最近在没完没了的忙找新的住处。 由于自己特殊的寄宿状况，本来周末两天就紧得没有一点可伸缩的时间。近来连续几个星期我都跟着孩子他爸跑远程去找新住处。结果是，几次周日教会都去不了，只能在家里看一会儿基督信仰的电视节目。这个双节周六，我们又出去跑了大半天，周日我想不管怎样我都要去教会。无论是教会里的牧师还是电视上的牧师，有一点很一致，他们都会问：什么是你生命和生活中最重要的？日常生活中你究竟把什么摆在首位？是那会过去的东西，还是那永恒的东西？ 前几天我整理信箱，无意中发现了几年前我写给孩子他爸的一封电邮。里面竟然是一道遗嘱。遗嘱不为钱不为利，而是请他爸设法帮我维持我的英文信仰网站：lovemanforgod.com。我那时的信仰是多么虔诚、热忱和坚定啊！（没想到不久后我自己终止了那个网站。） 几年过去了，人生的诸多曲折经历，生活的各种压力、忙碌以及忙于自己的各种追求，我的灵命似乎在降低。有一点我很清楚，我必须坚持去教会。那是唯一一点我能在兄弟姐妹中间接近神，活在神的世界里的时光。每次去，我都像洗了一次身心的澡，感觉清新，感觉亲切，感觉我回到神的怀抱。 这个双节礼拜天我去了教会，有了许多的感想，于是我就先和小儿分享。然后我把它写了下来，打算寄到孩子们的邮箱去： The recent couple of years I have been tried very hard to pursue my literature dreams and goals. I pray for God’s guidance and help. But sometimes I would feel that things do not always make sense to me; that it is indeed my bloody efforts and work give me the success. But in the bottom of my heart I know that’s not true, and by faith I always hold on to the faith and always believe that my God is a living God and He is always at work to help. The scripture says: “Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the Love of the Father is not in him. For anything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does – comes not from the Father but the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God live forever. “(1 John 2:15-17) Now sons, By the same token, I would like to say: Do not hate the world. If anyone hates the world the love of God is not in him. Please note the “world” I refer here is different from what Apostle John was talking about. “World” here means your family, your friends, your neighbor, the job and coworkers you have, the house and property you possess etc. If you always complaint about your family, your neighbors, your coworkers and job, complaint about too little money that you have … then you are not appreciating what God has given to you; you take things for granted; you’re not thankful for each day and every single moment you have. Simple put, you are not enjoying the life God has given to you, not to mention that you are not thinking of making yourself a better man to accept, to offer, to help and to love. By faith we believe God created us; God loves us and has a purpose for our lives even before we were born. We apply this faith on every single day of our lives. We love, we remain positive, we are grateful and appreciative, we enjoy the lives that God has designed and planned for us. 信写完了，我看外面天色明媚，便穿上球鞋出去散步。走到几棵高大的棕榈树下，忽然听到“沙沙”的风响。我停住了脚步。 我想起了“Color of the Wind” 这首歌。我静静地听着从高处传来的风声，和谐而又强有力的风声，神的爱，神的恩典，神的鼓励和支持全都回到了我的身边。
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