2017-02-26
【Aiden in English】
Once again, I face Mozart's Sonata in D Major K448 3rd Movement Allegro for two pianos and four hands. It has plagued my nights with regrets of performance after performance, mistake after mistake. The funny thing is, those mistakes are all different each time. I specifically target them during practice, but those random errors appear every time the spotlight turns on. Maybe this time, there won't be other stupid, embarrassing moments of nervous breakdowns in front of the audience. Just maybe. So far, we have only made a somewhat flawless run-through at our teacher's recital. In that case, it was of no consequence. However, it presents a chance of complete success, regardless of the odds. The last few attempts at performing this Mozart were complete failures. Both my partner and I made miserable mess-ups between the few times on stage, each time with a mutual understanding that the other also had screwed up in the past. Today was the day that counted. We would take the show to the Young Pianist Competition of New Jersey, where concertos, four hands, and duets were strictly performed. Judged by strict Russian teachers, things seemed a bit biased in favor of the other contenders, most of whom played sad or depressed and loud melodies. Compared to our sweet, dandy Sonata, we were the odd ones. Although we were singled out, I can't say we couldn't win. This was only the semi-finals, so I don't expect the type of music to affect our scores too much. However, the judges can always be slightly biased toward the kinds of tunes they enjoy listening to, which is a significant downside of the music competition business. I felt pretty jittery and nervous when it became our turn to play. Approaching the piano, I whispered to myself, "High E and low D," which were the starting notes for me. So that I don't do… what I did last time. And, of course, I screw up at the start. I get the first notes right, then… I whiffed on the following few measures. My partner was lost, so I stopped and restarted. It felt like the world was crumbling around me, but I suppose it was a good thing for some reason. At that moment, I understood how even if I did screw up again, it couldn't be much worse. This mentality led to the best playing and run-through of the Sonata ever. The lesson to be learned is to play as if you have nothing to lose, or as if you've already lost everything, however depressing it may seem. 【红霞译】
又到了弹奏莫扎特《D大调奏鸣曲作品K448第三乐章快板》的时候，这首双钢琴四手联弹叫我寝不安席，因为每次登台亮相总免不了出现失误，有失误必有遗憾，而每次失误偏偏各不相同，真令我啼笑皆非。虽说我刻意针对薄弱环节加强练习，可是按下葫芦浮起瓢，每当聚光灯亮起，这些跳梁小丑便粉墨登场，但愿本次表演神经别太紧张，免得在大庭广众面前难堪，希望如此。
迄今为止，我俩唯一一次近乎完美的弹奏就是在老师举行的汇报演出上，可那算不上什么了不起。
然而它确实表明，尽管成功的可能性微乎其微，但还是蛮有指望的。前面经历几次尝试均不理想，我和琴伴在台上各有疏漏，不过彼此相互扶持提携，毕竟谁都有犯错的时候。
今天是咱哥俩大显身手的日子，我们要到“新泽西青少年钢琴家比赛”现场一展琴艺，参赛作品仅限于协奏曲、四手联弹与合奏，表情严肃的评委全部为清一色俄罗斯老师，其他所有选手演奏的旋律充满伤感抑郁宣泄的情绪，有点叫人捉摸不透；而我俩却呈上一首甜美绝妙的奏鸣曲，烘托出活泼欢快热烈的气氛。虽然表现风格截然不同，但并非等于我们没有胜算机会，况且今天充其量就是半决赛而已，想必音乐类型不能成为衡量演奏水平的标准，然而评委多多少少都会偏向自己钟爱的曲调，这对于音乐竞赛行业相当不幸。
轮到我们上台的时候，我感觉异常紧张。走近钢琴，我暗暗提醒自己：“是高音E而非低音D”，这是开头第一个音符，千万不要……像上次那样。 没错，演奏开始我还是慌了手脚，第一个音弹得倒没问题，接着……后面几个小节乱成一锅糨糊。坐在身旁的琴伴顿时如坠五里雾之中，我停下来重新再来，周围整个世界仿佛彻底崩溃了，但不知为什么，我反倒认定坏事变成好事，就在那一瞬间，我清楚地意识到即使下面再出纰漏也不会比现在这种场面更糟糕。思想放开了，我们超水平发挥，整套曲子从头到尾一气呵成。我明白一定要去掉禁锢，反正别无可失，何况本来就没啥值得顾虑的，听起来好像挺丧气的。 
Mozart's Sonata in D Major K448 3rd Movement Allegro for 4-Hand Practice @ Jacob's 09-17-2016 (莫扎特的四手联弹·《D大调奏鸣曲作品K448第三乐章快板》) Crosslink(相关博文): 8th Grade(初中三年级) |
