After the speeches, Mao retired to the refreshment and rest area at the rear of the tower. I followed to see what would happen. He sat down to chat with Jonas Savimbi, the Angolan rebel leader, and I overheard Savimbi compliment Mao on the changes the Cultural Revolution was bringing to China. "I have done nothing. It isn't me, it's them," Mao said, waving his hand toward the square. "They do it all. All I have done personally is to write a few poems." He looked bluff, hearty, much the man in charge.
谷歌同學一秒鐘完成譯文：
講話結束後，毛澤東回到塔後的茶點和休息區。 我跟着看看會 發生什麼。 他坐下來與安哥拉叛軍領袖喬納斯·薩文比聊天， 我無意中聽到薩文比稱讚毛澤東對文革給中國帶來的變化。 “我什麼都沒做。不是我，是他們，”毛說，朝廣場揮了揮手。 “他們什麼都做。我個人所做的就是寫幾首詩。” 他看起來 很虛張聲勢，熱情洋溢，很像當權者。
A few minutes later, I noticed that Mao had not yet returned to the parapet. I strolled back to the rest area and what I saw startled me. Mao was sitting in one of the chairs that faced west, alone and looking miserable. His face was charged with such hatred and despair that I stopped where I was. I was standing eight or ten yards away from him, with only a ceremonial armed guard between us. He looked at me without seeing me. His face was puffy -puffy eyes, puffy cheeks, puffy skin. He looked old, but that wasn't what held me in amazement. It was the look of abject despair, something I had never for an instant seen cross his face before. Why? What was it about? What was causing his distress? Was it that in his mid-seventies he was seeing the danger that his empire might be torn apart by the torrent he had unleashed and hurled against his foes? Whatever it was, it was more than enough to frighten me out of any idea of approaching and speaking with him.
幾分鐘後，我注意到毛還沒有回到欄杆上。 我漫步回到休息區， 眼前的景象讓我大吃一驚。 毛獨自一人坐在一張朝西的椅子上， 看上去很痛苦。 他的臉上充滿了仇恨和絕望，我停在原地。 我站在離他7到9米遠的地方，我們之間只有一個儀式性的武裝 警衛。他看着我，卻視而不見我。 他的臉是浮腫的 —— 浮腫的眼睛，浮腫的臉頰，浮腫的皮膚。 他看起來很老，但這 並不是讓我驚訝的原因。那是一種極度絕望的神情，這是我以前 從未在他臉上看到過的。為什麼？ 這是關於什麼的？ 是什麼 造成了他的苦惱？ 是不是在他七十多歲的時候就看到了他的帝國 可能會被他釋放並投向敵人的洪流撕裂的危險？ 不管是什麼， 這足以讓我害怕走上前去與他交談。
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