一九九四年春，我將在東大遼寧分院畢業了，面臨找工作的問題。我老姨委託她丈夫的姐姐（我叫她大姑）在瀋陽高中壓閥門廠給我找了份工作。我因為喜歡大姑的女兒陸鑫，就沒尋找別的工作。這時，我只在八年前見過陸鑫幾次，之後只知道她是這家工廠醫院的護士。她有個男朋友，但大姑和姑父都不同意。

六月的一天，媽媽從黑龍江東寧來看我，說帶我去看看那份工作。我跟着媽媽去到了高中壓閥門廠，工廠的基建處長向我介紹了這工作的情況。晚上，我跟着媽媽、老姨、大姑在工廠里溜達。她們讓我去路邊一個房子裡看看。

In the spring of 1994, I was about to graduate from the Liaoning Branch of Northeastern University and faced the issue of finding a job. My fifth aunt entrusted her husband's sister (I call her Aunt Lu) to find a job for me at the Shenyang High and Medium Pressure Valve Factory (SHMPV Factory). Because I liked Aunt Lu’s daughter Xin Lu, didn't look for another job. At this time, I had only met Xin Lu a few times eight years ago, and then I only knew that she was a nurse in this factory hospital. She had a boyfriend, but her parents Aunt Lu and uncle disagree.

One day in June, my mother came to see me from Dongning, Heilongjiang Province, and said she would take me to see the job. I followed my mother to the SHMPV Factory. The director of the factory’s infrastructure department introduced me to the work situation. In the evening, I walked around the factory with my mother, Fifth Aunt, and Aunt Lu. They asked me to check out a house on the roadside.

我推門看見了陸鑫。她本來站在窗邊，轉身做到了沙發上；可她的行為是當時瀋陽混混當中流行的一套動作。我大吃一驚，驚呆了，隨後緩和了，和他交談了半個小時。

我們出來後，她們逗陸鑫：“這麼長時間沒見過面了，這驚喜是個什麼感覺！” 陸鑫大聲抱怨：“驚喜！差點兒把我嚇死了！我從窗里看見他了，笑呵呵的，和以前一樣。他推門看見我，笑容變了，動作舉止都在變（注5.5）。我眼看着他變成了另一個人，可兇狠啦！眼睛裡放着凶光！好像似要殺了我似的。我被嚇呆了！過了一會兒，我說，‘二哥！不認識我了！’ 他聽見了，回答，‘啊！認識！’ 他又一點點兒地變回來了。”

I opened the door and saw Xin Lu. She was originally standing by the window but turned around and sat on the sofa. Her behavior was a popular move among Shenyang gangsters at the time. I was taken aback, stunned, then relented, and talked to him for half an hour.

After we came out, they teased Xin Lu: "Having not seen each other for so long, how does this surprise feel?" Xin Lu complained loudly: "Surprise! It almost scared me to death! I saw him from the window, He was smiling, just like before. He opened the door and saw me, his smile changed, and his movements and mannerisms were changing (annotation 5.5). I watched him become another man, but he was so fierce! There was a fierce light in his eyes! It seemed as if he was going to kill me. I was petrified! After a while, I said, 'Second brother! You don't recognize me anymore!?' He heard it and replied, 'Ah! I know you!' He spoke and was little by little transforming back."

注5.5，美國精神病手冊里有這方面的描述，我這種多重性格能在人前瞬間變化（如插圖所示5.5-4），看見的人會感覺毛骨悚然，很恐怖。寫完回憶錄後，才知道我有三個性格，一個膽小懦弱的小人；一個大明白，就是健談，自圓自說的那種。第三種性格殘酷邪惡，做過的許多事，讓我自己討厭自己。我的多重性格是第一章《娃娃婚約》中的嬰幼兒神經發育失調症造成的。三個性格就好像是三個不同的人，比如眼睛的大小不同，有不同的習慣、行為、智商等。現代的研究還發現，同一人，在一種性格中對某種東西過敏，當他在另一種性格時就可能不過敏。插圖5.5-5是墨西哥的雨神特拉洛克；頭頂的劈裂表示他有多重性格。

Annotation 5.5. This aspect is described in the American Psychiatric Manual. My kind of multiple personalities can change instantly in front of others (as shown in the illustration 5.5-4). People who see it will feel creepy and terrifying. After writing my memoirs, I realized that I have three personalities: one is a timid and cowardly villain; the other is a wise person who is talkative and self-explanatory. The third personality is cruel and evil and has done many affairs that make me hate myself. My multiple personalities are the result of an infantile neurodevelopmental disorder in the first chapter, “Children Marriage Contract”. The three personalities are like three different people, such as different eye sizes, different habits, behaviors, IQs, etc. Modern research has also found that the same person who is allergic to something in one personality may not be allergic to it in another personality. Illustration 5.5-5 shows Tlaloc, the Mexican god of rain; the cleft in his head indicates that he has multiple personalities.

我媽媽大笑着對大姑說： “幾年沒見，這陸鑫變得這麼能說。不過，我感覺她說話有點兒離譜！說瞎話不用草稿，是不是事先準備好的？”

大姑說：“事先，她不知道你們來了。她是看見咱們才知道的。”

媽媽感覺奇怪，說：“看來，陸鑫是受到了驚嚇！但陸鑫說的也不着邊兒呀！怎麼盧岩還能變呢！？”

大姑說：“陸鑫沒瞎說，她沒那個智慧。這是發生的事情！是咱們計劃的這個青梅竹馬的驚喜太大了！可把倆孩子嚇壞了！”

My mother laughingly said to Aunt Lu: "I haven't seen Xin Lu for a few years, and she has become so eloquent. However, I feel that her words are a bit outrageous! She does not need a draft to tell lies. Is she prepared in advance?"

Aunt Lu said, "Beforehand, she did not know that you had come. She only realized it when she saw us."

Mom felt strange and said, "It seems that Xin Lu was frightened! But what she said doesn't make sense! How come Luyan can still change!"

Aunt Lu said: "She is not talking nonsense; she doesn't have that wisdom. This is what happened! It was too much a surprise that we planned for this Childhood Sweetheart! They two both are horrified terribly."

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