的一切各案裁决，不同与西式政体，使司法权、监察权和考试权等更分权独立。每界理政府正副理士、院长、考官、检查官和法官等级要员任期四年后卸职，重新科考中榜才可连任。卸职后留理政府还原为理政府贤士，可接受理士的“巡视组”任职或属地行政府正副行政长官之外的职务任命。

 8，立法提案三府均可经简单多数提出由各府参与审核，行政府提案先交理政府可作修正案再齐交议政府审定其一或过三分之二通过废止；理政府提案先交行政府可作修正案再齐交议政府审定其一或过三分之二通过废止；议政府提案先交理政府可作修正案齐交行政府也可作修正案再回议政府审定其一修正案或过三分之二通过原提案；议政府过三分之二通过的提案为不需交另两府直接审定，提案最终是由议政府审定由总理签署，若拒签则十日后自动生效。修宪、公决发起案、中央级弹劾案、主席团成员请辞除名等特大案的终审裁决需至少两府表决通过提出，主席召集，须由“三府一团（主席团）联席会议"过三分之二表决通过；各省级弹劾案及重大案由至少当地两府表决通过提出，总理召集，须其当地“三府联席会议"过三分之二通过；

 9，主席团成员均为无权的资政，其中最新卸任总理为国家主席（象征性国家元首），最新卸任副总理为国家副主席，国家正副主席任满后都与其余历届卸任正副总理、卸任正副议长和卸任正副理士为主席团终身资政，主席团行使礼仪特使、独立调查和巡视通报及参与特大案表决等职能。

 10，新政为民选和科举有分有合的“三式选举制”，既顺民意而又规范于学理,   既“提案”大选和“国策”（智慧)大选的对比交织进而优化，也有利于博才寡言的理论家和灵话善辩的活动家及两者兼优人才都有发辉和贡献的机会。这新政的民选与科举不受年龄，姓别、民族、党派、贫富、形象和口才等局限，公平合理，远强于现西式选举。

 11，和平新政为“士辅民主制”，至今为止所有所谓民主，都是只有那些强大的党派和利益集团才有能力导向的，经科举和民选脱颖而出之贤人贤士则是民意与学理的代表，而不是某政党、社团、教派或利益集团的代表。最终转为全社会管理依靠于无人智慧体系辅导。

12，各民族和各具特色地区有充分自治权，一个最小的群体最小的民族或最小地区只要出智者就有出总理、议长、理士等最大摡率，远比现西式选举摡率大得多，突显平等公正。

        党不执政与军不从政同理合理, 易天下太平避免社会撕裂，避免政变和动乱，和平且安全。这中西结合不完全政党政治的，高智商群体智者治国的21世纪新政将导致——从"民主"走向"智主"！逐步发展虚拟世界“元宇宙”系统，最终实现无人智慧体系协助现实智慧群体治理社会---人类的终极体制！

起草人：邹和明

2024年4月22曰

邮箱：zohemng@outlook.com

手机：18079108964

Recommended for nominations for the Nobel Prize in Physics:(Subject to the subsequent Chinese original)

      "Reflective Lines" Information Networks and "Reflective Lines" Informatics for Regulating War and Crime

       ---- an extension of the non-specular reflectance viewer I designed

        We all know that as long as any non-luminous object can polish its outer surface into a mirror, it can reflect the image like a mirror. Similarly, the computer only needs to scan and obtain the reflected light of all points that meet the conditions of each mirror surface of any object, and can also be processed by the computer to obtain the reflected image. It includes: optical long-range high-precision measurement scanner and computer.

       The smooth floor tiles can reflect the image because the upper surface of the floor tiles is ground into a lot of small mirrors almost on a plane, and any object surface can be regarded as a lot of small mirrors in different planes, and they are integrated on a mirror surface without polishing, and can only be imaged by a computer. After some experiments and analysis, the conclusions reached are positive and completely feasible. Non-mirror reflectance imagers will bring unexpected development in many aspects. For example, if it is installed on a car, it can see the situation of other road sections; the police can use it to monitor criminals or terrorists and carry out rescue operations; when it is mounted on a missile, it can more accurately cruise against hidden targets; and it also has a far-reaching impact on the fields of resource detection, medical observation, astronomical analysis, information network, and cultural customs.

       The years that have passed on earth have been confused by crime and war, and the smoke of murder can be smelled everywhere. In ancient times, wars caused the most casualties among civilians who had no defensive capability, followed by soldiers, and the supreme decision-makers were the safest; in modern times, wars have developed without targeting civilians, and the ratio of casualties between civilians and soldiers has changed, but it is still the safest decision-makers; in the new century, wars should not be aimed at civilians and soldiers, but should be aimed at decision-makers, weapons should be developed in the direction of high-precision strikes against single targets and complex and accurate cruises, and the concept of war in the new century should be innovated, and the cost of life in war should be concentrated among decision-makers; only in this way will war go to extinction and the role of the United Nations in peacekeeping can be greatly enhanced   Crime suppression is also a major aspect of social civilization, and thinking about this has strengthened my determination to study and explore this project.

        In the laboratory, the cross-section of the black plastic sheet that can be illuminated clearly by observing the image with a microscope, the polished side is on the top of the line, in the form of a discontinuity, and most of them are close to the point that has been on the line, which means that the "points" of the visual image that are strictly reflected by the mirror account for a very small proportion of the mirror surface. It should be pointed out here that the visual image is mentioned because it is not only specular reflective image information.

        In the laboratory, the cross-section of the black plastic sheet that can be illuminated clearly by observing the image with a microscope, the polished side is on the top of the line, in the form of a discontinuity, and most of them are close to the point that has been on the line, which means that the "points" of the visual image that are strictly reflected by the mirror account for a very small proportion of the mirror surface. It should be pointed out here that the visual image is mentioned because it is not only specular reflective image information.

          Any object surface can also find enough points where the facets are parallel to each other, or parallel to each other and parallel to the ideal mirror, that is, the mutilated mirror. You can also find a large number of mutilated convex and concave mirrors and tiny convex and concave mirrors, and for our discussion, any object surface is like a large number of flat mirrors and convex and concave mirrors of different sizes and different degrees of incompleteness. I have developed five integration options:

        Scheme 1: Use optical long-distance high-precision measurement and camera to obtain shape data such as surface precision position curvature scale and scanning information pixels such as reflection line, brightness and chromaticity of each scanning point in the specified object surface interval and scanning information pixels such as reflection line, brightness and chromaticity, and the computer extracts these data in the interval, each of which is on the same flat mirror surface, the same concave mirror surface, and the same convex mirror surface, especially on the tiny convex and concave mirror surface. All the points whose reflection angles conform to their specular conditions and their reflection line pixels form each possible incomplete image information, and stretch and flatten the distorted image information of each concave mirror and convex mirror surface as flat mirror image information (because the convex and concave mirror surface can write mathematical analysis formulas, it is easy to flatten it with a computer), and all the image information (each corresponding scanning point of the incident interval image only takes one of the reflection line pixels) is complemented into the reflection scanning image information of the clear observation object, and then input it into the display image.

        Scheme 2: also use optical long-distance high-precision measurement and camera to obtain the shape data such as the precise position, curvature and scale of the surface of the specified object surface interval and the corresponding scanning point reflection line pixels, and the computer also finds out the incident point position of the obtained reflection line pixel according to the normal of each point section in turn, so as to correct the corresponding point of the reflection line pixel in the image display screen. Specular reflection theoretically does not have such repetitive reflection line pixels. The reflection image is not visible to the naked eye, and the main reason is that the eye cannot make this kind of point correction, or preconceived and later deleted, while the computer can do it.

        Scheme 3: Without optical long-distance high-precision measuring instrument, with three high-precision stereo cameras and computers, from all the reflected pixels obtained, the precise surface shape of the reflective object surface is preliminarily analyzed, and the point of the section is roughly parallel to the theoretical mirror, and some approximate slightly convex and concave mirrors, after the computer sorts out the approximate image, intelligently corrects the surface shape data of the reflective object surface to further accuracy, and then sorts out the image, and so on many times until a clear image is obtained.

        Scheme 4: You can also use a computer with a high-precision camera to obtain the reflection line pixels of any object surface in turn, and locate the pixels corresponding to the incident and reflection with a method similar to cracking the code, (it is necessary to avoid or correct the reflection line pixels that are easy to repeat), and add intelligent correction to integrate the image. The above four schemes can be complementary or combined, in short, with the rapid development of science, there will be more schemes to achieve this goal.

        Scheme 5: There is also the easiest to implement the scheme is to use glass or chrome plating and other materials to make regular cloth paper-like such as developing photos, that is, "ground glass", a plausible "mirror", and the reflected invisible image can be displayed like a mirror after computer leveling processing.

        Therefore, I proposed the reflection information network and proposed the creation of reflection informatics, and the preliminary conclusions were derived:

        Conclusion 1: The image of any interval contains the image information of all the incident and reflection intervals of the reflected light in the interval from the light source, that is, the incident and reflected light in any interval can obtain the image information of all the incident and reflection intervals through which it passes, as long as the precise shape data of the object surface of the relevant intervals are obtained or recorded at the same time. For example, an image or a photograph can obtain image information about other areas outside the scene where light can be incident and reflected, and a photograph of the back of a criminal can obtain an image of the offender's front and the area outside the photo, as long as the relevant area of the background at the scene is collected with several precise shapes of the object surface. For another example, a medium that conceals a transparent but non-incident visual image in front of the camera lens can also obtain image information, as long as the precise structure and shape of the medium inside the medium are obtained. 

        Conclusion 2: The time difference between all image information in the incident or reflection region is equal to the distance divided by the speed of light, so that the time difference in various regions of the entire earth is negligible, so that the event images (including the clock images) in a considerable range of reflection regions are synchronously mutually verified in time, that is, they have time information. That is, an image or a photograph has reliable time data. This is very important, which means that the images of all processes such as signing and voting in reality and the network have reliable proof of time, so that the security and reliability of the network and the real-name socialization of the network have produced a breakthrough development. If this "non-mirror reflectance display" is installed in all directions in the large-scale reflection area of the ray, and the reflection information network is established, the complex and accurate surveillance, navigation, and cruising around the world can be regarded as very ideal, and it is also the "holy eye" of the "God" around criminals and war criminals, and it can also focus on monitoring and searching for murder weapons and weapons, and link them with the alarm and defense system to curb crime and war. To maintain privacy, you can set a graphics permission and password. The new century can bring crime and war to its death.

Zou He Ming

June 4, 2000

E-mail: zohemng@outlook.com

Mobile: 18079108964

(The original Chinese version below shall prevail)

诺贝尔物理学奖提名的推荐项:

      扼制战争和犯罪的反射信息网络及反射信息学

       ----基于我设计的非镜反射显像器之扩展

        我们都知道任何非发光体物只要能将其外表面磨光成镜面，就能像镜子一般反射图像．同样，计算机只要扫描获取任意物面的符合各镜面条件的所有点的反射光，也能由计算机处理获得反射图像．现有技术还没有通过对任意物面的反射线作镜面信息处理而获得反射图像的装置，非镜反射显像器的发明提供了这种扫描图像显示。它包括：光学远距高精度测量扫描仪和计算机.

        光滑的地砖能反射图像是因为地砖的上表面磨成了许许多多几乎在一个平面上的小镜面，而任意物面则可视为许许多多在各个不同平面内的小镜面，不磨光将它们整合在一个镜面上，只有通过计算机来完成．经过部分实验和分析得出的结论是肯定的和完全可行的．非镜反射显像器将为许多方面带来预想不到的发展．比如将它装在汽车上，可以看到别的路段状况；警方可用它监视罪犯或恐怖分子，展开抢险救援行动；装在导弹上，可以更准确的对隐蔽目标巡航；另外在探测资源、医疗观察、天文分析、信息网络和文化习俗等等领域产生深远影响．

        过去了的人间岁月一直被犯罪和战争所困惑，到处还闻得到杀人的硝烟．古代，战争使没有防卫能力的平民伤亡最多，其次是士兵，最高决策者则最安全；近代，战争有不以平民为目标的发展，平民和士兵伤亡比例有变化，但还是最高决策者最安全；进入新世纪战争应不以平民和士兵为目标，而以决策者为目标，武器应向单体目标高精度打击和复杂准确巡航方向发展，创新新世纪战争的观念，战争所付出的生命代价集中于决策者之间，只有这样战争才将会走向消亡，可大大提高联合国维和作用。扼制犯罪也是社会文明的主要方面．想到这些，更加强了我对本项目研究探讨的决心．

        在实验室里用显微镜观察能照清图像的黑塑料片的截面，抛光过的一面在最上边的一直在线上，呈间断点状，而大部分是接近在这一直在线的点，也就意味镜面严格反射可视图像的“点”占镜面的比例相当之少．绝大部分是近似图像, 在理想镜面上的点不会超过三个, 而且有相当一部分密布的间隙，如同电视机的有限亮点看不出间断一样。再观察任意不反射可视图像的物面截面，则上表面不呈直线．这里需要指出的是，提可视图像，是因为不只是镜面可反射图像信息．这里讨论的任意物面暂不包括发光体表面．

        任意物面同样可以找到足够多的切面相互平行，或相互平行且平行理想镜面的点．也就是残缺镜面. 还可找到许许多多大的残缺凸凹镜面和微小的凸凹镜面，对我们讨论来说，任意物面如同由许许多多大小不同残缺程度不同的平镜和凸凹镜组成．这也是任意物面反射的图像不可视的原因．要从这任意物面获取反射可视图像就如同拼图游戏一样，这种图像的整合只有用计算机来完成．我研究出五种整合方案：

        方案一：用光学远距高精度测量与摄像仪，获取指定物面区间的表面精密位置曲率尺度等形状数据和相对应各扫描点的反射线、亮度和色度等扫描信息象素，计算机提取该区间这些数据中的，各个在同一平镜面、同一凹镜面、同一凸镜面特别是微小凸凹镜面上的, 反射角符合其镜面条件的所有点及其反射线象素，形成各个可能残缺的图像信息，并伸缩展平各凹镜面和凸镜面的扭曲图像信息为平镜面图像信息（因为凸凹镜面能写出数学解析式，故用计算机展平是容易的），并将这所有图像信息（之中入射区间图像的每一对应扫描点只取其中之一反射线象素）互补成清晰的观察物的反射扫描图像信息,再输入显示器显示图像。

        方案二：同样用光学远距高精度测量与摄像仪，依次逐行获取指定物面区间的表面精密位置、曲率和尺度等形状数据及各与之相对应扫描点反射线象素，计算机同样依次逐行地，根据每点切面法线找出获取的反射线象素的入射点位，从而修正决定该反射线象素在图像显示屏中的相对应的点位．显示点位象素重复相同可取平均值，或先入为主后来删除．镜面反射理论上没有这种重复相同的反射线象素。任意物面肉眼看不到反射图像，也主要是眼睛不能作这种点位修正和先入为主后来删除，而计算机却完全可以做到．

        方案三：不用光学远距高精度测量仪，用三台高精度立体摄像仪和计算机，从所获取的全部反射象素，初步分析反射物面精确的表面形状，找出其切面大致平行理论镜面的点，和某些近似微凸凹镜面，计算机整合近似图像后，智能修正达更进一步精确的反射物面的表面形状数据，再整合图像，如此反复多次而得到清晰图像为止．

        方案四：也可用一台带高精度摄像仪的计算机，依次获取任意物面的反射线象素，用类似破解密码的方法定位入射与反射对应的象素，（要考虑避免或修正易重复相同的反射线象素），加智能修正来整合图像．只取普通计算机分辨率的显示器总象素值也要相当快的计算机，也许量子计算机等新型计算机可以解决．上述四种方案可结合或综合采用，总之，随着科学的高速发展，将有更多的方案来实现这一目标．

        方案五：还有最易实施的方案是，用玻璃或镀铬之类材料，制成如洗照片的布纹状 “毛玻璃”似是而非的“镜面”，其反射的肉眼不可视图像，经计算机展平处理后可如镜般显示清晰图像。

        由此我提出反射信息网络并提议创立反射信息学，初步导出结论：

        结论1：任何区间图像都包含该区间反射光自光源所经过的所有入射和反射区间的图像信息，即任何区间入射和反射光均可获取其经过的所有入射和反射区间的图像信息，只要同时获取或记录相关各区域区间物面的精密形状数据。比如，一幅图像或一张照片可获取其外当时光可入射和反射的别的区域的图像信息，一张罪犯背影照片可获取罪犯正面像及照片外区域区间的图像，只要采集现场该背景相关区域区间有关物面精密形状数椐即可。又如，在摄像机镜头前掩盖可透光但不入射可视图像的介质也可获取图像信息，只要获取介质内部的精密结构形状。 

        结论2：所有图像信息在入射或反射区之间的时差等于距离除以光速，这样整个地球各个区域的时差就可忽略不计，因此相当大范围反射区域的各事件图像（包括各时钟图像）在时间上同步互证，即具有时间信息。也就是说，一幅图像或一张照片具有可靠的时间数据。这一点很重要，这意味在现实与网络中的签约表决等一切过程的图像具有可靠时间上的证明，使网络的安全可靠和网络的实名社会化产生突破性发展。若在射线大范围反射区域全方位安装这“非镜反射显像器”，建立反射信息网络，全球的复杂准确监视导航和巡航可算到家了，也是罪犯和战犯身边"上帝"的"圣眼"，还可着重监视搜索凶器和武器，与报警防卫系统链接，以扼制犯罪和战争。为维护隐私权，可设置显像权限和密码。新世纪让犯罪和战争走向消亡.

邹和明

2000年6月4曰

邮箱：zohemng@outlook.com

手机：18079108964

Recommended for nominations for the Nobel Prize in Literature: (Subject to the subsequent Chinese original)

          "Talking about Disasters" 

           ---- heart to heart     

        I just didn't drink much, only two taels per meal, and I was a little drunk. Self-introduction, I was born at noon on September 11, 50, coincidentally the Huang Qingren Pharmacy in the center of Nanchang, a mile away, was set on fire at the same time and turned to the ground, which was said by my father who was found home by a neighbor at the fire site. It was also the eve of the first anniversary of the celebration of the quarter-world with the barrel of a gun, and it seems that my arrival on this continent on 9/11 was a symbol of blood and fire fifty-seven years ago, and it seemed destined to be more than just my life, but only for autobiography here.

        Fortunately, before I was born, my family went from being a possible target of sanctions to being the master of sanctions, as my father was unwilling to do nothing. In those turbulent times, his father became the son of a widow and the only man in four generations. The family's real estate and land are large in the whole Zou Village, but there is no man in charge, and it is only fortunate that the middle peasants are in a hurry to become poor. Protected by her grandmother's "Song" family, my grandmother's family is a well-known family and <天工开物>the family of Song Yingxing, the author of the first encyclopedia of great scientists and thinkers in Chinese history.

        After the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, the parents dared to give birth to the eldest sister and moved to Nanchang. The civil war became more and more fierce, and only a year after the end of the civil war did my parents dare to give birth to me, and I was named Heming, for the wisdom and brightness, and "harmony" has tomorrow, which is the common view of the people who hate the civil war after many years of resistance against Japan. In fact, parents will not know that they still chose the wrong "9.11". If you don't believe me, listen to me.

     The aftermath of the war---- malnutrition, was one of the main reasons why I grew so thin. I was powerless since I was a child, and I was often bullied by some wild children, and there were "Jin Gen" of the hired farmer and the "horse cub" of the rickshaw driver's family diagonally opposite the courtyard, etc., I didn't want to go out and always played in the small courtyard, but the sisters and brothers of the Li family next door, Li Qin and Li Yan, were very good to me, and Li Qin often comforted me: "Don't be sad, let's play with you."

        At that time, my father got a job in the city government, and we lived in a small bungalow courtyard at No. 2 Banbu Street, opposite the new city hall on Zigu Road, under the high stone steps of the Great Catholic Church. The Li family is a former municipal civil servant, Li Qin is one year older than me, Li Yan is two years younger than me, and they have a brother-in-law who lives with them. Li Qin's uncle is an artist in a theater troupe, his girlfriend is an actor in the troupe, Li Qin often learns to sing, and we are together almost every day. The Li family was amiable, and his family's humane lifestyle contrasted strongly with the outside world, which deeply affected my young mind. And I especially like to watch his uncle paint, in my young heart has secretly decided that only if he has the ability to be respected will not be bullied, my love of art began at this time, and I was also enlightened by his uncle. Later, one day, when I saw Li Qin crying, I heard that her uncle was a rightist and was arrested, and since then I have not seen his uncle's girlfriend come to the door. Li Qin and her younger brother also became the targets of bullying by Jin Gen and the horse cubs, and only the children of our two families played together.

        Before I went to school, my grandmother's cousin Song lived in the house, he came to take the university entrance examination, I heard that he was very knowledgeable, his grades were top in the county, and his two college entrance examination scores reached the score line of famous universities, but none of the universities admitted him, and the adults said that it was a class problem, and the real estate and land reform movement was confiscated, and his parents suffered from the suppression of the counter-revolutionary movement. This time his recommendation was very good, and he broke with the family, and Jiangxi Institute of Technology accepted him. He often taught me to read and write, and I still remember that the first two words I knew were also the words "three" that he wrote in the teacher's column on the cover of my practice book. I often talk about my favorite book when I was <十万个为什么>younger. But his grades took a 180-degree turn in his sophomore year, and the school said he was mentally ill and dropped out. And what I remember the most is that once he sat on the edge of the bed with his legs between my chest and back, I was breathless, my struggle was ineffective, my head was almost unconscious, and for the first time I felt almost breathless. A year later, this well-mannered cousin killed the only aunt who loved him the most and most in his hometown, saying that he had killed the class enemy and eliminated the harm for the people, and finally he died in an iron cage tailor-made for him, leaving me with only <十万个为什么>that.

        In September '57, due to the 11-day difference in my birthday, the public primary school that was in short supply at that time refused to accept it, so I entered the Tuas Yuan private primary school. Many of the teachers here have historical problems, and public schools are not allowed to use them. The head teacher who taught me Chinese, Mr. Cha, had a husband who was a counter-revolutionary, and some said that he was in custody and some said that he had been suppressed and executed. Mr. Hu, who taught me arithmetic, was a former Chongqing government employee, and the one who taught us music and art was also a newly unemployed substitute teacher in the old troupe. In the classroom, rows of six-person desks nailed from two thick boards and one or two thin plates are like shaking machines, and the nails often shake their heads, and the naughty students step on them either with their front toes or cut their heels, and 90 percent of the children in the city still come to class barefoot. For the head teacher, it is indeed a lot of hard work. However, some parents said that the head teacher was "atoning for her sins", and I once heard her say when she was talking to another parent that only by teaching these children well can they forget their grief and have a sense of comfort and a reason to survive. The head teacher in his thirties had gray hair, and I was always puzzled.

        In 1958, Li Qin's grandparents, who were pharmacists, introduced my mother to work in a pharmaceutical factory and often worked night shifts, while my father was a fan of drama and often went out to watch theaters at night. Our children also often go to the soy sauce factory opposite the courtyard to see the steelmaking, there are three or four steel-making furnaces in this small half-step street, which is in response to Chairman Mao's movement "Great Leap Forward", the output of steel-making exceeds that of the United Kingdom, all walks of life participate, workers, farmers, families, women and children shoot together, smashing pots to find iron, digging three feet into the ground is extremely hot, we are like going to see fireworks.

        One day, we saw dazzling "sparks" flying from the soy sauce factory in the small courtyard, followed by the shouts of "Burn people to death!", and Xiaobanbu Street began to hear more and more shouts and running sounds. My sister hurriedly dragged me and the Li family out of the courtyard door, and sat on the stone steps outside the church, my sister ran back to the small courtyard, the Li family sisters and brothers were scared and cried, our heads shrunk together, and I stretched out my arms to protect them for the first time. My sister brought my grandmother and ran back to the courtyard again, and within a few minutes, the twelve-year-old sister twice moved a suitcase that was about the same weight as her sister. The fire was extinguished for more than an hour, and later I heard that the fire was caused by the "steelworker" who had not closed his eyes for several days, fell asleep by the haystack of the soy sauce factory and was finally burned to charcoal, and the body could not be found from the steelmaking charcoal and the waste heap.

        The Great Steelmaking Movement ended because most of the scrap steel was produced, and the high ground of the abandoned Catholic church behind the wall of my house became a scrap steel warehouse. One day, I heard the shouting of my grandfather, and hurriedly said to my mother, "My new clothes are here", but my sister actually gave me a small flower dress and dyed blue. My sister and I ran out of the door together, and when I turned around, I saw my mother stepping out of the door, there was a loud noise, and the old wall of the Catholic church collapsed in the room, and a large pile of soil and scrap steel filled every corner of my house. I immediately ran to the Li family next door, and the Li family was also crushed, I shouted the names of their brothers and sisters, and my mother came to tell me that the Li family had gone out, and I was relieved. It wasn't until I learned physics in junior high school that I realized that it was the "resonance" caused by my sister and I running together, which eliminated the hidden danger that would sooner or later endanger the two families.

          Although the "People's Commune," "Social Education," and "Preparing for War to Liberate Taiwan" campaigns in China have been held one after another in the past few years, the social costs paid by them are all less than the costs paid in the struggle with the Soviet Union, which helped to lay down the fourth quarter of the world, and the entire Chinese people are tightening their belts to pay off their debts. The "natural disasters" that followed in the next three years were even worse, and countless people died of starvation, but at least the top brass could leave behind a "heroic image" in which 99 percent of them starved to death without bowing their noble heads, and the blockade of news and refusal of foreign aid to show that "the east wind suppresses the west wind." In my hometown, there are frequent reports of eating up the bark of trees, swallowing "Guanyin soil" to add belly swelling to death, and in some places there are incidents of meat eating the same kind that were not heard of during the war. My two uncles also picked up two large empty baskets, how could the kind mother see death without saving, bought most of the food stamps and money that were not enough, and watched her thin brother carry the heavy burden with tears, barefoot, and return to the hundred miles of mountain road to save the family, the mother did not expect that her only growing son would face hunger. During that period, my sister and I had to get up early, came to the door of the vegetable field on Dieshan Road, I took the basket, let my sister squeeze in front empty-handed, as soon as the door was opened, my sister could give full play to the speed of the top three sprints in the youth group of the city's games many times, ranking at the front of the vegetable stall, and buying back only the outer layer of broken leaves of Baolai that the people of the city bought with tickets, and the vegetable supply rolls of a few taels per household had to be invalidated. My neighbors often say that I am like a white and tender scholar who often paints at home, and the eldest sister can push a boy as tall as her a few meters away with a palm to prevent him from bullying me.

        I studied junior high school in Nanchang No. 19 Middle School, and my sister studied secondary school in Nanchang Normal Physical Education Teacher's Class, on the same campus. In junior high school, I preferred mathematics, physics and chemistry, and my English performance in memorizing words and memorizing texts was not satisfactory. There was only one exception, when I was given 90 points for my essay after studying the article "The Style of the Pine Tree", and I commented on it among the teachers in the teaching and research group. From a large number of dazzling themes such as "red plum", "green pine", "sunflower" and "sunshine", the teachers competed to see the only inconspicuous "pebble" that is written about and is ubiquitous in every corner of the world, saw it scattered at the ends of the earth and let the wind and waves blow, saw it trampled on by others in the middle of the road, and saw it united in the thick walls of high-rise buildings. "Xiaoshi" has become my pen name for painting, when I was young, I dreamed of becoming a disciple of the great painter Qi Baishi, from elementary school to junior high school, from painting Lei Feng to painting Mao Zedong, class magazines and even school magazines are often edited by me.

        In the second year of junior high school, I won the title of "Outstanding Student of the City", joined the Communist Youth League in advance at the age of 14, and attended the commendation meeting held by the Youth League Municipal Committee and the Municipal Education Commission in the Bayi Auditorium. After the awards, I walked out of the auditorium and came to the compound, and I saw Li Qin under a small tree, and she was also holding the award certificate in her hand. We talked together for about twenty minutes, but I can't remember what we talked about, what we asked each other, because she kept her head down, so that I dared to look at her carefully. I found that she was more beautiful, and although she had been the prettiest girl in my eyes and that of my neighbors, I was even more impressed by her kindness, gentleness, elegance, and intelligence. For the first time, I felt like a fire was burning from my mouth to the bottom of my heart, and my whole body was boiling. It may also be that they are young, hot and cold quickly, and often cannot be together, and because they are busy studying, this enthusiasm has come and gone for more than a year, and the whole country has also changed from the "social education" movement to the "Cultural Revolution" movement.

        The so-called cultural revolution in '66 began when I graduated from junior high school, and the high school where I was recommended and selected could not go, and everyone stayed in school to make a revolution. As one of the few members of the Communist Youth League in every class, for the sake of communism, in response to Chairman Mao's call, for the liberation of all mankind, and for the liberation of the Western people from the dire misery, most of these underage students became political activists and revolutionaries overnight. I was no exception, and I used the pocket money I had saved up for a year to buy a hardcover bound volume of Mao Zedong's anthology to study. I participated in the Red Guards (royalists) organized by the provincial party committee, and the "four olds" were burned to destroy books, smash historical monuments, and replace old cards, so as to put the carpet of families with bad class composition to the bottom. I didn't move much since I was a kid, and I just followed behind.

       In the second half of the year, together with my sister, I joined the delegation to Beijing selected by the school and participated in the August 18 Tiananmen Chairman Mao's parade of one million Red Guards. Due to the large number of people in Beijing, I ate the "Dog Ignore Hard Flatbread" airlifted from Tianjin, and a few days later I had a sudden stomach problem, and my sister sent me to the hospital, starting my history of stomach disease, but fortunately I did not contract meningitis that is epidemic in many parts of the country. After returning to Nanchang through a "great connection" with the "radical" students of Tsinghua University in Beijing, I became a "radical" of the Red Guards, and was in charge of propaganda and broadcasting on campus. After I saw an unclaimed corpse by the "radicals" by the left door of the auditorium stage, and after I heard the deafening gunshots often ringing out on campus, I gradually came to my senses, and I quit the activities of the "radicals" and became a "dissipator." I took my sister's books to teach myself high school mathematics, and bought a set of three Soviet high school textbooks "Elementary Physics" to study at home.

        One day in '67, I came to the provincial library to look for reference books. In one of the least populous and quietest corners of the building, I saw a girl looking down at a book, and when I looked closely, it was Li Qin. I sat down next to her and started talking in a whisper, it turned out that she had been here a lot for months, preparing to go to the conservatory in the future. We agreed to come to the library together on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday mornings, and the rest of the time we studied at home, and I helped her with math and physics, and she helped me with Chinese and English, and she was one year older than me.

        During this period, I was deeply attracted by her beauty, and I began to study the relationship between her appearance, expression, personality and intelligence. I thought to myself, I must not lose this rare research opportunity given to me by God, and I often look through these kinds of books in the library. When I was younger, I admired Leonardo da Vinci the most, admired his brilliant achievements in painting and invention, and was most interested in Darwin's writings in his later years<人与动物的表情>. Inspired by Darwin's book: If a person or an animal is in a certain emotional and mental state for a long time, and the facial muscles are partially developed or atrophied and show a static expression, I think that from this static expression (appearance) of a person, we can also see what kind of mental state he has been living in for a long time, and what kind of personality tendency he will develop. It will also affect their words and deeds, posture and figure, eye intelligence, and even handwriting and fonts. However, this kind of analysis needs to be multifaceted and based on scientific or inductive methods, rather than the unfounded nonsense of fortune tellers, which is very learned. 

        During this period, I was deeply attracted by her beauty, and I began to study the relationship between her appearance, expression, personality and intelligence. I thought to myself, I must not lose this rare research opportunity given to me by God, and I often look through these kinds of books in the library. When I was young, I admired Leonardo da Vinci the most, admired his brilliant achievements in painting and invention, and was most interested in Darwin's later work "The Expression of Man and Animal". Inspired by Darwin's book: If a person or an animal is in a certain emotional and mental state for a long time, and the facial muscles are partially developed or atrophied and show a static expression, I think that from this static expression (appearance) of a person, we can also see what kind of mental state he has been living in for a long time, and what kind of personality tendency he will develop. It will also affect their words and deeds, posture and figure, eye intelligence, and even handwriting and fonts. However, this kind of analysis needs to be multifaceted and based on scientific or inductive methods, rather than the unfounded nonsense of fortune tellers, which is very learned. 

        During this period, I was deeply attracted by her beauty, and I began to study the relationship between her appearance, expression, personality and intelligence. I thought to myself, I must not lose this rare research opportunity given to me by God, and I often look through these kinds of books in the library. When I was young, I admired Leonardo da Vinci the most, admired his brilliant achievements in painting and invention, and was most interested in Darwin's later work "The Expression of Man and Animal". Inspired by Darwin's book: If a person or an animal is in a certain emotional and mental state for a long time, and the facial muscles are partially developed or atrophied and show a static expression, I think that from this static expression (appearance) of a person, we can also see what kind of mental state he has been living in for a long time, and what kind of personality tendency he will develop. It will also affect their words and deeds, posture and figure, eye intelligence, and even handwriting and fonts. However, this kind of analysis needs to be multifaceted and based on scientific or inductive methods, rather than the unfounded nonsense of fortune tellers, which is very learned. From this, I have comprehensively sorted out the "Inductive Self-Positioning, Selection and Correction Table": (Refer to the original in Chinese)

       For months, whether it was windy or rainy, Li Qin and I never stopped coming to the library, and we came and went on foot. Once we were late to take the bus home together, at the entrance of the road the car suddenly braked, my head was close to Li Qin's head, smelling the fragrance of her hair, I couldn't help it, along with the inertia of the brake on her face lightly kissed, this is the first kiss I have always wanted but dare not dare. Then she said to her hypocritically in a somewhat trembling voice: "Well, that man is so bold, he overtakes the car", she bowed her head and said nothing, her face was red to the base of her ears, and she felt as if she was leaning against my body as if she wanted to move away, but she did not move away. After getting off the bus, I said to her, "It's been a hot few days, can we go to Mingde Road Park at night to cool off?" It's close to your house, and I sometimes go there to sketch," she hesitated for a moment and agreed.

        I was so excited that I spent two or three hours in the afternoon silently writing Li Qin's face, expressions, and postures in preparation for sketching her in the evening. In the evening, I found a place in the park with less people and less light in a quarter of an hour early and returned to the agreed location. She came on time, and in order to avoid meeting acquaintances, after she saw me, I walked and gestured to the place I had chosen, and we sat down on a stone bench. I offered to give her a sketch and asked her to sing a song first, and I knew she was confident in that and agreed. In order not to alarm the people around her, she sang a song in a low voice, and I took advantage of the interest of the beautiful singing voice to start the outline of the painting, and after about half an hour, I showed her the painting, and her satisfied smile was my greatest comfort. Since then, I have painted her three times in the library, and I have also used her name to form butterflies and lotus flowers, painted them on white silk with perfume tones, made bookmarks, and given her the poetic name of "butterfly lotus painting". In order not to let her family condense, she only used the pen name "Xiaoshi". It's easy to meet acquaintances in the park and don't go again, but I'm happy to see you in the library. However, on November 15 of that year, the library was announced to be closed indefinitely. After discussion, we decided to change to the stone rockery on the "small island" on the other side of the Jiuqu Bridge in Bayi Park, where she could sing loudly and I could paint watercolors and gouache. Every time I sit on the highest part of this rockery, which is only a few meters large, tourists will not come up when they see it, she sits among the stones, and will not be recognized by acquaintances.

        One day, at the time of the breakup, I told her that there was a letter from me in the record book. I wrote: "For several years, whenever I think of you, I have almost forgotten everything else in this world, you have filled my whole mind, you have covered my whole vision, your voice has kept reverberating in my ears, resounding in my whole ear, the sea, whether it is calm or agitated, the wilderness, whether it is desolate or prosperous, the sky, whether it is dark and clear, Li Qin, you have to let me know, let me be sober, I also love this world." "This is my true feeling of deep love and ambition in the garden of Xiaoshi Mountain. The time I spent with Li Qin was undoubtedly the most unforgettable of my life.

        Soon a few months passed, one day, I waited on the rockery until half past twelve at noon and did not see Li Qin, I judged that something must have happened to her or the family, as soon as it was dark, I came to a big tree in the corner of the alley in front of her house, waited for more than ten minutes, saw her slowly walked out, as if she knew that I would come, looked left and right, saw me walk out from behind the tree, she walked slowly, and when I saw her red and swollen eyes too late to ask, I heard her suppressed and heavy sobs accompanied by the sound of:" Unexpectedly, my beloved father Jing was a historical counter-revolutionary and was arrested... Let's not see each other again in the future", hearing the latter sentence, seeing her so sad, I hugged her and said firmly in her ear, "No matter what the future holds, I will never be able to leave you", she sobbed on my shoulder for a while, and suddenly pushed me away and said: "I have no hope, I have become your hostile class overnight, don't associate with each other anymore." After saying that, he turned around and ran home. I stood in this tree late into the night and never saw her come out again.

        The next day, I told my parents the news, and my mother said that the pharmaceutical company had put up a big-character poster of Li Qin's grandfather in the past few days, and that tomorrow there would be a criticism meeting to bring down this bourgeois technical authority. The next day, my mother got off work and brought the news that Li Qin's grandparents committed suicide by taking sleeping pills at home at the same time last night. I immediately rushed to Li's house, only to see that the door had been sealed, and I inquired with the neighbors to find out that her sister and brother and her mother were escorted by the rebels yesterday morning to the old area of a mountain village in southern Gannan, and the specific county was not clear. I felt that my head was ringing at Weng, my eyes were wet, and I hurriedly walked out of the courtyard gate and involuntarily came to Minde Road Park. Sitting down on the stone bench where we had sit, bowing my head, feeling the pain of losing her, the pain of wanting to see her but not being able to see her, the pain of wanting to say but not being able to say to her. What will she be like at this time? What will be the moment she leaves Nanchang? What will happen when she knows what will happen to her grandparents after they die? Maybe they don't know that their grandparents died. Oh my God, why so soon one disaster after another befell an angelic good and weak girl. In this era of turmoil and catastrophe, such a beautiful, lovely, and controlled girl went to an ignorant and backward mountain village and wild area, and there was a lot of bad luck! After that, I couldn't get any news from Li Qin's family when I inquired everywhere.

        One day I was walking on Bayi Bridge, and while thinking about Li Qin, I improvised a tune, and this spiritual melody prompted me to rush home and write it down with a simple score, go for a walk and run back. Then I studied the stave by myself for more than ten days, changed to the stave and filled in the words: Li Qin, don't torture me, I am anxious and sad in my heart, Li Qin, if I don't see you, how can I live day and night, ah, big black eyes, curved and soft figure, beautiful and gentle voice, ....... However, in the Cultural Revolution, there can only be class feelings, love is the word of the bourgeoisie, the proletariat only has the comradeship of a revolutionary partner, love and infinite affection can only be given to the great leader and the party, and even the clothes are only popular army green.

       In 1968, the "four directions" allocation began, and all graduates of junior high and high schools across the country had to leave their guardians and be assigned to factories, rural areas, and labor education corps. Nearly half of the minors left their parents to become workers and farmers. I was fortunate enough to be assigned to work as a steel making preparation worker in a large factory in Qingyunpu, Nanchang. I didn't work for a few days, but on the recommendation of my dormitory supervisor, I was seconded to the propaganda room of the factory's political department as a graphic designer. I spent all day writing Chairman Mao's quotes, large slogans, and painting Chairman Mao's portrait, which was a "red ocean" style propaganda work. The larger walls of the factory almost all have my handwriting left, and the pavilion at the entrance is a huge portrait of Chairman Mao. As someone who is almost eighteen years old, people think I am only fifteen years old and call me a "little painter".  

I have a habit of drawing portraits of Chairman Mao with a slightly red face because the representatives of the factory army ordered him to have a bright red face. Even if I painted all of him like a drunken person, I could still receive their praise, but I couldn't be different from Chairman Mao. This would be a political issue that would kill me. The brutality and madness of the Gang of Four were unmatched by Qin Shi Huang and Hitler, and it was truly unprecedented.

         This period is a good opportunity for me to start learning oil painting and sculpture for free. In order to paint a huge outdoor red flag and keep Chairman Mao's face unchanged, a bottle of Foshan Yinzhu costs more than 24 yuan, equivalent to my salary for one and a half months. A bottle costs only a dozen pens, and a huge cost can be imagined. Political propaganda is at no cost, not to mention money, even if it costs many lives. In order to fight the big brother of the Soviet Union, tens of millions of people died in the early 1960 s, not to mention the unprecedented Cultural Revolution. Four or five people helped hundreds of millions of people to call every day not to be afraid of sacrifice and defend the great leader to the death. In this non-war era, compatriots all over the country are killing each other, and gunshots are heard everywhere. It is even more out of print and unprecedented. I also set up a sculpture hall commemorating the class struggle in the "Rent-collecting House" in the factory, and I painted all the scenes and posters of three or four model dramas performed by various military companies in the factory. I also "invented" the method of using soap to adjust advertising color and painting economical and durable scenery on sacks with industrial talcum powder and cow glue as the bottom.

More than a year passed like this, during which I never stopped inquiring about Li Qin's news. In my dreams, I waited for her letters, for my familiar handwriting, words, and even mournful singing.

         My sister was working as a broadcaster at the Shengli District Broadcasting and Propaganda Station. Her unit received a task to paint six giant promotional murals at the entrance of the "Third Generation Conference" (now Hongdu Hotel). I asked for a painting for the factory. At that time, my factory was planning to have two people go to paint, but that person didn't dare to go. I only had one person to go. In order to save time, I go to paint every day at dawn. The next morning, I found a monk standing behind me watching. Suddenly, I remembered Li Qin saying that his uncle had entered Buddhism a few years ago. I turned around and saw that it was indeed him, but my art enlightenment teacher had aged a lot. I quickly asked Li Qin and his family where they were. He placed his hands on his chest, closed his eyes slightly, and said two words in a row, "It's good not to mention it," before turning around and heading towards the direction of Bayi Bridge. I quickly packed up my things and caught up with him. After repeated questioning, he only briefly said:

"Sister is crazy, my nephew is taking care of her"

"Where's your niece?" I asked, and he remained silent and lost in thought,

"You say it",

"The revolutionary rebel township head who was in power raped, jumped into the river, couldn't find it, ascended to heaven, and was liberated from the grass behind the small hills by the river."

My mind was blank, and I asked weakly in a trembling voice, "So, so, have you caught the township head?"

Is murder and rape still rare among today's Cultural Revolution rebels? What if we dig our hearts and lungs? Are counter revolutionaries and their families human now? Who would dare to speak for the daughter of counter revolutionaries“

My head was struck by lightning, and I stared blankly as he walked. Suddenly, I ran over and squeezed his right arm with both hands, asking:

"When did you die?"

"Four days before the Dragon Boat Festival, June 4th"

"Where are they placed?"

"I don't know, don't disturb them."

I shook off his hand forcefully, and he continued walking forward without looking back. I lay down on the grass near the bridge, accompanied by a small tree. The tree bent, but I didn't know if it would break. I didn't seem to have any strength. My head was ringing on the ground again, tears made it difficult for me to see whether the sky was white or black, and my ears could only hear the frequent collision of my upper and lower teeth. I clenched my fists and pounded hard on the ground, then pinched them in front of my ears. For a long time, tears couldn't flow out, and there were waves of pain in my hands. I hate myself, why didn't I find Li Qin at that time? Why not take the initiative to request the delegation of Gannan? I hate her, why cut off contact with me cruelly, why! Why leave me here alone! She's over there! Can she still come back? Why do people have such pain?!

         I don't know how long it took, but I walked to the Bayi Bridge. In the distance of the upper reaches of the Gan River, swallowing my beloved, I looked up at the brightest star in that direction, casting its glow into the surging river water. Gradually, the faint and faint flicker followed, and looking down at the deep vortex beneath my feet, I seemed to want to follow the stars and escape the pain of this reality.   My head then fell on my chest, is it only the right of the rough and mediocre to survive? The knowledgeable Song Biao Ge went crazy and died; Teacher Gao also died after being sent down; The homeroom teacher, who was single at the age of thirty, also had white eyebrows; Li Qin's mother went crazy, and Li Qin's handsome uncle became a monk; Li Qin's grandparents passed away overnight; Now that Li Qin has also gone, the only thing that Li Yan can't help but be crazy about is not returning. I don't understand, but I must understand! I seemed to hear their cries, as if they were not one, ten or millions of voices. I realized my responsibility in the future, regained some consciousness, felt the shaking of my hands and the growling of my stomach. I dried my hands and blood stains on my face, went to the small shop near the bridge, and bought some food and a bottle of Baijiu.

            There is no one at home, my mom works the night shift, and my dad may have gone to the theater again. After my sister gets married, I have a separate room. I closed the door and drank alone. This was my first time to drink Baijiu, which opened my drinking history I also understood the anesthetic effect of alcohol and had only tasted glutinous rice sweet wine made by my mother before. After drinking the first glass, my face started to heat up, and I woke up the next morning after drinking half a bottle. After packing up, I left the house before my mother came back and ran across the entire Changbei area across the Bayi Bridge. The next day, there was no news of Uncle Li Qin from the Xishan Temple, which was several tens of miles away. For three days, I waited for him at the bridgehead every morning for two or three hours, and I began to wonder if he was in Nanchang.

On the fourth day, I received a letter at home. The envelope was signed by Li Qin's uncle. When I opened it, I found Li Qin's diary:

       February 2nd... I can't believe that my younger brother and I, who have been taught since childhood to love our country and people, are kind and honest, always willing to help and respect everyone, are enemies of the people. Competition will be the enemy of the people... My father's arrest the day before yesterday will mean the complete shattering of my ideals. My uncle's classification as a right-wing member has dealt a huge blow to the whole family, and now... Although breaking ties with He Ming the day before yesterday was not my intention, it is an inevitable outcome. Interacting with the daughter of an anti revolutionary will inevitably destroy his future. I understand that he will not care about these things, but I cannot help but worry about him. He will make a difference, and his success will make my heart ache. Comfort, but it will be a lifelong regret to be destroyed by me... Heming, I haven't closed my eyes for two days, and I don't know how many tears I have shed. I will never forget your love for me in my lifetime. But we don't have fate, it's my fate... Today we were taken to a foreign land, maybe we will spend our whole lives here I am well aware that my mother has been worried about her father, grandfather, and grandmother, but she still has to constantly comfort me and my brother. The pressure inside her is unimaginable. Tears keep me from watching.

       There have been reports of murders and heart gouging incidents of cannibalism in various parts of the country. However, this time it is not the same as a few years ago when people were starving, but rather a true manifestation of class hatred, which is usually just talk about it and "I wish I could bite you". The remains of class enemies are abandoned in the wilderness, and relatives dare not claim them. I heard that a young girl in Jiangxi was executed by firing squad after being labeled as an active counter revolutionary for harboring the words "Ningning Cultural Revolution" in her love letter to a soldier. An old neighbor dug out the vagina of the abandoned girl and collected it at home. Class enemies can only be eaten by insects and mice for their meat, and only by wild dogs for their bones can they satisfy their hatred and offer loyalty. The instigated Red Guard rebels used a hate race against the "enemy" to demonstrate "clear love and hate, firm stance.". If young people don't believe it, just ask every honest and outspoken person around you, and you will believe what happened twenty years after the post-war "peaceful environment".

On June 4th of the following year, I lit candles on the windowsill. Until now, on this day every year, I can only use this method to mourn the spirit of Li Qin.

            I have come to see more and more clearly the crazy evil of four or five people fighting for power and profit. I spent nearly a year's salary of over 100 yuan to buy the best "Red Flag" three band semiconductor radio in the domestic market at that time. Listening to shortwave until late at night every day, listening to domestic and foreign current events and political discussions, makes my eyes brighter and brighter. Friend, do you know? Listening to external channels during the era of the Gang of Four or Five was a counter revolutionary activity, and even if caught without being shot, one would be killed or even executed. I have no fear at all. I also put red quotes on the plastic surface of my study notebook bag that I carry with me. Whenever I say "long live" to Chairman Mao before and after class, during meals, or during meetings, only I hold high the quotes of science and knowledge. During my secondment to the Propaganda Department of the Political Department as a graphic designer, sometimes the Political Department thought I was in the company, and the company thought I was in the Political Department, which allowed me to avoid all political and loyalty giving activities that had to be participated in. I may have been the only one in the entire factory who did not participate in the "voter voting" activity, where I played gongs and drums to call the names and queue up. This habit has made me, who is nearly sixty years old, never participate in the "voter voting" to this day. Later, the 6011 unit led by the Secretary of the Provincial Party Committee, Cheng Shiqing, came three times to recruit me and a colleague who played accordion to become literary and artistic soldiers. There would be an opportunity to enjoy the treatment of an officer, and the factory army representative would only let one person go without me. In fact, I was not willing to go either. This period was the lowest point of my                  youth emotions, and I hardly ever drew a painting that I felt satisfied with myself, even though my ears were filled with praise.

           On a day in early September 1996, which was also a memorable one for me, my close colleague Gong Dongjian (now teaching in the United States) was recruited by the General Administration Military Band to work as a baritone singer. He returned to Chang for the first time, and I invited him to eat crabs at home at noon. Amidst the drunkenness, we heard the sound of mournful music on the radio outside. It wasn't until we walked to the balcony that we could hear that Chairman Mao had passed away. The two of us finished a large bowl of crabs, and we had a premonition that, in fact, it was the end of the era of crab rampage in the Gang of Four, and it was also the expectation of the people of the whole country at that time.

        After the fall of the Gang of Four and Five, my mood also improved, and I participated in many technical research and technological innovation activities, such as the processing of new product parts without special machine tools and tools, and the design and production of missing parts of machine tools imported from East Germany; After the invention of the "spiral flying knife tooth method", without special machine tools and special tools, you can process a variety of standard non-standard and foreign standard gear tooth shape of the Chinese patent, at that time China Mechanical and Electrical News and local newspapers, also reported this spiral flying knife tooth development method and my dozens of technological innovations, but also made me evaluate the only technician in the four types of rolling and plugging sylum milling in the whole factory. However, I am always worried that if reform and opening up only carries out economic structural reform, it is like prolonging the painful life of terminally ill patients without curing the root cause, and the virus will also gain rich nutrients, making their life worse than death.

        During the Dragon Boat Festival on the 10th anniversary of Li Qin, I wrote an elegy after drinking and posted it on both sides of my home:

                The ancient Taoist government is harsh and fierce, and the current Yanfu is defeated and takes drugs.

        A neighbor student asked me at my door: "Uncle Zou, there is a meat word missing under the corrupt word rot", and I replied: "The meat is rotten, only the body is left".

        After the reform and opening up, in order to establish a relationship with a sand and gravel company in a model town-run enterprise, and to design a gatehouse and a popular iron fence fence for it, I spent more than half a month to understand the difference between architectural drawing and mechanical drawing, and used my art expertise to design and guide the construction. This makes the surrounding large units also envy the façade building, and soon obtained two sand and gravel companies hundreds of miles apart to sign a contract with us to make sand and gravel electromechanical conveyor lines, sand screening machines and riverside wide overhang 100 meters long cool gate corridor business. I was responsible for both the design and manufacturing of both. In the year when the "10,000 households" appeared, I made a net profit of more than 30,000 yuan for these two businesses, excluding the additional contract payment to the branch, and the second phase of the automatic sand and gravel conveyor line in the middle of the river and the shore that I designed for one of them was even more profitable. With the funds, I can start working for a non-technical real ideal, and when I was reported by the Nanchang Evening News and other publications, I announced my decision to start the Jiangxi Song Yingxing Research Association.

        Towards the end of the project, I also took over the business of repairing sand dredging ships and other businesses of this famous company, and arranged for the niece of the wife of the manager of this famous company to learn electric welding, she is only 19 years old on the pseudonym, surnamed Wang. But two days later, someone from the construction site said that Xiao Wang was sent to the town hospital by an electric fan, and I hurried to the hospital. The doctor was stitching her, and the bone was almost visible from the wound on the back of her hand. I had more than ten stitches without anesthetic, but she didn't hum, she lowered her head and gritted her teeth, she was very strong, this was the first impression that the girl gave me.

        When I came to visit her the next day, I found that her eyes were very big like Li Qin's, which made me immersed in the memories of being with Li Qin. Her mother came home that day, and I had to take care of her more during the hospitalization, and gradually I was ashamed to have a good impression in her heart, she often said, "You are so good", and I gradually had the feeling of being by Li Qin's side. Even though I'm thirty-six years old, most people think I'm not much older than the young people on the construction team. It is not difficult to see this from the wedding photos of me and Xiao Wang, and it is not difficult to find this genetic trait from the current appearance of my daughter. My daughter will graduate from the music department next year, and it can be seen that she looks like a junior high school student, with white skin and a baby face.

       Li Qin has been dead for 16 years, and I have been chasing her since I was 36 years old and unmarried, and now I have found her again, which seems lucky. My parents have been retired for many years, and my mother is sick, so it is time for me to get married and do my filial piety. After my relationship with Xiao Wang became closer, I showed a willingness to further develop our relationship and take her home to meet her parents. Her parents agreed, at her insistence. So in '86, I took her back to Nanchang to prepare for the marriage, and the marriage was registered on March 14, and the wedding was held on May 1. One thing that saddens me is that the portrait I painted for Li Qin more than ten years ago and Li Qin's diary were burned by Xiao Wang, leaving only a half-formed jade statue of Li Qin.

      To anyone's surprise, the competition would talk about divorce on the night of the wedding, and because I had been busy all day, I lay in bed at night and closed my eyes and pondered, and Xiao Wang thought I was asleep and put a hand around my head. When there was water dripping on my face, I saw that she was crying, and asked her "what's wrong", and after asking for a long time, she said, "You are good at everything, if you can be a little younger". I understand that any "if" is easy to do, but this "if" cannot be done. I also understood that despite her determination in front of her parents, it was hidden in her heart, because it happened after she thought I was asleep. I sincerely told her that if in the future we were not compatible in appearance, and if she found a more suitable one, we would divorce.

        On October 10 of the lunar calendar, at 1 o'clock on November 11 of the Gregorian calendar, my daughter was born, and there is also a "qin" at the end of the name.

        When Xiao Wang's mother knew about the "cave room departure", perhaps it was the appearance of Xiao Wang's "Li Qin's beauty", every time she went to the dance hall with her mother, a boy would chase her to the door. Soon we got a divorce by mutual agreement at the street office. My daughter is unilaterally supported and guardianed by me, she can come to see the child at any time, and she eats at my house until she remarries. I also said that she could come to me at any time if she had trouble speaking, and I also added some supplies to her afterwards. Since her hukou had been transferred to Nanchang, I asked my colleague to help her get a work index. But there was no job to work, so I first paid Xiao Wang's one-year salary to the contractor of the sales department of the factory, and she could start working. I know that as long as she goes to the service industry to apply for a job, she will compete for it based on her appearance, but the service industry is too messy, and if something goes wrong, at least I'm sorry for my daughter. In this way, more than a year of marriage, including pregnancy and nursing, ended.

        In the following years, I organized, improved and completed several patented inventions, and the sense of accomplishment made me find new spiritual sustenance, and I also became addicted. Before I participated in the national institutional invention paper presentation, Xiao Wang's factory asked me to help contact the patent cooperation of Fan's quick clamp vise, which won the international award, which was reported by major media at that time. After I saw the structure of the Van vice at the meeting, I found that adding multiple small components with high precision and poor strength to the rough tools that are often beaten increased cost and reduced life was its fatal weakness, which was later proved by loss and obsolescence. Therefore, I didn't talk about it, when Xiao Wang factory asked about it, I designed a high-efficiency quick clamping vice in three days, reducing the traditional vice of 20 or so parts to six or seven parts, the full stroke quick clamping workpiece and steering locking are completed at one time, and can be manufactured without cutting, beautiful and durable and good precision cast steel galvanized or chrome-plated (the international market has not yet been available) vice, the cost is lower than the current cast iron painted vice.

        After obtaining the Chinese patent, the Labor Bureau took a fancy to me and transferred me out of the factory to build a school-run factory in Nanchang Technical School to prepare for production. Soon after, the Chinese Patent Office organized a delegation to participate in the Singapore Invention Exhibition, and I and a deputy director-general of the Labor Bureau participated, and the two of them paid more than 40,000 yuan, but the director (who had already been sentenced) asked me to receive 90,000 yuan in exchange for US dollars, so I did not show up until before departure. Anyway, I didn't go alone, and I wasn't afraid that I would go to the soup. Before lunch on the second day of the exhibition, a businessman paid 50,000 US dollars to buy my patent for a quick clamp pipe wrench, I decided on the spot that I was going abroad at public expense, and I did not find the businessman at lunch five minutes later. Afterwards, some people complained about me, and I should give some to another person on the spot, and I can make my own decisions about personal patents, but I don't have the consciousness of bribing at all. After winning the gold medal for the high-efficiency quick clamping vice, the school asked me to change several individual patents that have won awards at home and abroad to the school, although I agreed to give the school free of charge to develop and produce and asked not to change, but finally signed the change document against my wishes, but the Chinese Patent Office did not accept it, and the school was very dissatisfied. At this time, Mr. Fan of a research institute in Northeast China, the inventor of Fan's vice, wrote a seven- or eight-page letter to the leaders of our school, using specific examples of his own losses to persuade the school not to put into production, and was rushing to add fuel to the fire. I decided to start my own studio at home after working for three months without getting paid, and I haven't been to work since.

         A month later, a small Singaporean businessman made a special trip to Nanchang to discuss the joint development of patents, and I brought it to the bureau. At this time, because the provincial TV station broadcast several of my inventions, the magistrate of Zou County, whose ancestral hometown was Fengxin, made a special trip to Nanchang to discuss cooperation with me. First, the Sino-Singapore joint venture "Jiangxi Xinhua Science and Technology Development Co., Ltd." was established for patent development, and then signed a contract with Singapore-Malaysian businessmen in Shenzhen to invest in the production of high-efficiency fast clamping vices, but unexpectedly, the Fengxin China Merchants Competition Association unilaterally changed two places in the contract that had reached the agreement, in which the chairman and deputy general manager appointed by the two sides were replaced. Therefore, Xinhua Technology Company also ended the cooperation a year later because the Singapore side refused to receive funds.

 ......

       It's getting dark, and it's time for me to drink two taels again.

        Drinking can not only relieve sorrows, but also reminisce while drinking, and feel like a fairy, at this time it is really burning your buttocks, and you will look back and continue to write without hurry.

        Looking back on the changes in my thinking after Li Qin's death, I sorted out the "multi-level rounding theory" that I first put forward in my letter to Jian Rou more than 20 years ago. I knew that it would be difficult to express these ideas at the time, so I thought of publishing them in the same way as a patent application procedure. In this way, the world's first "patent" application involving social sciences that seeks only social benefits and not individual economic benefits was <电脑民主高速公路系统>published in the mid-nineties. Then one after another, I understood that the review of these journals in the field of natural sciences did not have "sensitive nerves", and that the aspect was much more relaxed, and the National Intellectual Property Publishing House, the People's Pictorial Press, and the People's Daily Publishing House published the computer democracy highway system I proposed one after another. 

        As I was writing this, my eight-year-old daughter's first patent, the invention of the multi-purpose paper clip. One day, when I was writing, I asked my daughter to bring me a pin, and she didn't find it, so she straightened the paper clip in half and cut it to me. It inspired her to think more and repeatedly improve it to make it more functional, so that a multi-purpose paper clip with the functions of paper clip, pin, stretch needle, pin and thumbtack applied for a Chinese patent. Because it resembles the handwritten characters "6" and "4", it was named "6.4 needle". I guess it touched a certain "sensitive nerve" in the intellectual circles at that time, and the TV station reported on my daughter's invention one after another, and sometimes it was cynical and funny for decades. Immediately afterwards, he won the first prize of provincial and municipal youth innovation and invention, made an exception to be absent from the exhibition and won the silver medal of the 96 Beijing International Invention Exhibition and the silver medal of the National Youth Innovation Competition, Wang Danping and Chen Xiangmei and other bonuses, and CCTV "Star of Hope" and the national "21st Century Star" and other titles, and her daughter was rated as an academician by the Chinese Juvenile Academy of Sciences in 2001.

        Since then, many schools have invited me to give lectures on innovation and invention, and I ask teachers and parents to cultivate children's sense of innovation from an early age: when it comes to innovation and invention, many people will say that it is difficult, but in fact, it is not the case, as long as you give up part of the time to chat and play cards, and "crooked brains" move less, you can also engage in invention. It can be said that it will be easier than doing math problems, because math problems often have only one or two answers, while the answers to invention projects can be different, thousands, and each has its own merits. Math problems are given by the teacher, and there is no choice, and the invented topics are everything and things around you, and there are enough. Some math problems you may not be able to do in an hour or two, while others you can invent and innovate in a few minutes. The key is to develop the habit of always living in a sense of innovation, and dissatisfaction with reality is the driving force for you and even the progress and development of society.

        In 97, my mother has been hospitalized for more than ten years, accumulating hundreds of thousands of yuan in public expenses and self-expenses, and on June 1 of this year, the mother's original public-funded medical treatment began to be more stringent. June 4th is Li Qin's Memorial Day, I have been in a bad mood in the hospital, my mother thought I was worried about medical expenses, and said to me: "Take me home, I can't be cured, I'm leaving, the salaries of the officers in my unit are starting to become problems, don't waste it, you still have to live." I refused, and my mother stumbled that night to argue with the doctor to be discharged. A few days later, the doctor saw that her complexion had improved and allowed her to be discharged, but on the night of the fourth day of discharge, that is, the night Jiangxi TV reported the news of my daughter's award, my mother passed away. I was in great pain, my mother was deeply impressed by her hard work and kindness all her life, and she was seriously ill with bronchitis after decades of working in a pharmaceutical factory, and she was still thinking of her public colleagues at the end of her life.

       After my mother died, I was no longer busy and lonely, and the machinery industry was sluggish, so my old classmates suggested that I learn computers. I bought a computer and began to learn it seriously when I was nearly forty-eight years old. After a year of self-study, there was a problem with the computer's hard drive, and the saved data was lost. I opened the hard disk circuit board, my daughter's eyes are good, she found that there are small holes on the small tin surface of the wiring contacts, which are easy to contact poorly, and everything is normal after flattening. I feel the importance of hard drives and know that this is the hardest problem in computer repair. I bought dozens of bad hard disks from different manufacturers from the market, and after a year of intermittent research, I set up a dust-free studio, and set up the first computer data recovery and hard disk repair studio in the province, ashamed to have a certain impact on the computer market, some of them sent some to my studio, although I learned to apply for a short time, but the level of repair in the eyes of the young bosses in the computer market is a rare white-haired "expert" old man in the computer industry.

      The repair method is basically the same in all countries of the country, and in order to highlight my own level, I have been researching my own methods for the most difficult hard drives for several years. For example, the data recovery of special file formats such as CNC machines that cannot be viewed under DOS, imported microcomputer printing machines, or photocopiers with hard disks. If the hard disk cannot be recognized, it will be hot-swapped and replaced after the hard disk is booted, but it should not be restarted and exited repeatedly before it has been repaired and verified. To this end, I have compiled the program "Heming Hard Disk Data Repair Tool Platform PC sos 6.4", so that the repair and inspection software can be quickly switched between each other after all rewrites, without restarting or exiting. The main difference in the functions of the repair and inspection software is that the longer the repair and inspection time, the more thorough it is. When I received the consultation call, I learned that the merchant downloaded the simplified version from my website and made a CD with the same name, which has been distributed in major cities across the country.

         A few years ago, buying a hard disk in China required an ordinary person's salary for one or two months, and my kind daughter sent an email to several major hard disk manufacturers around the world about the design problems of the hard disk body and its circuit board wiring that we found, and she received a heartfelt thank you and souvenir from the reply. The poor wiring method has more than 50 percent, and the hard disk of the laptop is as high as more than 80 percent. Quantum and IBM are almost all wiring methods, the wiring of the hard disk circuit board is composed of two rows of more than ten small tin heads, and the relative position on the disk body is composed of more than ten small contacts. If one or two screws are pressed at both ends or in the center, the temperature of the hard disk will increase significantly after use, and the circuit board is very thin, and the heating after pressing the screws will become concave or convex, resulting in some of the contacts being broken or in poor contact, and it is easy to produce electric sparks, so that the tin head will produce small holes and produce an oxide layer with poor conductivity. It's no wonder that the famous brand is discolored.Hard drive manufacturers merge and transfer.

       In 2000, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the anniversary of Li Qin's anniversary, I wrote after drinking:

Seven absolutes: grievances distort the Central Plains

The soul of the land rushed to the sky,

The raging sea turned into tears and sprinkled to the Central Plains,

The strong bones are used as hammers to break the century,

The body is crushed into the shape of a tympanic membrane, awakening the human world.

......

In 93, after the discussion and approval of the meeting of the Provincial Association for Science and Technology and the issuance of a document, I was responsible for inviting dozens of professors, experts and scholars from inside and outside the province, including Tsinghua University, to establish the Jiangxi Song Yingxing Research Association. The Civil Affairs Department and the Provincial Association for Science and Technology have different opinions, and the Civil Affairs Department asks for a large amount of funds, but the Association for Science and Technology does not think so about academic organizations and wants us to operate as soon as possible. I bought a studio with the money from the sale of patents and support from the new party, and continued to design new patent projects while forming a research group.     

      After my daughter enrolled in school, my mother's bronchitis worsened, which was related to decades of working in a pharmaceutical factory, and she began to need to be hospitalized for more than half a year at first. I also started moving between the hospital, school, and home. At the same time, I applied for patents one after another, and my neighbors said that I was thinking about problems when I walked, like I was addicted, and I often designed until one or two o'clock in the evening, and sometimes I got up after falling asleep to write, for fear that I would forget it the next day. And I began to focus on the social issues that I was really interested in, the ones that led to a series of disasters around me for decades, and eight or nine years later, I became more interested in them.

      In 90, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the anniversary of Li Qindian, I wrote after drinking:

        It's getting dark, and it's time for me to drink two taels again.

        Drinking can not only relieve sorrows, but also reminisce while drinking, and feel like a fairy, at this time it is really burning your buttocks, and you will look back and continue to write without hurry.

        Looking back on the changes in my thinking after Li Qin's death, I sorted out the "multi-level rounding theory" that I first put forward in my letter to Jian Rou more than 20 years ago. I knew that it would be difficult to express these ideas at the time, so I thought of publishing them in the same way as a patent application procedure. In this way, the world's first "patent" application involving social sciences that seeks only social benefits and not individual economic benefits was <电脑民主高速公路系统>published in the mid-nineties. Then one after another, I understood that the review of these journals in the field of natural sciences did not have "sensitive nerves", and that the aspect was much more relaxed, and the National Intellectual Property Publishing House, the People's Pictorial Press, and the People's Daily Publishing House published the computer democracy highway system I proposed one after another. 

        As I was writing this, my eight-year-old daughter's first patent, the invention of the multi-purpose paper clip. One day, when I was writing, I asked my daughter to bring me a pin, and she didn't find it, so she straightened the paper clip in half and cut it to me. It inspired her to think more and repeatedly improve it to make it more functional, so that a multi-purpose paper clip with the functions of paper clip, pin, stretch needle, pin and thumbtack applied for a Chinese patent. Because it resembles the handwritten characters "6" and "4", it was named "6.4 needle". I guess it touched a certain "sensitive nerve" in the intellectual circles at that time, and the TV station reported on my daughter's invention one after another, and sometimes it was cynical and funny for decades. Immediately afterwards, he won the first prize of provincial and municipal youth innovation and invention, made an exception to be absent from the exhibition and won the silver medal of the 96 Beijing International Invention Exhibition and the silver medal of the National Youth Innovation Competition, Wang Danping and Chen Xiangmei and other bonuses, and CCTV "Star of Hope" and the national "21st Century Star" and other titles, and her daughter was rated as an academician by the Chinese Juvenile Academy of Sciences in 2001.

        Since then, many schools have invited me to give lectures on innovation and invention, and I ask teachers and parents to cultivate children's sense of innovation from an early age: when it comes to innovation and invention, many people will say that it is difficult, but in fact, it is not the case, as long as you give up part of the time to chat and play cards, and "crooked brains" move less, you can also engage in invention. It can be said that it will be easier than doing math problems, because math problems often have only one or two answers, while the answers to invention projects can be different, thousands, and each has its own merits. Math problems are given by the teacher, and there is no choice, and the invented topics are everything and things around you, and there are enough. Some math problems you may not be able to do in an hour or two, while others you can invent and innovate in a few minutes. The key is to develop the habit of always living in a sense of innovation, and dissatisfaction with reality is the driving force for you and even the progress and development of society.

        In 97, my mother has been hospitalized for more than ten years, accumulating hundreds of thousands of yuan in public expenses and self-expenses, and on June 1 of this year, the mother's original public-funded medical treatment began to be more stringent. June 4th is Li Qin's Memorial Day, I have been in a bad mood in the hospital, my mother thought I was worried about medical expenses, and said to me: "Take me home, I can't be cured, I'm leaving, the salaries of the officers in my unit are starting to become problems, don't waste it, you still have to live." I refused, and my mother stumbled that night to argue with the doctor to be discharged. A few days later, the doctor saw that her complexion had improved and allowed her to be discharged, but on the night of the fourth day of discharge, that is, the night Jiangxi TV reported the news of my daughter's award, my mother passed away. I was in great pain, my mother was deeply impressed by her hard work and kindness all her life, and she was seriously ill with bronchitis after decades of working in a pharmaceutical factory, and she was still thinking of her public colleagues at the end of her life.

        After my mother died, I was no longer busy and lonely, and the machinery industry was sluggish, so my old classmates suggested that I learn computers. I bought a computer and began to learn it seriously when I was nearly forty-eight years old. After a year of self-study, there was a problem with the computer's hard drive, and the saved data was lost. I opened the hard disk circuit board, my daughter's eyes are good, she found that there are small holes on the small tin surface of the wiring contacts, which are easy to contact poorly, and everything is normal after flattening. I feel the importance of hard drives and know that this is the hardest problem in computer repair. I bought dozens of bad hard disks from different manufacturers from the market, and after a year of intermittent research, I set up a dust-free studio, and set up the first computer data recovery and hard disk repair studio in the province, ashamed to have a certain impact on the computer market, some of them sent some to my studio, although I learned to apply for a short time, but the level of repair in the eyes of the young bosses in the computer market is a rare white-haired "expert" old man in the computer industry.

The repair method is basically the same in all countries of the country, and in order to highlight my own level, I have been researching my own methods for the most difficult hard drives for several years. For example, the data recovery of special file formats such as CNC machines that cannot be viewed under DOS, imported microcomputer printing machines, or photocopiers with hard disks. If the hard disk cannot be recognized, it will be hot-swapped and replaced after the hard disk is booted, but it should not be restarted and exited repeatedly before it has been repaired and verified. To this end, I have compiled the program "Heming Hard Disk Data Repair Tool Platform PC sos 6.4", so that the repair and inspection software can be quickly switched between each other after all rewrites, without restarting or exiting. The main difference in the functions of the repair and inspection software is that the longer the repair and inspection time, the more thorough it is. When I received the consultation call, I learned that the merchant downloaded the simplified version from my website and made a CD with the same name, which has been distributed in major cities across the country.

         A few years ago, buying a hard disk in China required an ordinary person's salary for one or two months, and my kind daughter sent an email to several major hard disk manufacturers around the world about the design problems of the hard disk body and its circuit board wiring that we found, and she received a heartfelt thank you and souvenir from the reply. The poor wiring method has more than 50 percent, and the hard disk of the laptop is as high as more than 80 percent. Quantum and IBM are almost all wiring methods, the wiring of the hard disk circuit board is composed of two rows of more than ten small tin heads, and the relative position on the disk body is composed of more than ten small contacts. If one or two screws are pressed at both ends or in the center, the temperature of the hard disk will increase significantly after use, and the circuit board is very thin, and the heating after pressing the screws will become concave or convex, resulting in some of the contacts being broken or in poor contact, and it is easy to produce electric sparks, so that the tin head will produce small holes and produce an oxide layer with poor conductivity. It's no wonder that the famous brand is discolored.Hard drive manufacturers merge and transfer.

       In 2000, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the anniversary of Li Qin's anniversary, I wrote after drinking:

A few years ago, buying a hard drive in China required an average person's salary of one or two months. Our kind-hearted daughter sent an email to several major hard drive manufacturers around the world regarding the design issues we discovered with the hard drive body and its circuit board wiring. She received a heartfelt thank you and souvenir in response. The poor wiring method is more than 50%, and the laptop hard drive is more than 80%. Almost all Kunteng and IBM use this wiring method. The wiring of the hard drive circuit board is composed of two rows of more than ten small tin heads, and the relative position on the disk body is composed of more than ten small contacts. One or two screws are pressed on both ends or in the center, and the temperature of the hard drive increases significantly after use. The circuit board is very thin, and after pressing the screws, it deforms into concave or convex shapes due to heat, causing some contacts to break or have poor contact, which is easy to produce electric sparks, causing small holes in the tin heads and producing an oxide layer with poor conductivity. Squeezing the small holes in the tin heads and installing the polished contacts will restore everything. Normal. This is a problem that is easily overlooked in design and inspection, but in important equipment and fields, it may cause major accidents or disasters, No wonder the brand has faded. The merger and transfer of hard drive manufacturers

In 2000, during the Dragon Boat Festival on the 30th anniversary of Li Qin's sacrifice, after drinking, I wrote:

  Four evils on the mainland

Exile sitting

Beasts

Mao and so on, froze to death

Toilet is small

        I have always been keen to explore new social models, and I have also published my insights in the invention patent program, and "The Network Dominates the Social System" has attracted many requests for publication.

        At the beginning of this century, in order to mourn Hu Yaobang and others, I wrote an elegiac couplet on the Internet:

"It is rare for the Central Plains to shine on the purple sun, and the mainland is fortunate to have a husband Yaobang", horizontal criticism: "The sky of the liberated area".

        As an autobiography I have to respect the facts, if it hurts anyone, I have to do the same, at least today I will sleep soundly, well, it's three o'clock in the night, I should sleep for a few hours!

        ......。

        The morning news of the TV led me to the living room again, my daughter turned on the TV but did not see her, the TV was reporting on the young singer contest of the Central Channel, in the interview with the original singer group, I found that the teacher was very familiar, take a closer look, "Li Qin"! With the deep impression that I had studied when I was young, I was very sure to cry out. Ah, she didn't die! From the TV report, I learned that she "Li Qin" was a teacher in a mountain village of an ethnic minority in the south, and this time she brought students to Beijing to compete and sing the original ecological songs she had excavated. I was so excited that I quickly called to inquire about the plane to Beijing, and bought a plane ticket when I went to work. After lunch, I rushed to the airport, arrived in Beijing at about 3 o'clock in the afternoon, and took a taxi to CCTV quickly. After contacting the organizers of the competition in the duty room, he learned that Li Qin was at the Galaxy Hotel of the Jiangxi Office in Beijing. It was seven o'clock in the evening when I came to the Galaxy Hotel, and I didn't care about having dinner and waited for this "Li Qin" to appear at the service desk in the hotel lobby. Three minutes later, she came to me, stared at me blankly, after I said "I am Zou Heming", her tears welled up, I can't describe the mood at this time, and I can't take care of so many people around me, I stepped forward and hugged her tightly, this is the third hug since the fire on Banbu Street fifty years ago and the night of the breakup forty years ago, we both sobbed for several minutes.

"I didn't expect you to be alive," I said, slapping her face with both hands, and said with great emotion.

"I didn't expect to see you again," she said, wiping away tears.

I helped her sit down on the couch next to her,

"It's been forty years, why don't you come to see me?

"After I was rescued by the fisherman Uncle Li and my aunt, I just want to spend the rest of my life in that mountain village, and I am satisfied to see and understand you on TV and in newspapers and magazines. "The hand that grabbed me tightened and tightened.

"Is your family okay?" I asked.

"My father died of illness after being imprisoned for more than a year, and my grandparents also died during the Cultural Revolution, and after the fall of the Gang of Four, I took my mother and younger brother to Uncle Li's mountain village, where my younger brother became a family, my mother died of illness the year before last, and my uncle was in the ancient temple of his hometown in northwest Jiangxi. ”

"What about you, what about your husband and children?", she didn't answer, and bowed her head.

"You, you won't be unmarried, will you?" she remained silent, and after a while she whispered:

"Marriage didn't make sense to me thirty-seven years ago", I couldn't help but put her head on my shoulder when I heard this. When she saw the others looking at us with curious eyes, she straightened up slightly.

"Let's not separate anymore, let's grow old. I clasped her hand to my chest with both hands and said firmly.

.......

        We talked about it at nine o'clock, and I decided to settle in Gannan. At this point, I was a little hungry, so I took her to a bar and asked for a bottle of wine to celebrate our reunion after 40 years. Didn't get back to the hotel until two in the morning.

The next day was also the day they originally returned to Jiangxi, and I took the train with them to the hometown of Li Qin's godfather and godmother Li and his wife. After two days of preparation in this beautiful mountain village, we held a wedding according to local customs. Li Yan and his wife and two children came, holding a large number of fireworks and .......

        Suddenly there was a loud bang, I felt ashamed to come back to reality from another world, and I opened my eyes and saw the dense raindrops on the window, one thunder after another, needless to say, you also know that the above is really an illusory dream, and I can't remember the first time this wonderful illusion is this, but I can tell you that it will not be the last.

        I have been sprouting the flame of love since I was fourteen years old, and I have had a seemingly non-existent married life for more than a year at the age of thirty-six, and now I am nearly sixty years old with gray hair, leaving only a dream-like fusion of thought and wine. There are no fewer people who have had similar experiences to me, but a significant number of people are numb, not like I need to rely on alcohol.

        As for my patents, I have no energy and no good at developing them, all the proceeds will be donated to public welfare, my cornea or all organs with transplant or research value will be donated, I am willing to do my best to do something for the society, this is the only wish and meaning of the rest of my life.

        More than half a month ago, Li Qin's alma mater, which is also my daughter's alma mater when she invented the "six-four needles", asked me to help complete two of the tallest and largest handmade murals in the city today, and to design and produce the six-decimeter-square, four-meter-high non-embroidered steel iconic sculpture at the school gate. The main body of the sculpture I designed is composed of a red scarf, which resembles a "six-four needle" with a "6" and "4" bow-tie, so the sculpture can be described as a "six-four knot", and I would like to justify the name of the blood-red scarf. At the beginning of this month, the sculpture was completed before the seventh anniversary of Li Qin's seventh year, and I poured wine and wrote in order to comfort her:

Six-four knots

Eight or nine blood outside the White Bone Hall

Six-four knots under the red flag corner

It is not known who killed the deer

Democracy will come out of the way

(Note "Eight-nine": Eight - nine is not separated from ten, here it means that it must not be a small number, that is, "many")

In the wake of the 9/11 disaster, only by understanding and eradicating terror and evil can we truly usher in harmony. My screen name is "Lu Shi Sailor", and 6.4 My two favorite people, Li Qin and my mother, passed away one after another. The heart is on fire and drinking, talking about the original in the world, the battle between good and evil "Lu Shi Sailor" asked Cangtian Deer whose hand ...... died, but I only heard Li Qin's firm answer.

    Zou and Ming                                            

   2007.6.12

E-mail: zohemng@outlook.com

Mobile: 18079108964

(The original Chinese version below shall prevail)

诺贝尔文学奖提名的推荐项:

          《聊灾》 

           ----心火聊原     

        刚喝不多, 每餐不过二两, 有点醉意而止。 自我介绍，本人生于50年9月11日中午, 巧合的是一里远的南昌市中心的黄庆仁大药栈同时起火化为平地 ,是当时在火场被邻居找回家的父亲说的。此时也正是号召庆祝枪杆子打出四分之一世界一周年的前夕，看来我于9.11降临这块大陆在五十七年前就是血腥火酷的标志, 似乎也注定了决不仅仅是我的一生，但这里只作自传。

        有一点是幸运的，在我出生前，因父亲不愿务农无所成就而得福，我家从可能被“专政的对象”，成了“专政的主人”。在那动荡的年代，父亲成了遗腹子，也是四代人中唯一男人。家中房地在整个邹村是大户，但没有当家男人，仅仅是急趋贫下中农算是幸运。全靠祖母邹宋氏娘家蔽护，祖母娘家是赫赫有名的大家族，也是中国历史上伟大科学家和思想家第一部百科全书<天工开物>作者宋应星的家族。

        抗战胜利后，父母才敢把姐生出来，迁居南昌。内战又越打越烈，内战结束一年后，父母才敢把我生出来，取名"和明"，"和"为明智，"和"则光明，"和"才有明天，是多年抗日后百姓痛恨内战的普遍看法。其实，父母不会知道还是选错了"9.１１"。不信，听我言归正传。

        战争的后遗症----营养不良，是我长得瘦小的主要原因之一。我从小力不从心，常受一些野孩子的武力欺负，有小院斜对面雇农家的"金根"和人力车夫家的"马崽"等，我不愿出门总是在小院内玩耍，但隔壁李家的姐弟俩李琴和李砚对我很好，李琴常宽慰我："别难过，我们跟你玩"。

        那时父亲找到市府的工作，我们住在子固路新市府对面的半步街2号，大天主教堂高石阶下的平房小院里。李家是前市政文职人员，李琴比我大一岁，李砚比我小两岁，还有一小舅与他们生活在一起。李琴舅舅是一剧团美工，他的女友是剧团演员，李琴常根着学唱歌，我们几乎天天在一起。李家人和蔼可亲，他家富有人情味的生活方式与外界对比强烈，深深影响我年幼的心灵。而且我特別喜欢看其舅画画，在我幼小的心底已暗下决心，只有像他那样有本领受人尊敬才会不被人欺负，我爱好美术就从这时开始，也得到其舅的启蒙。后来有一天，见李琴在哭，听说其舅是右派分子被抓走了，从那以后也再没有见过其舅女友登门。李琴和弟弟也成了金根和马崽们的欺负对象，只有我们这两家的小孩在一起玩。

        在我学前，祖母娘家我的宋表哥住进了家，是来考大学的，听说他很有学问, 成绩全县拔尖，两次高考成绩都达名牌大学分数线，但是却没有一所大学录取他，大人说是阶级成分问题，房地土改运动被没收，其父母镇压反革命运动遭殃。这次他的推荐评语很好，与家庭决裂，江西工学院收了他。他常教我识字，至今还记得，我最先认识的两个字，也是他在我练字本封面上教师栏写下的"三人"二字，他说，三人行必有我师，三人为众，以众为师取众之长才会有进步。还常讲少时我最爱的<十万个为什么>一书。但他在大二的学年里成绩一百八十度转弯，学校说他患精神病，退学了。而我印象最深  的是，一次他坐在床沿两腿夹着我的胸背，我喘不过气，挣扎也无效，头冒金星近乎失去知觉，第一次感受几乎致息的滋味。一年后这位文质彬彬的表哥，在家乡杀死了唯一最亲和最疼爱他的婶婶，说是杀死阶级敌人为民除害，最后他死在为其量身定制的铁笼里，留给我的只有<十万个为什么>。

        五七年九月，由于我生日差11天，当时紧缺的公立小学拒收，便进了大士院民办小学。这里的老师许多是有历史或家庭出身问题的，公立学校是决不准用他们的。教我语文的班主任茶老师，丈夫是反革命分子，有的说在押也有的说已镇压处死。教我算术的胡老师，是原重庆政府职员，教我们音乐美术的也是旧剧团新失业的代课人员。教室里，由两块厚板中加一两块薄板钉成的一排排六人课桌，倒象是摇床，铁钉常摇头而起，调皮学生踩上去不是夹着前趾，便是划破后跟，城市百分之九十的孩子还是光着脚来上课。对班主任来说，确确实实劳了不少神。可是有的家长说班主任她在“赎罪”，而我有一次听她在与另一位家长交心时说，只有全心教好这些孩子才能使自己忘记那些悲痛，才有心慰的感受支撑着生存的理由。三十多岁的班主任满头白发，我一直很納闷。

        五八年，李琴做药师的外公外婆介绍我母亲进药厂工作，常常上晚班，而我父亲是个戏迷，晚上常出门看戏。我们小孩也常去小院对面酱油厂看炼钢，这小小的半步街就有三、四个炼钢土炉，是响应毛主席又发起的运动“大跃进”，大炼钢铁产量超英国，各行各业均参与，工人农民家庭妇幼齐出手，砸锅寻铁挖地三尺异常火热，我们像去看焰火一样赶热闹。

        一天我们在小院内就看到酱油厂飞出耀眼的“钢花”，紧接着传来“发火烧死人啦！”的呼喊，小半步街开始听见越来越多的喊叫和跑步声。我姐赶紧拖我和李家姐弟出院门，按坐在教堂外石阶上，姐跑回小院，李家姐弟吓哭了，我们的头缩在一起，我第一次像男子汉展臂护着他俩。姐姐搀来祖母后再次跑回小院，几分钟内，十二岁的姐两次搬来与姐差不多重的箱子。大概一个多小时火被扑灭，后来听说火因是“炼钢工人”几天未合眼，在酱油厂草堆边睡着了最后被烧成炭，尸体无法从炼钢炭和废堆中找出，有人说就让他完完全全投身大炼钢铁运动，“贡献最后一份热”死得更光榮吧。

        大炼钢铁运动由于出的大都是不合格废钢而结束，我家墙后废弃的天主教堂高地基上成了废钢仓厍。一天，我听见染衣爷爷的吆喝声，赶紧对妈说：“我的新衣来了”，其实是姐姐穿小了的花衣染蓝给我的。我和姐一同跑出门，回头刚见母亲踏出房门，一声巨响，房内靠着天主教堂的老墙塌了，一大堆土和废钢压滿我家每一角落，好在祖母在小院乘凉，我家人没出事。我即刻跑到隔壁李家，李家也被压垮，我大声呼减他们姐弟的名字，母亲过来告诉我李家人都出门了，我才放下心。直到初中时学到物理才明白，是我和姐齐步跑产生的共振提前除去了迟早会危害两家的隐患。

        几年国内的“人民公社”、”社教”和“备战解放台湾”等运动虽然一个接一个，但其所付社会成本，均小于与帮助打下这四分之世界的苏联之争所付代价，全中国人民在系紧裤带还债。紧接着的三年“自然灾害”便是雪上加霜，饿死无数，但至少高层可以留下饿死百分之九十九也不低下自己高贵的头的“英雄形象”，和封锁消息拒绝外援以示“东风压西风’的大好形势。我家乡频频传来树皮吃尽，吞食"观音土”添肚胀死的消息，有的地方竞有战乱期间都未闻的，肉食同类的事件发生。我两个舅舅也先后挑来两大空箩筐，善良的母亲哪能见死不救，把大部分本来就不够用的粮票和钱，买滿箩筐，含泪目送其瘦弱的哥哥挑着重担，赤着脚，回归百里山路去救家人，母亲并不是没想到她唯一的正在发育期的儿子將面临饥饿。那期间，我和姐姐都要赶早起床，来到叠山路菜场门口，我拿莱篮，让姐姐空手挤在前面，一开大门，姐姐可发挥其多次获全市运动会少年组短跑前三名的速度，排在菜摊最前面，买回只有城市老百姓凭票买到的包莱外层碎叶，晚了每户几两的蔬菜供应卷只得作废呢。邻居常说我家生反了孩子，我像白白嫩嫩的书生常在家画画，而姐姐一掌可将与她一般高的欺负我的男孩推到一丈之外。

        我是在南昌十九中念初中，原名南昌师范附中，我姐在南昌师范体师班念中专，在同一校园内。初中我偏爱数理化，死背单词的英语和背课文的语文成绩就不理想，都是六十来分。只有一次例外，学过"松树的风格"一文后的作文，我被宋老师给了九十分，并在教研组的老师们中讲评。老师们从一大堆"红梅"、"青松"、"向日葵"和"阳光"等耀眼的题材中，竞看到唯一写不起眼的，而世界每一角落无处不在的"小石子"，看到流落于天涯海角任凭风吹浪打的它，看到在路中任人践踏的它，看到团结于高楼厚墙中的它，老师们建议再给我加五分。"小石子"也就成了我作画的笔名，少时梦想成为大画家齐白石老人的弟子，从小学到初中，从画雷峰到画毛泽东，班刊甚至校刊常由我主编。

        初中二年级，我获得了"全市优秀学生"称号，十四岁提前加入共青团，并出席由团市委和市教委在八一礼堂举行的表彰大会。发奖完后等待放电影，我走出礼堂来到大院，在一棵小树下我看到了李琴，她手上也拿着奖状。我们在一起聊了大约二十分钟，但我记不得聊了些什么，相互问了些什么，因为她常低着头，使我敢用心仔细地看看她。我发现她长得更漂亮了，虽然此前在我和邻居们心中她已是无不赞美的最漂亮的女孩，她的善良、温柔、高雅和聪慧给我的印象更深。白里透红的脸蛋与那双大而黑的水晶般明亮的眼睛，使我第一次感觉从口腔至心底似火在燃烧，全身热血在沸腾。也可能是年纪小，热得快也冷得快，常不能在一起，也由于忙于学习，一年多里这种热情时来时去，全国也由“社教”运动转为"文革"运动。

        六六年所谓的文化革命是从我初中毕业时开始，我被推荐与选拔的高中不能去了，全体留校闹革命。作为每班屈指可数的共青团员，为了共产主义，为响应毛主席的号召，为解放全人类，把西方人民从水深火热中解救出来，这些大都未成年的学生们都一夜之后，成了政治活动家和革命者。我也不例外，用一年积存的零用钱买来毛选精装合订卷来学。我参加了省委组织的红卫兵(保皇派)，"破四旧"即焚书砸古迹换旧牌之类，把阶级成分不好的家庭地毯式操个底朝天数遍，我从小不好动粗, 只是根在后面。

       下半年和姐姐一起，加入了学校选出的赴京代表团，参加了八一八天安门毛主席检阅百万红卫兵大游行。由于在京人多，吃的是天津空运来的”狗不理硬大饼”，几天后我胃病突发，姐送我住进了医院，开始了我的胃病史，好在没染上全国多地流行的脑膜炎。在京通过与清华大学造反派学生的"大串联"，返昌后我转为红卫兵的造反派, 负责校内宣传广播工作。之后武斗展开，百分之九十以上的老师遭打和凌辱，在我看到礼堂舞台左门边一具被造反派打死无人认领的死尸后，在我听到校园常响起振耳的枪声之后，渐渐觉悟，我便退出了造反派的活动，成了消遥派，开始想到学习文化知识。我拿姐的书自学高中数学，买了三本一套的前苏联高中教材“初等物理学”在家自学。

        六七年的一天，我来到了省图书馆找参考书。在这个全市人最少最安静的, 大楼深处的一个角落，我见一女孩低头在看书，仔细一看正是李琴。我在她身旁坐下，开始小声谈聊，原来几个月来她经常来这里，准备将来考音乐学院。我们约好每逢周一、三、五早上一起来图书馆, 其它时间在家自学，我帮助她攻数学物理，她帮我攻语文英语，她比我高一届念过高一。

        这期间我深深被她的美貌所吸引，仔细看隐藏一种人见人爱的，此般标致者少有的动人特色，我开始去研究她的容貌、表情、性格和智力等之间的关系。心想，决不能失去老天赐给我这难得的研究机会，在图书馆常会翻翻这类书籍. 少时最崇拜达芬奇，敬佩他在绘画与发明等等方面的辉煌伟绩，最感兴趣的是达尔文晚年著作<人与动物的表情>。深受达尔文这一书的启发： 既能人或动物若长期处在某种情绪及精神状态下, 面部肌肉部分发达或萎缩而呈一静态表情，我想，反过来从人的这一静态表情（容貌）, 也就可看出其长期处在怎样一种精神状态下生活的, 又会养成怎样一种性格倾向. 同样也会影响其言行举止、姿态身材、眼神智能甚至笔迹字体等等。不过, 这类分析需要多方面的综合, 有科学的或归纳法的依据, 而不是像算命先生无根无据的瞎说,其中很有学问.由此我在后来综合整理出了《归纳法自我定位、选择与修正表》： 

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性    格   | 不定型 （o   | 忧郁型 （a）| 兴奋型 （b   |中和型（ab）

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 特         |顺从随和不稳|柔弱阴郁冷静|刚强直爽急躁|刚柔婉转适中

             |胆小粗心盲从|胆小细心条理|胆大粗心冒进|胆大细心理智

             |耐劳厚道义气|刻苦勤俭小气|享乐浪荡大方|可塑实在瀟洒

             |天真诚实犹豫|腼腆保守固执|活跃开动好奇|幽默稳重坚毅

             |热情冲动好动|敏感善思忍让|灵敏激情好斗|敏锐创新好胜

 征         |劣者怨世疯狂|劣者疯而不狂|劣者狂而不疯|劣者玩世奸诈

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年    龄   16以下80以上|60-80者偏多 |16-35者偏多 |35-60者偏多

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血    型 O型    偏多 |  A型    偏多 | B型    偏多   |AB型 偏多

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外    观   强壮者  偏多 | 玪珑者  偏多 | 艳丽者  偏多| 标致者 偏多 

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肤    色 深             |中度      |   浅白          |偏浅

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地    区   沙漠高原偏多|内陆平原偏多 |岛屿沿海偏多|都市港湾多

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气    候  炎热酷寒偏多 |亚热地带偏多|寒冷地带偏多|温暖地带多

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资    源 贫乏          | 较充足      | 中等           |来源广

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代    谢 发快衰快    |发慢衰中度   |发中度衰较慢|发中度衰慢

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教    育 初等多       |初、中等偏多|中、高等偏多|高等多

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倾    向  极端  不平等  |教条  不平等 | 教条   平等  |科学  均衡

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生    活  疲乏衣食至上 |压抑    小康  | 紧张   富有  |愉快  富足

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习    惯 粗杂  无规律   |偏素    节制 |偏荤   畅欲   |卫生 有规律

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信 仰 者 信鬼甘于人下|信佛崇拜偶像|信神虚无漂渺|自信心安理得

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易 病 因 营养    遗传   | 精神    消化 |血液循环      |环境污染 

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人 为 因  奴役世袭人治|封闭代袭人治|民主届任法治|民选科举德理

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寿    命   较短多人为亡|偏短多人为亡|偏长有因人为|较长少因人为

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成 就 业   体育与竟技  |理论与研究   |艺术与创造   |经营与管理

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选    配    ab、b、a    |  b、ab、o   | a、ab、o    |ab、b、a、o

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        几个月里，不管刮风还是下雨，我和李琴从未间断来图书馆，而且我们来去都是步行的。有一次我们出馆晚了一同乘公交车回家，在一路口汽车突然刹车, 我的头挨近了李琴的头，闻到她秀发的清香，我抑制不住，顺着刹车的惯性在她的脸上轻轻吻了一下，这就是我一直想而不敢的初吻。接着虚伪地用有些颤抖的声音对她说:"那，那人胆真大，单车超汽车" ，她低头不语，脸红到耳根，感觉靠着我的身子像是要移开，却又没有移开。下车后我对她说："这几天很热，我们晚上去明德路公园乘凉好吗? 那离你家近, 我也有时会去那写生"，她迟疑了一下最后同意了。

        我兴奋极了，下午我用了两三个小时默写李琴的面容、表情和姿态，为晚上给她画素描作好准备。晚上，我提前一刻钟在公园找到一处人少而且灯光较弱的地方，回到约好的位置。她准时来了，为了避免遇上熟人, 在她看到我之后, 我一边走一边用手势指向我选好的位置，我们在一个石凳上坐下。我提议给她画幅素描，并要求她先唱首歌，我知道这方面她很自信，果真同意了。为了不惊动周围人，她低声唱了一首，我乘优美歌声的兴致，为画开始打轮廓，约半小时后，我把画给她看，她那满意的笑容是我最大的安慰。从那以后，我在图书馆还三次画过她的像，还用她的姓名组成蝴蝶和莲花，用香水调色画在白绢上，制成书签，取“蝶莲画”诗意之名，也给了她。为了不让她家人怀凝，只用"小石子"签名。那公园很容易遇上熟人就没再去，能在图书馆亲密相见我心满意足。可是，就在这年的十一月十五日，图书馆通知无限期关门。我们商讨后决定改在八一公园九曲桥那边"小岛"的石假山上，在这里她可以放声歌唱，我可以画水彩和水粉。我每次都坐在这不过几米大的假山最高处，游人见了不会上来，她坐在石间，不会被熟人认出来。

        有一天，在分手的时候告诉她五线谱本中有我的一封信。我信中写道："几年来每当我想起你的时候，几乎忘记这世上还有的一切，你充满了我的整个脑海，你遮全了我的整个视野，你的声音在耳边不停地迥荡，响彻我的整个耳空，大海啊，是平静还是激荡，原野啊，是荒凉还是兴旺，天空啊，是昏暗还明朗，李琴啊，你要让我知道，让我清醒吧，我也爱这个世界。"这是我在小石山世外挑园中的情深志大的真实感受。 与李琴在一起的这段日子无疑是我一生最难忘却的。

        很快又过了几个月，一天，我在石假山上等到中午十二点半还不见李琴来，我判断她或家里一定出了什么事，天一黑我就来到她家门口小巷角的一棵大树下，等了十几分钟，见她慢慢走出，像是知道我会来，左右看了一下，见我从树后走出，她缓缓走来，等我看清她红肿的眼还来不及问时, 听见她压抑而又沉重的抽泣声伴出:"没想到，我敬爱的爸爸竞是历史反革命分子，被抓走了...以后我们不要再见面了"，听到后面一句，见她这般伤心，我把她抱过来在她耳边坚定地说"不管将来如何，我永远无法离开你"，她在我肩上又抽泣了一会儿，忽然推开我说："我没希望了，一夜间我已经成了你的敌对阶级，别再来往了。"说完转身低头跑回家了。那晚我站在这棵大树至深夜没见她再出来。

        第二天我把这个消息告诉了父母，母亲说药厂这几天贴出了李琴外公的大字报, 明天要开打倒这个资产阶级技术权威的批斗大会。次日，母亲下班又带来李琴外公外婆昨晚在家同时服安眠药自杀身亡的消息。我立即赶往李家，只见门已贴上封条，向邻居打听才知道，昨天早上她姐弟俩和母亲就被造反派押送下放赣南一山村老区，具体县份不清楚。我觉得头在翁翁的响，眼睛湿了，赶紧走出院门，不由自主地来到民德路公园。在我俩坐过的石凳上坐下，低下头，感受到失去她的痛苦，想见她而见不到的痛苦，想说而无法对她说的痛苦。此时的她会是怎样？离开南昌的那一刻会是怎样？知道外公外婆去世后又会是怎样? 也许她们现在还不知道外公外婆去世。天啦！为什么如此快一个接一个的灾难，降临到一个天使般善良和柔弱的女孩身上。在这动乱浩劫的年代，一个如此美丽可爱而又受管制的女孩，去一个愚昧落后的山村野区，凶多吉少！此后我到处打听都无法得到李琴一家的一点消息。

        一天在八一桥散步，边想李琴边即兴哼出一曲调，这一心灵的旋律，促使我赶回家用简谱记下，去散步而跑步回。随后我自学了十多天的五线谱，改用五线谱并填词：李琴你不要折磨我，我内心焦急又难过，李琴啊，我若不见你，日夜思念怎能生活，啊，大黑的眼睛，曲柔的身形，声音动听又温和……。可是，文革中只能有阶级的感情，爱情是资产阶级的词汇，无产阶级只有革命伴侣的同志情，爱和无限深情只能给伟大领袖和党，连衣着也只流行军绿色。

        六八年"四个面向"分配开始，全国所有三届初高中学毕业生都必须离开监护人分到工厂、农村和劳教兵团，近一半的未成年人，离开父母当工人和农民，我幸运分进了南昌青云谱一大工厂当炼钢准备工人。没上几天班，经寝室室长推荐，我被借调到厂政治部宣传室作美工，整天写毛主席语录牌、大型标语和画毛主席像，即”红海洋”式宣传工作。工厂大一点的墙壁几乎都留有我的笔迹，进门口的亭楼是搭五层竹架画的巨幅主席像，快满十八岁的我，人们都认为只有十五岁，都以"小画家"称呼。我画主席像习惯脸色偏红，因为厂军代表命令画主席一定要满面红光，即使我全画得像是喝醉酒的人, 也能得到他们的好评，但绝对不能不像主席，这会是置我死地的政治问题， 四、五人帮的残忍和疯狂是秦始皇和希特勒也无法比及，的确史无前例。

        这期间是我开始免费学习油画和雕塑的好机会，为了画的室外巨幅红旗和毛主席其面不改色，一瓶佛山银朱要廿四元多，相当于我一个半月工资。一瓶不过用十来笔，一巨幅的成本可想而知，为政治宣传是不计代价的, 别说是钱,就是要许多人命也得付出。为了与苏联老大哥斗六十年代初不惜死几千万人,何况此时是史无前例的文革, 四五人帮要亿万人天天在叫不要怕牺牲,誓死悍卫伟大领袖。在这非战争年代全国各地同胞互相残杀枪声四起,儿不认娘夫不认妻杀声一片,更是绝版的史无前例。我还在厂搞“收租院”阶级斗争纪念雕塑馆，全厂各军编连队演出的三、四个样板剧的全场布景与海报，都是我一人画完。我还“发明”了用肥皂调广告色，在用工业滑石粉和牛胶作底的麻袋上，画经济耐用布景的方法。

        就这样又过了一年多，在此间我从未间断地打听李琴的消息，做梦都在等她的来信，等我熟悉的笔迹、话语和即使是悲哀的歌声。

        我姐当时在胜利区广播宣传站做广播员，她单位接到在"三代会"(现洪都宾馆)门口画六幅巨型宣传壁画的任务。我为厂要来一幅，当时我厂准备二人去画，但那位不敢去，我只有一人去。为了抢时间，我每天天一亮就去画，第二天清晨我发现有一和尚站在我身后看，我忽然想起李琴说过几年前其舅已入佛门，猛回头一看，果然是他，只是我这美术启蒙老师老了很多。我赶紧询问李琴一家在何处，他双手合于胸前，微闭着眼连说两句"不提的好"，并转身朝八一桥方向而去。我火速收拾东西追上了他，在我反复追问下，他只简短的说：

   "姐疯了，外甥在照料她"

   "你外甥女呢"我追问，他沉默发呆，

   "你说呀"，

   "被当道的革命造反派乡长在江边小山的草堆后面强暴了，跳江了，找不到了，升天了，解脱了。"

  我头脑一片空白，有气无力地用颤抖的声音问"那，那，乡，乡长抓到了吗？”

  “杀人、强奸在今天的文革造反派中还少吗？挖心掏肺又怎样？如今反革命分子和家属是人吗？谁会谁又敢为反革命分子的女儿说话？！"

     我的头象是被雷轰了，呆呆的看他走去，我忽然跑过去，双手使劲捏着他的右臂问:

    "什么时候死的？"

    "端午节前四天，六月四日"

    "她们下放在那里？"

    "我不知道，不要去打扰他们。"

        我用力甩掉他的手，他头也不回的继续往前走。我就近在桥边草地上伴着一棵小树躺下，小树弯了，也不知它会不会断，我似乎没有一点气力。头又在翁翁地响，泪水使我看不清天是白的还是黑的，耳朵也只能听见上下牙齿频频相撞的声音,我还握紧双拳在地上使劲捶打，然后双拳夹向耳前。许久，眼泪流不出来了，手上一阵阵疼痛。我恨自己，当时为什么没找到李琴？为什不主动要求下放赣南？我恨她，为什么狠心与我断绝来往，为什么！为什么丢我一个人在这里！她在那里！她还能回来吗？为什么人会有这般的痛苦？！

        不知过了多久，我走到了八一桥上。在这条赣江上游的远方，吞食了我最心爱的人，抬头看着那方最亮的一颗星星，顺其辉光投入滔滔江水，随之渐渐暗淡幽幽而来的闪烁，低视到脚下深暗的漩涡，我似乎想随之而下，追随星光逃离这现实的痛苦。我猛然又抬头对天大吼："毛主席啊，你真伟大，你说娇娇者易折，她真的升天了!"。我的头随后又掉在胸前，难道只有粗庸者的生存权？博学的宋表哥疯了，死了；高老师下放后也死了；三十岁就独身的班主任眉毛也白了；李琴她妈疯了，李琴英俊的舅舅成了和尚；李琴外公外婆一夜双亡；如今李琴也去了，李砚面前难以不狂的可能只有不归路。我想不明白，但我一定要明白！我似乎听到了他们的呼喊，好像不是一个、十个和千百万声音的呼喊，我意识到今后的责任，恢复了一些知觉，感觉到手的振抖和肚子的咕叫，我擦干手和脸上的血迹，来到桥边小商店，买了一些食物和一瓶白酒。

        家里没人，妈上夜班，爸可能又听戏去了，姐出嫁后我有单独的房间。关上门，一个人喝起酒来，这是我第一次喝白酒，从此揭开了本人的饮酒史. 也领会了酒的麻醉特效，以前只喝过母亲做的糯米甜酒。干了第一杯，我的脸就发烧，喝完半瓶醒来己是第二天早晨。我收拾好后在母亲回来之前出了家门，我跑遍了八一桥对岸整个昌北。第二天到几十里外的西山大寺庙，都无李琴舅舅的消息。三天里我每天早晨都在桥头等他两三小时，我开始怀凝他是否在南昌。

        第四天，我在家收到一封信，信封上签名是李琴的舅舅，打开一看却是李琴的日记:

        "....二月二日...我无法相信从小教育我和弟弟要爱祖国爱人民的，为人善良诚实的，一贯乐于助人无一不尊敬的父亲，竞会是人民的敌人...父亲前天被抓走，将意味我理想的彻底破灭。舅舅划为右派分子已对全家是巨大的打击，如今……。前天与和明断交，虽不是我本意，但这是必然的结局。与一个反革分子的女儿交往必然毁灭他的前途，我明白他不会顾及这些，可我不能不为他考虑，他会是有所作为的，他的成功将会让我心慰，但是，因我而毁将是遗恨终生的事。……和明，我两天都没有合眼，我不知流了多少泪，你对我的情意我一生都不会忘记。可我们没有缘分，是我命苦……今天我们被押到异地他乡，也许一辈子将在这里渡过。……我很清楚，母亲心里一直在担心父亲、外公和外婆，可还要不断安慰我和弟弟，她内心的压力不可想象……。"眼泪让我无法看下去。

        此间各地传出一起起杀人、挖心肉食同类事件，不过这回不是几年前的饥不择食，而是满怀阶级仇恨，也就是通常只是说说而己的, "恨不得咬你一口"的真正的有”阶级感情”的体现，阶级敌人残尸弃于荒郊，亲属不敢认领。听说我们江西就有一少女因在给当兵的情人信中，有怀凝文革字眼而被打为现行反革命分子后，执行枪决。邻居一老头将此弃尸的少女阴户挖出收藏于家中。阶级敌人其肉只有虫食鼠咬，其骨只有任野狗斯啃才能解恨，以献忠心。被鼓动的红卫兵造反派用对“敌人”的仇恨竞赛来表现"爱憎分明，立场坚定"。年轻人若不信，只要问问你身边那些诚实敢言的每一个过来人，你才会相信战后"和平环境”二十年后所发生的事。

        第二年6月4日，我在窗台上点亮了腊烛。直到现在，每年的这一天，我只能用这种方式祭李琴之亡灵。

        我越来越看清了四、五人帮争权夺利的疯狂罪恶，我用了近一年的工资一百多元，买了当时国内市场最好的"红旗"三波段半导体收音机。每天收听短波至深夜，听听国内外时事与政论，眼睛也就越来越亮了。朋友，你知道吗？在四、五人帮年代收听外台是现行反革命，抓到不枪毙也会被打死或整死，我己无所畏。我还将随身带的学习笔记本包上红语录塑料面，每当班前饭后或开会时向毛主席作早敬中敬晚敬呼“万万岁”时，唯有我高举的是科学与知识的语录本。借调政治部宣传室作美工期间，有时政治部认为我在连队，而连队又认为我在政治部，借此可以躲避所有必须参加的政治和”献忠”活动。连打锣敲鼓点名排队去参加的“选民投票”活动，全厂可能只有我一人没去参加，这一习惯使近六十岁的我，至今从未参加过“选民投票”。后来，程世清省委书记的6011部队三次来人，要征招我和一名拉手风琴的同事去当文艺兵，将有享受军官待遇的机会，厂军代表也只放走一人而不放我走，其实我也不愿意去。这期间是我青年时期情绪的最低谷，我几乎没有画过一幅自己也感觉满意的画，尽管我耳边全是赞美声。

       七六年九月初的一天，也是我记忆深刻的一天，我要好的同事龚冬健（现在美国任教），当时被总政军乐团招去作男中音歌唱演员，他第一次返昌，我中午请他在家吃螃蟹。酒兴之中听到外面广播传来哀乐声，我俩走到阳台才听清是主席去世。我俩人把一大盆螃蟹吃完了，预感到而且事实上也是四、五人帮“螃蟹横行时代“的结束，也是当时全国人民的期望。

        四、五人帮的倒台，我心情也好了起来，多次参加技术攻关和技术革新活动，如新产品零件无专用机床与刀具的加工, 和对东德进口机床的缺件设计制作 ；去铜棱测绘日本产矿山机械配件球面蜗轮蜗杆，回厂设计单刀展成，加工铜件还很快。此后整理发明了“螺旋飞刀展齿法”，无需专用机床及专用刀具，便可加工各种标准非标准及国外标准的齿轮齿形的中国专利，当时的中国机电报和地方报纸, 也报道这一螺旋飞刀展齿法和我几十项技术革新，也使我考评上了全厂滚插铇铣四工种中唯一的技师。但我期待的政治体制改革却看不到实质的进展，总是忧心重重.改革开放若只搞经济体制改革, 尤如只是延长绝症病人痛苦的生命,而不去治病根,病毒同样获得丰富营养,令其生不如死。

        在李琴十周年祭日的端午节间，我酒后写下挽联贴在家门两旁:

                古道政苛猛逾虎，今言府败胜吸毒。

        邻居学生在我门口问我：”邹叔叔，腐败的腐字下面少了个肉字”，我回答说：“肉，烂掉了，只剩躯壳了”。

        改革开放后，分厂为与模范镇办企业一家沙石公司建立关系，为其设计与名企业相称的门楼和刚流行的铁栅围墙，我用了大半个月了解建筑制图与机械制图的区别，利用我的美术专长，设计并指导施工。这使周边大单位也羡慕的门面建筑，很快就获得了两个相距数百里的沙石公司与我方签订合同，制作沙石料机电输送线、筛沙机和江边宽悬长百米凉栅走廊业务。我一人同时承包这两家的设计与制造业务。在出现“万元户”称乎不久的当年，这两家业务我除去给分厂的承包支付额外，纯利润有三万余元，而且我为其中一家设计的江中与岸边自动沙石输送线二期方案利润更大。有了资金，我可以开始为非技术性的真正理想而努力，南昌晚报等刊物报道我时，我宣布了创办江西宋应星研究会的决定。

        工程快结束后我还接了这家名企业的修挖沙船等业务，并安排了这家名企经理妻子的外甥女学电焊，她化名册上只有十九岁，姓王。可两天后工地来人说小王被电风扇打着手送镇医院了，我急忙赶到医院。医生正在给她缝针，手背上一“廾”字伤口几乎可见到骨头。没上麻药缝了十多针，但她一声都没有哼，低头咬紧牙关，很坚强，这是女孩给我的第一印象。

        第二天我来看望她时，才发现她眼睛象李琴特别大，这又使我沉浸于与李琴在一起的回忆中。当天她母亲回家了，住院期间我只有多去关照她，渐惭在她心中产生了好感，她常说“你这人真好”，我又渐渐有了在李琴身边的那种感觉。虽然我已三十六岁，但大多数人认为我比施工队里的年轻人大不了很多。从我和小王的结婚照就不难看出这一点，从我女儿现在的样子也不难发现这一遗传特征。女儿明年音乐系大四要毕业了，可见她的人都说像个初中生，肤白小个头一幅娃娃脸蛋。

       李琴已去世十六年了，三十六岁未婚的我一直在追逐她的身影，如今又找到了，看似幸运。我父母都退休多年，母亲又多病，五代单传的我该结婚尽孝子之心了。在我和小王的关系越来越亲密之后，我表现出进一步发展两人关系的意愿，并带她回家与父母见面。她父母在她的坚持下也同意了。于是八六年我带她回南昌筹办婚事，三月十四日办了结婚登记，五月一日举行婚礼。有一点令我痛心的是, 我十多年前给李琴画的肖像油画和李琴日记被小王付之一炬，只留下半成形的李琴玉质雕像。

       使任何人也想不到的是竞会在婚礼当天晚上谈及离婚，那天由于忙乎了一天，晚上我躺在床上闭目沉思，小王以为我睡着了，用一只手搂着我的头。当有水滴在我脸上时，张眼见她在流泪，问她“怎么了”，追问很久，她说："你什么都好，如果年龄能小一点的话"。我明白，什么"如果"都好办，唯独这个"如果"无法办。我也明白，尽管她在父母面前那般坚决，可这是隐藏在深处的心里话，因为此情景是发生在她以为我睡着了之后。我真诚地向她表示，如果今后我俩在外表上也不相称，如果她找到了更合适的，我们就离婚。

        农历10月10日公历11月11日1时我女儿出生，取名尾亦有一“琴”字。

        当小王母亲知道那“洞房离约”之后，也许是小王的“李琴之美”的外表部分的作用，她每次同母亲上舞厅，都会有男孩追到家门口。不久我们在街办办了协议离婚。女儿由我单方面供养和监护，她可随时来看孩子，她再婚前就吃在我家。我也表示她生话有困难可随时找我，之后我还给她增加了些用品。由于她户口已调来南昌，我请同事帮忙为她搞到一个工作编制指标。但无岗位上班，我便先将小王一年的工资付给该厂门市部承包人，她可开始上班。我知道，她只要去服务行业应聘，凭她的外表都会争着要，但服务行业太杂乱, 出了问题至少对不起女儿。就这样，结束了连怀孩哺女在内的一年多婚姻。

        此后几年我整理、改进和完成了几项专利发明，成就感使我找了新的精神寄托，也成瘾了。在我参加全国机构创造发明论文发表会前，小王厂部要我帮助联系当时各大媒体报道的，获国际大奖的范氏快夹台虎钳的专利合作事宜。我在会上看到范氏台钳的结构后就发现，在常受敲打的粗糙工具中增加精度较高强度差的多个小构件，增加成本寿命下降是其致命的弱点，后来亏本和淘汰也证明了这一点。因此我没有去谈，当小王厂部问及此事后，我在三天里设计了一种高效快夹台虎钳，将传统台虎钳的二十来个零件减少到六、七个零件，全行程快夹工件与转向锁紧一次完成，又可无切削制造成，美观耐用功能又好的精铸钢镀锌或镀铬（国际市场至今还没有）的台钳，成本还低于现行铸铁喷漆台钳。

        在获中国专利后，劳动局看上了，把我调出厂，在南昌技校兴建校办工厂准备投产。不久由中国专利局组团参加新加坡发明展，我和劳动局一副局长级领导参加，两人会费四万多，但局长（己判刑）要我领九万元换美元，我便借故到出发前才露面而没有经手。反正不是我一人去，不怕会泡汤。展会第二天中午吃饭前，有一个商人出五万美金要买我的快夹管子钳专利，我是公费出国参展不好当场决定，五分钟后午餐时，我全场也没有找到那商人。事后有人怨我，应当场成交给另外一人一些，个人专利自己可以作主，但我根本就没有行贿的意识。在高效快夹台虎钳获金奖后，校方要我将几项在国内外获奖的个人专利变更为校方所有，尽管我同意无偿给校方开发和生产而要求不作变更，但最后还是违愿签了变更文件，可是中国专利局未受理，校方为此很不满。此时，范氏台钳发明人东北某研究所的范先生，写了一封七、八页的信给我校领导，以自己亏本的具体实例劝校方不要投产，正赶火上加油。我在三个月上班而未拿到工资的情况下，决定在家搞个人工作室，从此，就没去上班。

         一月后有一家新加坡小商人专程来南昌谈合作开发专利一事，我带到局里，局干部在进餐时了解到投资不多而不了了之。此时由于省电视台播出了我的几项发明成果，祖籍奉新的邹县长专程来南昌与我谈合作，由于当时个人不能与外商合资，我便将这商人和不久又来的一新马大商人介绍给老家。先成立了中新合资“江西新华科技开发有限公司”作专利开发，又与新马商人在深圳签了投资办厂生产高效快夹台虎钳的合同，但没想到，奉新招商局竞会在已达协议的合同中单方面改了两处，其中双方委派的正副总经理调换了。因此新华科技公司也在一年后新方资金不肯到位而结束合作。

        九三年，经省科协会议讨论批准并发文，由我负责邀请包括清华大学的省内外数十名教授、专家和学者，创办了江西宋应星研究会。民政厅与省科协意见不一，民政厅要求打入大额的资金，但科协对学术组织不这样认为，要我们尽快运作。我用卖专利和新方支助的钱买了一套工作室，一边组建研究会工作，一边继续设计新专利项目。     

      在女儿入学后，我母亲的支气管炎加重，此病与几十年药厂烟尘下工作有关，开始每年有半年多需住院治疗。我也开始在医院、学校与家之间奔忙。同时，我一个接一个的申请专利，邻居说我走路都在想问题，像是有瘾，我常设计至深夜一两点，有时睡下后又爬起来写，生怕第二天忘了。并且开始把精力集中于我真正感兴趣的社会问题，也就是几十年里导致我周围一系列灾难的问题，八九年之后更使我热衷于这些问题。

      90年在李琴廾周年祭日的端午节间，我酒后写下:

七绝 屈曲中原

陸地冤魂冲九天,

肆海化泪洒中原,

壯骨作錘破世紀,

烈軀碾鼓喚人間.

......

        天暗了，又到了我喝二两的时候了。

        喝酒不仅能解愁，边喝边回忆，飘然如仙的感觉，此时真的火烧屁股，也会不慌不忙的回头瞧瞧，继续写下去。

        回顾李琴去世后我的思想变化，整理在二十多年前给剑柔信中第一次提出的“多级趋圆论”。我很清楚这些观点当时很难发表，便想到以发明专利的申请程序方式发表。就这样，世界上自有专利史以来第一项涉及社会科学只求社会效益，不求个人经济效益的“专利”申请<电脑民主高速公路系统>，于九十年代中期公告了。接着一个个文献大典纷纷来函约稿，我明白这些自然科学领域的刊物审稿没有“敏感的神经”，那方面松得多，国家知识产权出版社、人民画报社和人民日报出版社，便一家接一家登载了我提出的电脑民主高速公路系统。 

        在我写这编文章的时候，引来了我八岁女儿的第一项专利“多用回形大头针”的发明。一天，我在写时叫女儿拿大头针来，她没有找到便将一回形针拉直一半剪去交给我，我一看，不仅可作大头针，还保留了回形针的功能。便启发她多想想，反复改进使它有更多功能，这样，一种具备回形针、大头针、绷针、别针和图钉等功能的多用回形大头针申请了中国专利。由于形似手写“6”与“4”字，便取名“6.4针”。我估计会触动那时的知识界某一“敏感神经”，电视台相继报道了女儿的发明，有时为此玩世不恭捧腹而生数十年难得的一笑. 紧接着又获省市青少年创新与发明一等奖、破例缺席参展获96北京国际发明展银奖和全国青少年创新赛银奖、王丹萍和陈香梅等奖金，及中央电视台"希望之星"和全国"21世纪之星"等称号，女儿在2001年被中国少年科学院评为院士.

        从此，不少学校邀请我作创新发明辅导讲座，我要求老师和家长们，从小培养孩子们的创新意识：说到创新发明，不少人会说难，其实并非如此，只要你把闲聊打牌的时间让出一部分，"歪脑筋"少动一些，你也可以搞发明。可以说会比做数学题还容易，因为数学题往往只有一两个答案，而发明项目的答案可以不同，成千上万，各有千秋。数学题是老师给的，没得选择，而发明的课题是你周围的一切事和物，够多了。有的数学题你可能一两小时还做不出，而有的发明创新你几分钟就可想到。关键是养成永远在创新意识中生活的习惯, 对现实不满才是你乃至社会进步和发展的动力。

        97年母亲己住院十来年，累计化费公费和自费数十万元，这年的6月1日，母亲原厂公费医疗开始更严格的规定。6月4日是李琴祭日，我在医院心情一直不好，妈以为我忧心医疗费，对我说："接我回家吧,治不好了，我是要走了，我单位干事的人的工资开始成问题,不要浪费，你们也还得生活下去"。我不肯，母亲当晚跌跌撞撞去吵医生要出院。过了几天医生见她气色好转准她出院，但出院第四天的晚上，也就是江西电视台报道我女儿获奖消息的当晚，母亲离开了人世。我极度痛苦，母亲一生勤劳善良给我深刻印象，数十年药厂工作使她气管炎病重不治，临终想到的还是公家同事。

        母亲去世后，我不再来往奔忙甚感寂寞，机械行业不景气，老同学建议我学电脑。我买来电脑，在我年近四十八岁时开始认真学电脑。自学一年后，电脑硬盘出问题了，保存的数据面临丢失。我揭开硬盘线路板，女儿眼睛好使，她发现接线触点小锡面有小空穴易接触不良，压平后一切正常。我感觉到硬盘的重要性，也知道这是电脑维修中最难的问题。我从市场买来几十个不同厂家的坏硬盘，间断地研究一年后，搞起了一间无尘工作室，办起了全省第一家电脑数据恢复和硬盘维修工作室，惭惭在电脑市场上产生一定影响，他们有的寄有的送来我的工作室，我虽然学申脑时间短，但修复水平在电脑市场年轻老板们眼里是电脑界少见的白发“专家”老头。

全国各家修复的方法基本相同，为突出自己的水平，几年里我对最难修复的硬盘研究出自已的方法。比如DOS下无法查看的数控机器、进口微电脑印刷机或带硬盘复印机等特殊文件格式的数椐恢复。不能识别的硬盘则经好硬盘引导后热插拔替换，但未修完验好不要反复重起与退出。为此，我编了“和明硬盘数椐修复工具平台PC sos 6.4”程式，使全部改写后的修复与检侧软件能相互快速切换，不需重起或退出。修复与检侧软件功能差异也主要在于，修复与检侧时间越长越彻底而已。在我收到咨询电话才知道，商家从我网站上下载简易版并制作同名光盘已在全国各大城市发行。

         前几年，在中国买一个硬盘需要普通人一两个月的工资，好心的女儿将我们发现的硬盘盘体与其线路板接线方式的设计问题，向全球几大硬盘生产厂商发去电子邮件，她得到回函的衷心感谢和纪念品。那不佳的接线方式有百分之五十以上，笔记本电脑硬盘高达百分之八十以上．昆腾和IBM几乎都是这种接线方式，硬盘电路板的接线处是由两排十余个小锡头组成，盘体上相对位置由十余个小触头组成．两头或中央压上一两螺钉，硬盘在使用后温度明显升高，而电路板很薄，压螺钉后受热变形成凹或凸状，致使部分触头断路或接触不良，很容易产生电火花，使锡头产生小洞和产生导电性能差的氧化层．挤压平锡头小洞和磨光触头装好，则一切恢复正常．这是很容易在设计和检查中忽视的问题，但在重要的设备和领域中.可能造成重大事故或灾难,也难怪名牌失色.硬盘厂商兼并的兼并, 转让的转让.

       2000年在李琴卅周年祭日的端午节间，我酒后又写下:

  大陸.四害

流 亡 坐 困

氓 命 井 獸

茅 等 僵 死

廁 小 則 裏

東 嬪 明 崩    注: 茅等:毒草之類,  裏:歸宿, 東:東家.

        我一直热衷于探讨新型的社会模式，并将我的见解同样以发明专利程序公告，<网络主导社会体系>引来众多约稿供发表。

        本世纪初，为了悼念胡耀邦等人，我在网上写下挽联:

“中原难得照紫阳，大陆幸有夫耀邦”，横批:“解放区的天”。

        作为自传我必须尊重事实，如果会触痛什么人，我也得这样，至少今天我会睡得安稳，好了，已经是深夜三点了，我该睡几个小时了！

        ……。

        电视的早间新闻又把我引到了客厅，女儿打开了电视却不见她人影，电视正在报道中央台的青年歌手大赛，在采访原生态歌手组合的镜头中，我发现其老师很面熟，仔细一看，“李琴”！凭我少时研究过的深刻印象，我很有把握的叫出声来。啊，她没有死！从电视报道中得知她“黎琴”在南方一个少数民族的山乡做老师，这次带学生来京参赛，演唱她挖掘的原生态歌曲。我兴奋极了，赶紧打电话问询去北京的飞机，上班时刻买来机票。午饭后赶往机场，下午三点多到达北京，乘的士迅速赶到中央电视台。在值班室与大赛组织人联系后，得知黎琴在江西驻京办事处银河宾馆。来到银河宾馆己是晚间七时，我顾不得吃晚饭在宾馆大厅服务台等这位”黎琴”出现。三分钟后，她来到我面前，呆呆的看着我，在我说完"我是邹和明"之后，她的泪水一涌而出，我无法形容此时的心情，也顾及不得周围那么多人，上前张手抱紧了她，这是自五十年前半步街大火和四十年前分手之夜后的第三次拥抱，我俩抽泣了数分钟之久。

“没想到你还活着"，我双手棒着她的脸，异常激动地说。

“我也没想到还会见到你”她一边说一边擦着泪。

我扶着她在旁边的沙发上坐下，

“四十年了，你为什么不来见我？你生活还好吗？”。

“我被渔夫黎大伯和大妈救活之后，只想在那山乡渡过余生，能在电视和报刊中见到和了解你，我心满意足了。”抓着我的手也越握越紧。

“你家人还好吗？”我又追问。

“父亲入狱一年多后病故，外公外婆文革中也去世了，四人帮倒台后，我把妈妈和弟弟接来黎大伯的山村，弟弟在那里成了家，妈妈前年病故，舅舅在赣西北老家古庙里。”

“你呢？你丈夫和孩子呢？”，她没有回答，低下了头。

“你，你不会还没结婚吧？”她还是不语，过了一会儿她低声说：

“结婚对我来说三十七年前就没意义了”，听到这话，我又不由自主地将她的头靠到我的肩上。当她看到旁人用好奇的眼神看着我俩白发人时，稍微直起了身子。

“我们不要再分离了，让我们白头到老吧。”我用双手把她的手紧握到胸前坚定地说。

…….

        我们谈到了九点多钟，我决定定居赣南。这时，我肚子有些饿，便带她来到一家酒吧，要了瓶葡萄酒，庆祝我俩四十年后的相逢。直到凌晨两点才回到宾馆。

第二天也是她们原本返赣的日子，我和她们一起乘火车去李琴干爹干妈黎氏夫妇的家乡。我们在这个风景美丽的山乡筹备两天后，按当地风俗举行了婚礼。李砚夫妇和两个孩子都来了，他们捧着一大堆焰火礼花……。

        忽然一声巨响，我像惭惭从另一世界回到现实中来，猛一张眼，看见窗上密集的雨滴，一个接一个的雷声，不用我说你也知道以上这段才真正是虚幻的梦，而这美妙的虚幻我记不清是第几次了，但是我可以告诉你，不会是最后一次。

        我从十四岁开始萌芽而一直强烈燃烧的爱情之火，在卅六岁有过一年多的似有似无的夫妻生活，如今年近六十满头白发，只留有思维和酒的梦般融合。与我有相似经历的人决不会少，只是相当一部分人麻木了，而不是像我需依赖于酒。

        至于我的专利，我无精力也不善于开发, 全部收益将捐于公益事业， 我的眼角膜或全部有移植或研究价值的器官都将捐献，能为社会做些什么我愿去尽力，这是我余生仅有的愿望和意义。

        半个多月前，李琴母校，也是我女儿发明“六-四针”时的母校，请我帮助完成了两幅当今全市最高最大的手工壁画，并设计与制作校门口的六分米方四米高不绣钢标志性雕塑。我设计雕塑主体是红领巾组成的，形似“六-四针”的“6”与“4”字状领结，故雕塑可谓“六-四结”，愿以此给血红的领巾正名。本月初李琴卅七年祭日前雕塑落成，我为告慰她，洒酒并写下:

六-四结

白骨堂外八-九血

红旗角下六-四结

鹿死谁手非未知

民主出头必昭雪

（注 “八-九”：八-九不离十，此处是指一定不会是小数目, 即”许多”的意思）

聊此吾临“9.11”之灾,认识和根除恐怖与邪恶才能真正迎来和谐。我的网名是“陆肆水手”，6.4我最爱的两人--李琴和母亲先后去世。心火烧酒,聊原于世,正邪之争“陆肆水手”问苍天鹿死谁手……, 可我只听到李琴的坚定回答。

    邹和明                                            

   2007.6.12

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