我在婚礼上哭了，是因为这个婚姻会让您感到我归属了另一个女人，我和您会疏远、不能象从前那样亲密无间，好像有种无形的力把我从您那儿拽走，这不是我所要的。

It’s not true that I treated Kassie’s family better than my own. No other family can get closer to me than Mom’s. I will always be your son and your friend. I hate myself sometimes for what I have done that hurt you…. I love you Mom. I hope you understand it is not easy to get things straight at the same time.

我并不会因为进了Kassie家就“乐不思蜀”。我永远都是您的儿子和朋友。

我恨自己曾经做过让您伤心的事…. 我是爱您的，只是同时处理某些关系对我不是件容易事。

Please don’t feel bad for what you’ve said that hurt. You are the best Mom anybody longs for. I should say I’m the luckiest kid on this plant. Let all the past be past and let’s move on forward together......you are still my friend. How could I let my closest friend go because I have a wife? I really hope you to come and see me at Lemoore CA......

千万不要为您曾对我说过不忠听的话而难过。您是世上求之不得的最棒的母亲，我是星球上最幸运的孩子。让我们忘记过去、携手向前，还象从前一样做朋友。我怎么会让自己最亲近的朋友随着我进入婚姻就溜走了呢？我真希望您到我加州Lemoore的家来看我。

For some reason I cried hard when I thought about you. I’m scared and happy for you at the same time. I’m scared to lose you in my life, I know one day I will. I’m happy for you because you are leaving a ungraceful life and will start a new one. I don’t know how many years, months, weeks, days, minutes and seconds........all I know is you did all these not because you enjoyed it or wanted to but because you had no choice. You did all these for me. You would lose your own self-esteem and exchange a better chance in life for me. No matter how many thanks I’d say to you or how many flowers I’d send you, nothing ever can compare with the great sacrifice you’ve made all those years. But I still want to thank you for never giving me up, always loving me and being there for me. I wish I can turn your life into a book and let everybody know how lucky I am to have a mother like you. You are not verbally and physically love your child; you give your soul and your heart and your life to prove your love. I've never told you about this Mom: you are the heroine in my eyes, and the greatest inspiration of my life..........When you read this email please don’t cry again. You know how much I love you and how much I’ve wanted to be by your side.....

我哭了，那是悲喜交加。我怕有一天会失去您，我知道总有一天会的；我为您高兴，因为您就要重新开始新的生活。不知过了多少年多少月，多少个分分秒秒，您在那里度过每一天，不是因为喜欢而是因为无奈。这一切都是为了我，为我有更好的生活前景和机会。无论我说多少感激的话，送多少鲜花给您，也报答不了您为我所作的万分之一。我尤其要感谢的是您从不放弃我、您的爱和您的支持。我希望自己能写一本关于您的书，让天下所有人知道，有这样的妈妈我多么地幸运。您不是用语言去爱孩子，而是用心、用生命。我从来没对您说起，您是我心目中最伟大的英雄，是激励我一生最大的动力….读到我的邮件可别再哭了。 您该知道我有多么爱您、我会多么坚定地站在您的一边…

Still remember when I was little I followed you wherever you were going? I wish I could never grow up so I could always follow you around on streets, holding all the bags for you. I wish when you were sick sometimes so I could make food for you or ride bike to the street corner to buy the staff you loved to eat, and sit on the bed next to you for your stories or just watching you. I remember you always sent me to free market for hot buns. You had your favorite crispy covers and I had the rest of it. See I still remember all those things. I wish I could turn the time backward all over again because I enjoy every minute being with you. Well Mom you get my point.........

Love you Mom!
Your son       Yiming

您还记得我小时候做您的“跟屁虫”吗？真希望自己永远长不大，那样就可以总跟着您逛街、为您提包；还希望您有时生病，这样我便有机会为您端饭，骑车到街边买您爱吃的东西，然后坐在床边陪着您，听您说话，或者就干脆观赏您。我记得您常常让我到自由市场买烧饼。您喜欢吃外边的脆皮，剩下的瓤都归我。瞧，这些事我没忘吧？

多希望时光倒转我们重来一遍，跟您在一起总是那么快乐。行了妈妈，您知道我的意思了。

爱您的儿子  一鸣