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【学习园地 英语精读】
Coming home from school that dark winter\'s day so long ago, I was
filled with anticipation. I had a new issue of my favorite sports magazine
tucked under my arm, and the house to myself. Dad was at work, my sis-
ter was away, and Mother wouldn\'t be home from her new job for an hour.
5 I bounded up the steps, burst into the living room and lipped on a light.
I was shocked into stillness by what I saw. Mother, pulled into a tight
ball with her face in her hands, sat at the far end of the couch.She was
crying. I had never seen her cry.
I approached cautiously and touched her shoulder. \"Mother?\" I said.
10 \"What\'s happened?\"
She took a long breath and managed a weak smile. \"It\'s nothing, real-
ly. Nothing important. Just that I\'m going to lose this new job. I can\'t
type fast enough. \"
\"But you\'ve only been there three days, \"I said. \"You\'ll catch on. \"I
15 was repeating a line she had spoken to me a hundred times when I was hav-
ing trouble learning or doing something important to me.
\"No, \"she said sadly. \"I always said I could do anything I set my mind
to, and I still think I can in most things. But I can\'t do this.\"
I felt helpless and out of place. At age 16 I still assumed Mother could
20 do anything. Some years before, when we sold our ranch, and moved to
town, Mother had decided to open a day nursery. She had had no training,
but that didn\'t stand in her way. She sent away for correspondence courses
in child care,did the lessons and in six months formally qualified herself for
the task. It wasn\'t long before she had a full enrollment and a waiting list.
25 I accepted all this as a perfectly normal instance of Mother\'s ability.
But neither the nursery nor the motel my parents bought later had pro-
vided enough income to send my sister and me to college. In two years I
would be ready for college. In three more my sister would want to go.
Time was running out, and Mother was frantic for ways to save money. It
30 was clear that Dad could do no more than he was doing already -- farming
80 acres in addition to holding a fulltime job.
A few months after we\'d sold the motel, Mother arrived home with a
used typewriter. It skipped between certain letters and the keyboard was
soft. At dinner that night I pronounced the machine a \"piece of junk.\"
35 \"That\'s all we can afford, \"Mother said. \"It\'s good enough to learn
on. \"And from that day on,as soon as the table was cleared and the dishes
were done, Mother would disappear into her sewing room to practice. The
slow tap, tap, tap went on some, nights until midnight.
It was nearly Christmas when I heard Mother got a job at the radio
40 station. I was not the least bit surprised, or impressed. But she was
ecstatic.
Monday, after her first day at work, I could see that the excitement
was gone. Mother looked tired and drawn. I responded by ignoring her.
Tuesday, Dad made dinner and cleaned the kitchen. Mother stayed in
45 her sewing room, practicing. \"Is Mother all right? \"I asked Dad.
\"She\'s having a little trouble with her typing, \"he said.\"She needs to
practice. I think she\'d appreciate it if we all helped out a bit more.\"
\"I already do a lot, \"I said, immediately on guard.
\"I know you do, \"Dad said evenly. \"And you may have to do more.
50 You might just remember that she is working primarily so you can go to
college. \"
I honestly didn\'t care.I wished she would just forget the whole thing.
My shock and embarrassment at finding Mother in tears on Wednesday
was a perfect index of how little I understood the pressures on her.Sitting
55 beside her on the couch, I began very slowly to understand.
\"I guess we all have to fail sometime, \"Mother said quietly. I could
sense her pain and the tension of holding back the strong emotions that
were interrupted by my arrival. Suddenly, something inside me turned.
I reached out and put my arms around her.
60 She broke then. She put her face against my shoulder and sobbed. I
held her close and didn\'t try to talk. I knew I was doing what I should,
what I could, and that it was enough. In that moment, feeling Mother\'s
back racked with emotion,I understood for the first time her vulnerability.
She was still my mother,but she was something more: a person like me,
65 capable of fear and hurt and failure.I could feel her pain as she must have
felt mine on a thousand occasions when I had sought comfort in her
arms.
A week later Mother took a job selling dry goods at half the salary
radio station had offered. \"It\'s a job I can do, \"she said simply. But the
evening practice sessions on the old green typewriter continued. I had a
70 very different feeling now when I passed her door at night and heard her
tapping away. I knew there was something more going on in there than a
woman learning to type.
When I left for college two years later,Mother had an office job with
better pay and more responsibility. I have to believe that in some strange
75 way she learned as much from her moment of defeat as I did,because
several years later,when I had finished school and proudly accepted a job
as a newspaper reporter; she had already been a journalist with our
hometown paper for six months.
The old green typewriter sits in my office now, unrepaired. It is a me-
80 mento, but what it recalls for me is not quite what it recalled for Mother.
When I\'m having trouble with a story and think about giving up or when I
start to feel sorry for myself and think things should be easier for me, I
roll a piece of pape into that cranky old machine and type, word by
painful word, just the way Mother did. What I remember then is not her
85 failure; but her courage, the courage to go ahead.
It\'s the best memento anyone ever gave me.
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anticipation/ n. expectation
anticipate/ vt.
tuck / vt. put or push into a desired convenient
position so as to hold tightly; draw
together into a small space 塞(进);卷(起)
bound /vi. move along quickly by jumping or leaping
move- ments 跳跃
flip /v. turn or move quickly or with a jerk
ad. firmly, closely
couch / n. a long comfortable seat with a back and
arms on which more than one person may
sit; sofa 长沙发椅
ranch / n. a very large farm for raising horses,
cattle or sheep 大牧场,大农场
corresponderice/ n. the act of exchanging letters 通信
correspondence course/ n. an educational course in which instructions
and work are exchanged between the teacher
and student by post 函授课程
enrol(1)ment / n. the number of people who have registered
them- selves as members of a school, a
program, etc. ;registering 注册人数;
注册,登记
enrol(l) v. 注册,登记
frantic / a. wildly anxious, afraid, happy; etc.
acre / n. 英亩
tap/ n a short light blow 轻叩
ecstatic / a. marked by a state of overwhelming
emotion, esp. great joy 欣喜若狂的
drawn /a. (of the face) looking very tired or
worned or tense 憔悴的;紧张的
evenly/ ad. calmly, peacefully
even/ a.
primarily
praimarali/ ad. mainly; chiefly
embarrassment/ n. a feeling of shyness, shame or guilt
index / n. sign or indication 指数,指标
rack / vt. shake violently 猛力摇动
vulnerability/n. being liable to be damaged or hurt 易受
伤的,脆弱性
vulnerable /a.
dry goods (AmE) cloth, ribbons, laces, curtains
and similar textile fabrics 织物类商品
session / n. a meeting or period of time devoted to
a particu- lar activity 会议;(从事某项
活动的)一段时间
journalist/ n. a person whose profession is writing
for, edit- ing, or publishing newspapers
or magazines, a reporter 新闻工作者;记者
memento / n. sth. which reminds one of a holiday, a
friend, etc. 纪念品
cranky / a. (of a machine) shaky; malfunctioning
不稳的;有毛病的
Phrase.s & Expressions
have sth. to oneself have sth. for one\'s own private use
at work working; operating
catch on (to) (informal) learn; understand 学会，懂得
set one\'s mind to (or on) pull all one\'s efforts into doing (sth.)
决心做
stand/be in sb\'s way be in a position to delay or prevent someone
from his in- tended actions 阻碍,妨碍
send away for request (sth.) or order (goods) to be sent
by post 函索
run out come to an end ; be used up 到期;用完,耗尽
in addition (to) besides; as well (as)
help out give help; help (sb.) at a time of need
帮助;帮助(某人)摆脱困境
on guard ready to defend or protect; watchful 警惕
提防
in tears ciying
hold back control; make (sth.) stay in place 抑制,阻止
go on take place or happen
go ahead make progress; advance
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