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二十年后话六四(一) 2009-05-31 15:12:39

I.    题记

从来不敢忘记,
可总也不愿提起。。。



    一提起六四,很难不情绪化。

    在海外求学谋生,少不了有觉着委屈的时候。人一委屈就想家,想起家就想起要她强大,想起要她强大,就自自然然地想起六四,想起六四,多数时候是独自一人暗地里泪流。

    即使过去了二十年,这块悲情的伤疤,还会时不时地殷红西装革屡下的白衬衫,心痛却痛得无可奈何。。。

    我不想跟谁辩论对错,也不想与某种理论去论理。与全国经历了那场事件的千千万万的人一样,我只是一位六四运动的普通参与者和目击者。我爱我的祖国,二十年前与二十年后没有改变。

    我的上几代先人,为中华民国和中华人民共和国的诞生,都打过仗,流过血,献过命。而他们之间为主义不合,亲血脉反目,各自为主,老死不相往来。 

    我自己是四岁前长在京都的独院里,四岁后长在井岗山区的山脉里,直到考上大学。从小学到博士,近二十年的教育,一直受到国家的资助,养育之恩,没齿不忘。

    89年上博士,六四期间参加了游行和帮助了学校的救护队工作,6月3日晚上在天安门广场顶替拉肚子的同学值班,当晚在救护队的帐篷里连续吸了两包香烟,以后成了烟民二十年(今年,六四前,我把烟给戒了,现已有两个月)。6月4日清晨穿白大褂从广场南侧撤出,用担架抬出一名当时的重要人物,并为此付出沉重的代价而无悔。三年半以后出国,现在在美国谋生,养家糊口,自得其乐。

    为了纪念的文字与思想不受情绪化的影响,我先把千言万语的深情与悲情,浓缩成一句话作为题记:从来不敢忘记,可总也不愿提起,六四,几代人心底的痛。。。




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作者:usagi 留言时间:2009-06-04 18:03:32
好一句 相逢何必曾相识
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作者:田泥鳅 留言时间:2009-06-02 15:01:06
报告雷神爷,泥鳅确实把烟戒了。谢谢雷神爷的鼓励。

泥鳅咬牙把烟戒了三周后,才宣布戒烟,算自己纪念六四做的一件实事。

最近心情不是那么开朗,因为把烟给戒了:)
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作者:田泥鳅 留言时间:2009-06-02 14:57:55
谢谢昭君来访。
知道你又北上安顿好了家小,很是幸慰。
有机会就多上外面晒太阳,心情会开朗:)
这两天晚上会压自己写些文字,纪念二十年前的那场悲剧。
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作者:田泥鳅 留言时间:2009-06-02 14:56:37
山哥: 岂无山歌与村笛,相逢何必曾相识。

读了你的两篇六四文,与老乡同音同心。借几句白老前辈的《琵琶行》与君同勉。

春江花朝秋月夜,往往取酒还独倾。
同是天涯沦落人,相逢何必曾相识。

岂无山歌与村笛,呕哑嘲哳难为听。
座中泣下谁最多?江州司马青衫湿。
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作者:雷神 留言时间:2009-06-02 13:52:16
戒烟是好事;开朗更重要!
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作者:昭君 留言时间:2009-06-02 05:46:30
从来不曾忘记,可总也不愿提起,因为它是我们心底永远的痛。。。

大顶泥鳅兄好文! 期待 ing...
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作者:山哥 留言时间:2009-06-02 05:39:41
同是天涯沦落人
沦落皆因六四故
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作者:田泥鳅 留言时间:2009-06-01 14:38:37
谢谢小百合的建议,纪念六四有多种方式。民间对六四事件的图像记录已有很多。对六四的评定或平反,我会坦诚交流我的想法。再次谢谢你的体贴和坦诚交流。哦,最好不用"六四血卡"这样的词汇,好吗?。

谢谢予白的留言,我会尽量用聊家常的方式,平和地说说自己对六四的庸见。

谢谢第101个地球的来访,我读了你留的信息。
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作者:第101个地球 留言时间:2009-06-01 13:46:46
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The Albert Einstein Institution (AEI) as described in its own website:
Founded in 1983 by Dr. Gene Sharp, The Albert Einstein Institution is dedicated to advancing the study and use of strategic nonviolent action in conflicts throughout the world. It is committed to the defense of freedom, democracy, and the reduction of political violence through the use of nonviolent action.
To further its mission, the Institution has supported research projects (for examples, see our publications section), actively consulted with resistance and pro-democracy groups (including groups in Burma, Thailand, Tibet, Latvia, Lithuania, Estonia, Belarus, Serbia, and the Occupied Territories), and worked to publicize the power and potential of nonviolent struggle around the world through educational materials, analyses, translations, workshops, and media visibility.[1]
An alternative description is:
The Albert Einstein Institution (AEI) has played the key role in recent years in training and deploying youth movements to help prepare the conditions for coups through fostering the impression that the targeted regimes are deeply unpopular, and through destabilizing those regimes through their demonstrations and the like. The group, which is funded by the Soros foundations and the US government, is led by former DIA officer Col. Robert Helvey, and Harvard University's Dr. Gene Sharp.[Mowat, [2]]
In 1989, "The Einstein Institution’s Board of Directors, meeting in September, approved a grant of $6,000 to the Civilian-Based Defense Association, a one hundred percent increase over last year’s funding level. The grant is specifically to provide general support for the production and distribution of the Association’s newsletter, Civilian-Based Defense: News and Opinion." [1]
In 1995, AEI noted that "The Program on Nonviolent Sanctions, which receives financial support from the Albert Einstein Institution, has now joined with the Cultural Survival Center, the research arm of Cultural Survival, a human rights organization, to run the Program on Nonviolent Sanctions and Cultural Survival (PNSCS) at Harvard University’s Center for International Affairs." [2]
Some of this institute's activities were recently described in an article about the recent coup in Ukraine:
The creation and deployment of coups of any kind requires agents on the ground. The main handler of these coups on the "street side" has been the Albert Einstein Institution, which was formed in 1983 as an offshot of Harvard University under the impetus of Dr. Gene Sharp, and which specializes in "nonviolence as a form of warfare." Dr. Sharp had been the executive secretary of A.J. Muste, the famous U.S. Trotskyite labor organizer and peacenik. The group is funded by Soros and the NED. Albert Einstein's president is Col. Robert Helvey, a former US Army officer with 30 years of experience in Southeast Asia. He has served as the case officer for youth groups active in the Balkans and Eastern Europe since at least 1999.
Col. Helvey reports, in a January 29, 2001, interview with film producer Steve York in Belgrade, that he first got involved in "strategic nonviolence" upon seeing the failure of military approaches to toppling dictators—especially in Myanmar, where he had been stationed as military attaché—and seeing the potential of Sharp's alternative approach. According to B. Raman, the former director of India's foreign intelligence agency, RAW, in a December 2001 paper published by his institute entitled, "The USA's National Endowment For Democracy (NED): An Update," Helvey "was an officer of the Defence Intelligence Agency of the Pentagon, who had served in Vietnam and, subsequently, as the US Defence Attache in Yangon, Myanmar (1983 to 85), during which he clandestinely organised the Myanmarese students to work behind Aung San Suu Kyi and in collaboration with Bo Mya's Karen insurgent group. . . . He also trained in Hong Kong the student leaders from Beijing in mass demonstration techniques which they were to subsequently use in the Tiananmen Square incident of June 1989" and "is now believed to be acting as an adviser to the Falun Gong, the religious sect of China, in similar civil disobedience techniques." Col. Helvey nominally retired from the army in 1991, but had been working with Albert Einstein and Soros long before then.[3]
And there are more:
As we shall see below, with such backing, Col. Helvey and his colleagues have created a series of youth movements including Otpor! in Serbia, Kmara! in Georgia, Pora! in Ukraine, and the like, which are already virally replicating other sects throughout the former Soviet Union, achieving in civilian form what had not been possible militarily in the 1980s. The groups are also spreading to Africa and South America.[ibid.]
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Funding
Between 2000 to 2004 they received some funding from:
• Arca Foundation
• California Community Foundation
• Greenville Foundation
• Mertz-Gilmore Foundation
• Miriam G. and Ira D. Wallach Foundation
Report on Activities 2000 to 2004 (pdf)
Between 1993 and 1999 they received funding from:
• Arca Foundation
• Burma Project of the Open Society Institute
• Compton Foundation
• C.S. Fund
• Ford Foundation
• Friedrich Naumann Stiftung
• Greenville Foundation
• International Republican Institute
• Joseph Rowntree Charitable Trust
• Joyce Mertz-Gilmore Foundation
• National Endowment for Democracy
• New York Friends Group
• Olof Palme International Centre
• Ploughshares Fund
• United States Institute for Peace
pdf
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作者:予白 留言时间:2009-06-01 13:45:52
顶田兄的二十年后话六四

人活在世上,大地对人有强大的吸引力,如果不奋力与之抗衡,膝盖就会弯曲,人就瘫软在地上。
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作者:小百合 留言时间:2009-06-01 11:03:00
如果你不同意这个建议,就请删除.
因为我也不知道会有什么麻烦出现?
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作者:小百合 留言时间:2009-06-01 09:28:42
田泥鳅博士:您好!
你的文章说出了大家的心理话.前些日子我曾建议在北京
建一个六四陵园.想想不会成为现实的?在这20年的纪念日
即将来临的时候,你说,可不可以在网上建立一个纪念陵园?
将来时机成熟的时候就建立在北京?

以你的技术和才华设计一个纪念碑?上面可以把知道的遇难
者的姓名陆续的写在上面,遇难者的家属或朋友知道的话也
可以把死者的姓名和单位登记写下来.而下面可以用笔名或
真名签名.表示大家,尤其是获得了六四血卡的人们都来签名
一下,表示我们大家对所有六四的死难者的追思和缅怀?

(仅供参考)
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