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Once again, last time when I saw you, you said gently to me that you will “stick it out.” You did “stick it out”, for 14 years. It’s been 14 years since you kissed your little Dingmao good-bye, stepping on a road leading abroad, and never returned. Why, why should you leave homeland, why give up a job you loved so much, and come to a country of strangers to take the burden to start, to struggle, to survive? It was for your child, for your family, for the search of new dreams and hope.

你最後一次輕聲的對我說: “再挺-挺”. 這一挺, 就是十四年. 十四年前, 你吻別你的丁卯, 踏上這不歸之路. 為什麼要離別故土? 為什麼要放棄心愛的工作? 為什麼要來到這陌生的土地去承受這沉重的生活? 為了孩子, 為了家, 為了希望, 為了那永遠的追求.

You and I, among many of our sisters, all “stick it out”. We learn English, we learn to sell those little purses… step by step, little by little, with sweat and blood, we have all tried our best to “stick it out”. You did it. You did “stick it out”, day by day, watching Dingmao growing up, cooking dishes for Weixi, you smile from your heart. You have a cozy home, a warm family. Once you told me, for love, for family, you were learning to understand, to communicate, and to support; you had been trying all your best.

你和我, 還有許多的她, 就這麼挺着, 我們走進了英文班, 我們在那小小的皮包店叫買, …… 一滴汗, 一滴血, 就是為了這 “挺-挺”. 你挺過來了, 你每天看着丁卯長高, 你每天做着可口的飯菜給為熙, 你微笑着, 你有一個溫暖的家. 你曾對我說過, 為了愛, 為了家, 就要懂得理解, 懂得交流, 懂得支持, 你做了這一切.

When you were very ill, every time I visited you, I always heard your words: “stick it out”. You wanted stick it out, you would never give up. With all your love for Weixi, all your heart for Dingmao, You would never give up. You tried your best. Each time I visited you, I was deeply moved. Shen Yi, you were strong. You were a dedicated wife, a dedicated mother, and a friend I respected most.

在病魔纏身的時候, 每次你見到我, 總是說: “再挺-挺”. 你放不下為熙 - 那一片深沉的情, 你放不下丁卯 - 那一顆永恆的愛心. 你是一位堅強的女性, 你是一位奉獻的母親, 你是一位賢慧的妻子, 你是一位讓我感佩的朋友.

Now, you left us for the other world, Shen Yi, we all will miss you, forever miss you. Let’s drink one more cup together, for the final farewell; let’s walk with you for the last steps, to say our eternal good bye to you. Let the snow melt gently, gently into your heart; let the May breeze be gentle, when it will touch your hairs; let the green forest of Summer, forever kiss your smile; let the golden leaves of Fall, carefully cover your body warm.

沈意,西出陽關無故人, 讓我們再喝上一杯酒, 讓我們再走上一程路, 讓洛磯山的雪水緩緩流進你的心田, 讓五月的春風輕輕吹拂你的秀髮, 讓蔥鬱的杉樹林親吻你的微笑, 讓金色的秋葉柔柔蓋在你的身驅.

“Stick it out”, I know you would always say it to me. Let’s sing together for one more time, the song of the eternal life:

你永遠會對我說: “再挺-挺” , 讓我們一起詠唱那生命的永恆:

Tender is the time to die the last death

And the time for the first birth

Bright is the sun with virgin light

With no vast distance here

River and mountain reach the blue sky for life

With so many good-by kisses

The folks tongue smooth the dying bed of stone

Let the years be blown off by winds

Cast for the flying hawks

Let the bodies be held up by clouds

Handed to the blue heavens.

最後的死去和最初的誕生一樣

都是溫磬的時光

最後的晚霞和最初的晨曦一樣

都是太陽輝煌

迎接生命的時侯

這一方山水離藍天最近

送走生命的時侯

這裡的鄉親高高昂望

讓風吹散年華

灑給飛鷹

讓雲托起了身體

交給穹蒼

The assistance in Chinese-English translation by Mr. Yang Zhengji is gratefully acknowledged.

Source of the poem: “Sky Burial”, Album of Sister Drum.

沈意是我一位已故的摯友。