“Physics isn't the most important thing. Love is.” -- Richard Feynman
“The first principle is that you must not fool yourself — and you are the easiest person to fool.”-- Richard Feynman
“I would rather have questions that can't be answered than answers that can't be questioned.” -- Richard Feynman
“Religion is a culture of faith; science is a culture of doubt.” -- Richard Feynman
“I'm smart enough to know that I'm dumb.” -- Richard Feynman
Richard Feynman was an amazing character mastering physics, thinking, life, and as we shall soon see, love. Richard and Arline Greenbaum were soul mates. They were a perfect symbiotic pair, each completing the other. They shared the love we all seek.
Richard Feynman’s Love Letter to His Wife, Sixteen Months After Her Death。
October 17, 1946
I adore you, sweetheart.
I know how much you like to hear that — but I don’t only write it because you like it — I write it because it makes me warm all over inside to write it to you.
It is such a terribly long time since I last wrote to you — almost two years but I know you’ll excuse me because you understand how I am, stubborn and realistic; and I thought there was no sense to writing.
But now I know my darling wife that it is right to do what I have delayed in doing, and that I have done so much in the past. I want to tell you I love you. I want to love you. I always will love you.
I find it hard to understand in my mind what it means to love you after you are dead — but I still want to comfort and take care of you — and I want you to love me and care for me. I want to have problems to discuss with you — I want to do little projects with you. I never thought until just now that we can do that. What should we do. We started to learn to make clothes together — or learn Chinese — or getting a movie projector. Can’t I do something now? No. I am alone without you and you were the “idea-woman” and general instigator of all our wild adventures.
When you were sick you worried because you could not give me something that you wanted to and thought I needed. You needn’t have worried. Just as I told you then there was no real need because I loved you in so many ways so much. And now it is clearly even more true — you can give me nothing now yet I love you so that you stand in my way of loving anyone else — but I want you to stand there. You, dead, are so much better than anyone else alive.
I know you will assure me that I am foolish and that you want me to have full happiness and don’t want to be in my way. I’ll bet you are surprised that I don’t even have a girlfriend (except you, sweetheart) after two years. But you can’t help it, darling, nor can I — I don’t understand it, for I have met many girls and very nice ones and I don’t want to remain alone — but in two or three meetings they all seem ashes. You only are left to me. You are real.
My darling wife, I do adore you.
I love my wife. My wife is dead.
PS Please excuse my not mailing this — but I don’t know your new address.
回到本文开头的内容，虚拟世界和物理世界都要继续发展，也要协调。但是人的mind真的能calm和ready？ 如果没有最高价值层面的绝对和一致，人的mind如何才能calm和ready呢? 我想新的全球化模式和路径，也就是reset的计划目的是有一个sub计划的，那就是用高科技完全管控人， 那样人calm也好，不能ready也好，就无关紧要了。网路upgrade每个人的疫苗，就像微软操作系统的病毒patch，calm or no， ready or not, not a control problem at all.
好，现在我来谈谈这篇的主题。 我对左的真正great cause GC从来就是敬仰的，要是世界真是那样，那该多好。我讨厌的是fake左。无论是极左，中左，还是偏左，fake太多。我认为是理想主义信念作怪，而真实的人类历史证明绝大多数理想主义者，当理想不能实现的时候，也就是心想事不成的时候，都不能控制自己，反而都会是给自己和别人create a hell, 我认为原因是不能认识自己的本性从来没变，想的和实际自己能做的从来就不匹配，也控制不住自己，因而是fake. 左的理念对个人自己要求自己是一回事，甚至是伟大的，但是越过一个边界，嫁接到一个集体，social，国家，就会是灾难。这里面的本质问题是，不信上帝，相信自己，相信自己崇拜的领袖，那么出现矛盾，到底谁应该听谁的呢？
我经常建议读读陀斯涅夫斯基的小说，我认为陀同学对杀死上帝后人会怎样的洞察，没有人比他更深刻。 他的结论，杀死上帝，人的道德就没有了anchor，人没有了敬畏， 在最高的道德价值层面，nothing matters，也就是相对辨证灵活的。这当然是西方文化语境，我认为是相通的。我的博文经常写上帝死了是个比喻，是指人的最高层面的价值和道德是先验的，因而是绝对的。人不需要等到被偷以后才决定自己是不是也要偷，不偷就是不偷， 连中国还有君子有所为有所不为。在道德层面，相信自己，相信领袖，相信先验是每个人的自由选择，说左容易fake是指左在这个最高价值层面的选择是灵活，辩证，相信自己，相信领袖，有人还说是相信科学理性实证。对相信科学实证的人，我顺便问一下，科学实证结果没出来之前呢？ 你相信什么？如果对人的大脑意识了解深刻，就会知道左为什么会是fake多，在漫长的人类历史中，理想主义带来的是什么呢？不信上帝，相信个人，那么希特勒，毛泽东等等也是啊，奥巴马之类还double down既信上帝，也信个人。Isn't that a fake？
不信上帝，fake就停不下来。左最致命的就是不知道when和where to stop。我多次指出西方的左和共产主义是同宗兄弟，仅仅是手段方法不同的两兄弟之间的竞争，都不知道停，理想目标是一样的。那么灾难就会是这样一个问题，人的本性到底会不会变和人到底能不能控制自己的本性？选择相信人的本性会变是fake源头，选择相信人自己可以控制自己的本性，要么是无知，没什么经历，要么是骗，包括骗自己，左fake大流行的根源。信上帝，相信人都是贪婪有罪的，认识到人的所谓理想只是人的贪婪的自我语言美化的需要，不相信人的本性会变才能true to self。否则大家应该学雷锋。对了，学雷锋这个例子肯定是fake的典型，那么西方的左提倡的那些例子就不是fake了？what makes it different?
其中有一段：“So I have a lot of enemies out there. This may be the last time you’ll see me for a while. A lot of very, very rich enemies, but they are not happy with what I’m doing. But I figure we have one chance to do it, and no other President is going to do what I do. No other President would do a favored nations, a rebate, a buy from other nations at much less cost. Nobody. And there are a lot of unhappy people, and they’re very rich people, and they’re very unhappy.”