I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. 我发现所有关于爱情的描述都是真的. "莎士比亚曾说“恋人总在旅程的终点相会” 真浪漫的想法. 虽然我从来没有过这种经验, 但是我相信莎翁有过. 我对爱情一向比别人想得更多, 也深切地相信爱情能改变人生. 莎士比亚也说：“爱情是盲目的” . 这一点我肯定是真的. 不知道为什么，对某些人来说, 爱情是渐渐消逝, 其他人则是完全失去爱情. 但是有些人能够轻易找到爱情. 就算只是一夜情. 当然还有另一种爱情, 最残酷的那一种, 足以让人痛不欲生, 那就是单恋, 我就是这方面的专家. 爱情故事通常讲的是两个人相爱, 但是像我们这种人呢？ 我们的故事很少被提起, 孤独地坠入爱河. 我们是单恋的苦主, 也是受诅咒的受害者, 更是没人疼没人爱的可怜虫, 就像找不到停车位的残障人士. 像我这样的一个女子, 我死心塌地单恋那个男人, 过了三年的痛苦人生, 我这一生最惨痛的日子, 耶诞节很难熬、过生日没人陪, 除夕只能放声大哭、狂吞镇静剂. 身陷在黑暗的枷锁中, 因为我无可救药的爱上一个男人, 却没得到相同的回报, 我光是看到他, 心脏就狂跳、喉咙干到无法吞咽, 全都是单相思的症状
这是片中Iris说的，我跟她一样，我的爱情也是cursed．很可怜，我积极努力地追求我的爱情，但是至今仍然颗粒无收．千百次地问我自己，是不是我的错，但是我真的不知道． 今天又是星期天，在办公室的楼下登记入门．一个门卫对另一个说：她每个周末或者公共假日都是第一个来办公室的．听了这个话我内心极其凄凉．我根本就不想周末来办公室，我其实最愿意在家里守着老公与孩子，与他们温馨地度过每一个团聚的日子．但是这个梦我什么时候能实现呢？我很怕我的人生就这样孤单而行. Why am l attracted to a person
l know isn't good?
为什么我老是爱错人？
l happen to know the answer to this.
Because you're hoping you're wrong,
我刚好知道答案
因为你祈求上苍是自己弄错了
and every time she does something
that tells you she's no good, you ignore it,
她对你坏，你故意忽视
and every time she comes through
and surprises you, she wins you over
她对你好，你就完全的死心塌地
and you lose that argument with yourself
that she's not for you.
完全没想到其实是她不适合你 I understand feeling as small
and as insignificant as humanly possible,
我了解那种渺小又微不足道的感受
and how it can actually ache in places
that you didn't know you had inside you,
就算遍体鳞伤也要故作坚强
and it doesn't matter
how many new haircuts you get
不管换了几个新发型
or gyms you join or how many glasses of
chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends,
或是去健身或是和姊妹淘喝白酒
you still go to bed every night
going over every detail,
日日夜夜都仍在回想着每个细节
and wonder what you did wrong
or how you could have misunderstood.
纳闷自己到底哪里错了，哪里误解了
And how in the hell, for that brief moment,
you could think that you were that happy?
最后自问怎么会把短暂的欢愉
错当成永久的快乐
And sometimes you can even
convince yourself that he'll see the light
有时候会说服自己
and show up at your door.
他会想清楚回来的
(SlGHS)
And after all that,
however long all that may be,
经历过这一切后
you'll go somewhere new
人还是会重新开始
and you'll meet people
who make you feel worthwhile again,
再遇到值得付出的人
and little pieces of your soul
will finally come back.
然后一点一点地重拾自信
And all that fuzzy stuff,
而那些模糊的回忆
those years of your life that you wasted,
那么多年浪费掉的人生
that will eventually begin to fade.
终究会开始消逝
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