2006

I had not talked with you for a long time.
£ £ Recently, I thought of you occasionally and planned to give you a call in a few weeks in late December.
£ £ Last week I even mentioned to my brother that I would give you a call soon.
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£ £ I always assumed that I would see you many times either in ..., ... or ....
£ £ I imagined visiting you and you visiting me.
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£ £ You are still young, at your golden age.
£ £ You are tall and strong.
£ £ You have your unique manner and warmth, and friends love you.
£ £ You are a friend of my brother and were like my big brother.
£ £ In our teenage, you saw value in me and tried to take care of me.
£ £ As I grow up, I feel you as a dear special friend.
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£ £ I happened to stay up after midnight one night ago and suddenly received an email from you.
£ £ It was written and sent to friends by your wife, declaring your death the week before.
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£ £ I couldn¡¯t believe it. I felt it¡¯s like a joke.
£ £ I shivered for a moment and felt cold.
£ £ I talked to your wife on the phone, learning about the events surrounding your death.
£ £ I couldn¡¯t sleep.
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£ £ The next morning, I saw the note on my desk that I had written a week or so ago.
£ £ I saw your name on the note, along with the names of a few other friends that I plan to call.
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£ £ You keep coming to my mind.
£ £ I still cannot believe you no longer exist in this world.
£ £ You have so many years to come and to live.
£ £ I wish you could live your life till its natural end.
£ £ If money were able to have you back alive, I would pay whatever it costs even if it means I would have to spend the rest of my life in debt.
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£ £ It¡¯s hard to accept this as a fact.
£ £ It¡¯s a great sad regret that you just so immaturely died, leaving behind you your wife, your two-month-old son, and you parents who are visiting you, leaving behind you all of those who love and care about you.
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£ £ Life is given. Life is taken. The world reveals its ugly truth.
£ £ Life is never secure. We never have secure ground underneath our feet.
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£ £ Someday I¡¯ll visit your wife and son, either in China or Australia.
£ £ And we¡¯ll together remember you.
£ £ We know you didn¡¯t wanna die.
£ £ We know, and you know, the world is not rational.