In the spring of 2014, I finished writing the Four Cruxes in English, the chapter 13 to 16 of this book in its infancy, but there was no place to publish them, and they were poorly written. But I learned a lot about Buddhism and laid the foundation for later study and enlightenment.
I felt like my schizophrenia was cured and ready to work. The previous years of crazy experiences made me realize the principle that environments are escalatory by the subjective heart (i.e., mind). Karma is the accumulation of bodily orally and intentionally behavioral habits, is created by heart, and environments changes along karma. Because of heart with the maculate and immaculateness, environments are insufficient and sufficient. If the contaminated heart is detained by karma, then the environment is not sufficient. Immaculate heart with nothing to worry and to cling to, then its environment along heart fulfills each wish by contentment. The sky sees a place of treasures and splendor, but the fish sees it as a ruined house; the man sees clear and cool water, but the ghost sees a river of pus and fire, all because of the differences in karmic causes.
I recalled and went back to visit the places where I lived and worked since I came to Canada, and I found that the people there were the same as they were when I first came to Canada, they still had the same expressions, the same behaviors, and the same way of working. I realized: the world hadn't changed, I had changed. So how do I change back? I must cure my mental illness, otherwise the physical illnesses caused by my mental illnesses will become more and more serious.
In May 2014, I went to work for Thurber Engineering Ltd. Within a few days, I heard that the job was contacted to me by my former Davroc boss, Sal Fasullo. After a month, some of the site scenes touched me， occasionally I felt my stomach moving everywhere， sometimes I felt stomach-ache. These made me feel that the resolution of the feud with Eve Liu was imminent. At work and in life, I again thought that Eve Liu is plotting behind my back.
My emotions became very unstable, I laughed when I remembered happy things in the past and shed tears when I thought of sad things in the past. One day, in the company's laboratory, I was testing material samples when a colleague suddenly and excitedly jumped and ran across my back from a high place. I was shocked, so frightened that my hair stood on end and my speaking voice changed. In that moment of surprise, it was as if I heard Troupe Leader Liu talking about me in the other room, introducing others to what I was thinking. I recalled the sight of the first chapter of this book, “Children Marriage Contract”, when I was sixteen months of age, when Troupe Leader Liu blindfolded me, and I recalled the betrothal of Eve Liu and me at that time.
After recalling what happened before I was three years old, I realized the predestined task left to me by Troupe Leader Liu, which was to complete the Experiment Report. See 4.5 Newspaper News of Real-Life Medical Experiments for the contents of the experiment. This is called “Fate Through” in Buddhism. It is difficult because when a person is about three years old, with the formation of language ability, the memory pattern and the memory extraction pattern change, and no normal person can recall events before the age of three; but it is not uncommon to recall events before the age of three among psychiatric patients.
Later, I carefully recognized it and felt that the voice was not that of Troupe Leader Liu. As Uncle Dragon said at the time, I had indeed been looking for Troupe Leader Liu since I was a child. When I was six or seven years old, I thought that one of my grandmother's nephews was Troupe Leader Liu and that the voice I heard was his. When I grew into my teens, I realized that the person I was looking for was not him. At that time, I don't know why, but I just felt like I was looking for someone. Later, I was bent on finding a great fortune-teller in Shenyang and to become his disciple. in 1996, I talked to Eve Liu about Transcendent Ferry, and through her description of her father, I found the person I was looking for, and that was her father (Troupe Leader Liu). But at that time, I did not remember the fact that I was engaged to her when I was 16 months old. It was because of this love affair that I decided to give up Troupe Leader Liu. I didn't even know why I was looking for someone, who I was looking for, and how did I know that her father was the person I was looking for? My search for her father was just an unconscious feeling of interest. From my conversation with Eve Liu (see Sections 7.7 to 7.11), I knew that her father knew Buddhism. Except for her father, I had never met anyone who knew the laws of nature since I was a child.
In June 2014, I decided to make my fourth special trip back to China to look for Eve Liu. I talked to my friend Xiao Hanjie about 1996-1997, when I was at Northeastern University (NEU; see Section 8.4). At that time, he was a teacher in the Mechanical Department of NEU. He was surprised and said, "Geez! That's when I heard that there were people Polishing Man (Annotation 2) there in your graduate dormitory. It's been ten years, and I didn't even know it that the person being polished is you! Your psychosis like no others! If you go back, find those people, and make things clear, you'll be cured."
Annotation 2, “Polishing Man” is the northeastern Chinese dialect of this “reincarnation practice”, the southern Chinese dialect calls this as “Scarabs Farming”, Southeast Asian call “Descending Head”. What is the Scarabs Farming? Scarabs Farming means raising scarabs, to farm Dung Beatles. Scarabs commonly known as dung beetles, as shown in Figures 10.5-2-1, -2, -3 and -4. This article explains “Scarabs Farming” using the ancient Egyptian culture as an example.
As shown in Figure 4, the two bottles held in the hands of Eve, the Egyptian mother of all livings, represent the entire teachings of ancient Egyptian. The bottle on the left contains all the knowledge of the Book of Life, which Eve wrote herself. The bottle on the right represents the Book of Death, which was written by Adam. Adam is a Lion King, a Blue Genie, and a Shakyamuni. What does the Book of Death say? The top of Eve's head shows it: she crushed Lion King (i.e., Adam) with a dung beetle and put him in a bottle (as shown in the container at the top right of the right bottle).
It was Eve who traumatized Adam with her “500 Majesties 108,000 Charms” (see section 16.2), and Adam fell into gastrointestinal ulcer, often had stomach pains. The ancient Egyptians used the dung beetle to represent the gastrointestinal ulcer that Adam suffered from. So, what's the deal with Adam being in a bottle? Adam was traumatized by Goddess Eve, suffered a breathing disorder, as if he was inside an airtight container, couldn't breathe! So, the blue genie Adam surrendered to Eve and her father, the Sun God, became 8 Philosopher-Stone Giants to defend Egyptian Sun God.
What is “Descending Head”? It means to low down heart to become a follower. Such as above, Sun God used Scarab (i.e., gastrointestinal ulcer) tamed Adam, made him a disciple. Illustration 10.5-2, right, shows several Southeast Asian movies about “Descending Head”.
After I returned to my parents' home in Shenyang, my mother and sister helped me contact Principal Wang of the Shenyang Artillery Academy, who had just stepped down. He said that the teacher I was talking about, Mr. Huang, the person who introduced me to Liu Jianjun in Chapter 7, had long since emigrated to Canada, and that he had long since passed away. Principal Wang said that before their school, there was only one principal surnamed Liu; the principal I mentioned (i.e., Troupe Leader Liu) did not match the Principal Liu of their school. He was a senior cadre, and the situation did not match, so he could not divulge the information. He also said that Principal Liu had passed away a long time ago, and he had not heard that his daughter had received a full scholarship to study for a doctorate in the United States. He has been at this school for more than thirty years, and if there is such a thing, he should have heard about it. Principal Wang also said that I had been deceived and that someone else had impersonated their Principal Liu.
I approached a few other people, but the affair I was doing was not successful, and I was discouraged again, returned empty-handed. When I came back to Toronto, I wrote my memoirs and posted them on the Internet, thinking that if my story spread out, Eve Liu would have found me. Principal Wang said I had been cheated. I carefully recalled Eve Liu's words and actions. When I was with her, we talked once about how medical students are bold, not afraid of blood, not afraid of dissecting the dead. She said that we were not afraid of dead bodies, and joked, "We used to go to the cafeteria to get food, and we all went through the lab, which was close by. There was a sample of a dead person (I think it was a corpse soaked in formalin solution) in the lab; the person's name was XXX (the corpse person's name in life). While walking through the lab, YYY used to visit him. Once she ran over to me and said, “Look how nice the other XXX is, he doesn't need to cut his hair and shave, he's always so sharp!” Eve Liu Jianjun said, imitating a man shaving. I didn't react and looked at her and asked, to which she replied, “I'm imitating you men shaving! Doesn't it look like that?” She was scaring me; it was a medical student's joke.
When I talked to her, I found that she was extremely quick in thinking, spoke clearly in words and phrases, and the speed of semantic expression did not sound fast or slow, but when three or five sentences were put together, the meaning was expressed completely and clearly; she was a natural speaker. I also asked her for advice on writing a master's thesis, and I judged from her answer that she must have written a master's thesis. I also found out from her way of talking that she had studied the GRE, and I personally think that the way of writing in the GRE has a great influence on the way of thinking of the (Chinese) people, just as a few books of classical literature have shaped the style of language expression of the Chinese people.
I think that she must be an excellent master's graduate and she doesn't need to resort to cheating to find a boyfriend. With me, what happened is what happened, I am trying to treat my mental illness, cheating, or not cheating is not the issue.
I remembered that in Chapter 2, when Uncle Dragon told me the story, he said that among the medicines given to Constant Fair by Ninth Uncle (see section 2.3 Peach Flower Catastrophe), there was a medicine whose main ingredient was a white stone. I went to the Liaoning Traditional Chinese Medicine Hospital and found a professorial Chinese medicine doctor.
The female professor, in her forties, after listening to my description of my illness and my inquiry about the Chinese medicine that was mostly stones, she laughed and said, "That's an ancient formula called Shenling Baizhu San (see illustration 10.5-3), which is just right for your illness. There are no stones in the medicine though, it's just a story people hear and say that. There is an ingredient inside that is hard to dissolve in water, settles, and tastes like what looks like stone powder." This provided the basis for my conviction that that Peach Flower Catastrophe was not an ordinary one and proved that much of my memories were valid.
When I was writing my memoirs, I noticed that in the winter of 1996, which is section 8.3 of the book, when Teacher Huang was talking about Troupe Leader Liu's plan to facilitate the marriage of Eve Liu and me, he helped me to envision my future by mentioning Principal Wang, above, who was a large man and the organization minister of the Shenyang Artillery Academy at the time. When I talked to Principal Wang, he introduced himself by saying, "Back in 1996, I was the Minister of Organization, and I was the one who contacted them when they went to Northeastern University for graduate school." This is the same as what Teacher Huang told me at that time. Moreover, Teacher Huang said that the three or four successors to the principal behind him included this principal Wang whom I had met. This is exactly the way Troupe Leader Liu does things.
Teacher Huang immigrated to Canada, which corresponds to the strange things I experienced in the past in the previous section 9.3, " Triads Help Me Fight". In other words, Teacher Huang was behind those strange events.
Conclusion, I was one of the boys in the boy group in section 4.5 “Newspaper News of Real-Life Medical Experiment”; and in the fall of 1996, in section 8.2 "Death with Eyes Open", was ultimately chosen by Troupe Leader Liu to be the boy in the experiment.