2001年4月，我移民到了加拿大的多倫多，一邊學英語，一邊在肯德基打工。不久後，我結婚了，開始了新的生活。2002年3月，一家岩土工程師有限公司找到了我，作工程質量檢測的技術員。面試我的人說是在人才交流中心發現了我找工作的簡歷。

我上班沒多久，就有同事們議論我說，我在中國是個大家族的孩子，和父親吵架，就自己跑到加拿大了；我父親委託這家公司的所有者Victor，幫我安排了這份工作。有人對我說：加拿大可不是你這種人該來的地方，你該明白了，回去吧！或者說，你什麼時候回國呀！？我對這說法沒什麼感覺，就認為是他們搞錯人了。

In April 2001, I immigrated to Toronto, Canada, and worked at KFC while learning English. Shortly afterward, I got married and started a new life. In March 2002, I was approached by Soil Engineers Ltd, a geotechnical engineering company, to work as an engineering quality inspection technician. The person who interviewed me said that he had found my resume in a job exchange center looking for a job.

I hadn't been at work for long when some of my coworkers were talking about me saying that I was a child of a big family in China, and that I had run away to Canada on my own after a fight with my father; that my father had commissioned Victor, the owner of this company, to help me arrange this job. Someone said to me: Canada is not a place for people like you, it's time for you to realize that and go back! Or when are you going back to your country! I didn't feel anything about this statement and assumed that they had the wrong person.

9.2-2 謠言 Rumors

同事劉加力（Garry Liu），是一位來自台灣的工程師，幾次跟我說父子吵架不應該這樣。我回答，在大陸，我只是個普通農民家的孩子。

一次，劉加力對我生氣了，指責我不給爸爸打電話，還說：“你爸給你找工作，就表示他已經後悔了。怎麼地？你還想讓你爸給你道歉吶！那工作給你找的，你滿意不滿意的可不是問題所在。你爸他一個大陸人，在加拿大辦事能有多大能量！怎麼就這點事兒，我就跟你說不明白呢！”

My colleague Garry Liu, an engineer from Taiwan, told me several times that father-son quarrels should not be like this. I replied that in mainland China, I am just a child of an ordinary farmer's family.

Once, Garry CC. Liu got angry with me, accusing me of not calling my dad and saying, "The fact that your dad got you a job means that he already regrets it. What's wrong with that? You still want your dad to apologize to you! The job is for you, whether you are satisfied or not is not the issue. Your dad is a mainlander, he can't do much in Canada! That's the only thing I can't get through to you!"

我開始明白了，這是劉團長指使人在背後製造的謠言，對他說： “我回家就給他打電話。”

事後我想，這老頭子終於後悔了。可讓我難受的是，劉團長知道我喜歡劉健君，是因為不喜歡他，所以我不願意和劉健君交往。老頭子心裡明白，他得多難過！

I began to understand that this was a rumor created behind the scenes by Troupe Leader Liu's instructions, and said to him, “I'll call him when I get home.”

Afterwards I thought, this old man finally regretted it. But what makes me feel bad is that Troupe Leader Liu knows that I like his daughter Eve Liu, because I don't like him, so I don't want to go out with Eve Liu. The old man understood in his heart; how sad he had to be!

9.2-3 竊聽 Eavesdropping

一次，公司在每個員工工資支票的信封里放了一個通知，說有人監聽我們公司技術人員的電話，讓所有的員工不要使用公司的電話作為媒體來交流測量數據和商談質量評定。隨後經理在公司開會時說，我們也琢磨不出為什麼有人監聽我們技術人員的電話，但是總公司發現了這個問題。

當時，對此我沒在意。後來，我懷疑我家的電話被竊聽了。電話的聲音小，聲音不清晰，像似被串聯了許多電話。我更換了電話公司。開始還好，可不久後，電話的音質又變差了。隨後十來年，這一問題都糾纏着我。我沒辦法，只是心裡想，“我沒有秘密，讓你們聽去吧”。可是，我總感覺個人隱私被泄露了；這事對我覺思失調症（Schizophrenia）的形成和爆發有很大的作用。

At one point, the company put a notice in the envelope of each employee's paycheck saying that someone was listening in on our company's technicians' phone calls and that all employees should refrain from using the company's phones as a medium for exchanging measurement data and negotiating quality ratings. The manager then said at a company meeting that we couldn't figure out why someone was tapping our technicians' phones, but the home office found out about it.

At the time, this didn't bother me. Later, I suspected that my home phone was tapped. The phone's voice was small and unclear, like it was strung up for many calls. I changed phone companies. It was fine at first, but soon after, the sound quality of the phone got worse again. This problem haunted me for the next ten years or so. I had no choice but to think to myself, “I have no secrets, let you hear them”. However, I always felt that my privacy had been compromised; this played a big role in the development and outbreak of my Schizophrenia.

9.2-4 糊塗的爭吵 Confused Argument

一天在Mclaughlin Rd crossing Derry Rd 西北角的工地，忽然工地的經理和另外幾個人怒氣沖沖地來和我吵架，指責幾件我不知道的事。開始時，他們說我撒謊，還是很生氣。後來，他們看我的表情是既沒生氣也沒笑，是在認真地分析他們所說的事。他們幾個相互質疑說：“咱們是在和誰打架呢！？他們相互商量，結論是都是從XXX地方，那兩個中國人那裡聽來的，他們在騙我們。”幾個人憤憤地離開了。

注9.2-4，這種挑唆別人和我打架來改善我性格的作法，道理上和5.2節，9.3節，以及9.5節桫欏的作法相同。

One day at the site on the NW corner of Mclaughlin Rd and Derry Rd, suddenly the site manager and a couple of other guys came in angry and argued with me, accusing me of a couple of things I didn't know. At first, they said I was lying and still angry. Later, they looked at me with an expression of neither anger nor laughter and were seriously analyzing what they were saying. Several of them questioned each other and said: who we are fighting with! They discussed with each other and concluded that they had heard it all from XXX place, from those two Chinese, and that they were lying to us. They left angrily.

Note 9.2-4: This method of improving my personality by instigating others to fight with me is essentially the same as in Sections 5.2, 9.3, and 9.5.

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