生命的長大(十一):造清潔的心有正直的靈
詩人說:" 神阿，求你為我造清潔的心，使我裡面重新有正直的靈。(詩五一10)"
"求你使我復得你救恩之樂，賜我樂意的靈扶持我。詩五一12"
"神所要的祭，就是憂傷的靈；神阿，憂傷痛悔的心，你必不輕看。詩五一17"
我們需要有正直的靈（詩五一10下）。這不是指我們的靈是對的，與錯的相對。正直的靈意思是它能恆常站住。有些譯本說，這是堅固、堅定，或穩固的靈。正直的靈就是靈不搖動、不搖擺，恆常站住，如同穩固、牢靠之物。
詩篇五十一篇是大衛悔改的詩篇，他為著他的靈不正直而悔改。換句話說，他的靈沒有恆常正直地站住。他的靈不牢靠、不穩固，所以他會受引誘、受試誘，並且墮落。在他的悔改里，他禱告主讓他有正直的靈，堅定、穩固、牢靠的靈。
在他為著復興的禱告裡，他求主在他裡面更新這樣的靈。我們一直需要正直的靈，總是堅固、穩固、堅定、不搖動，且不搖擺的，使我們絕不會受試探、受試誘或受誤引（生命的基本功課，一八三頁）。
在詩篇五十一篇，大衛…禱告神賜他樂意的靈（12下）。大衛將樂意的靈聯於救恩之樂。他求主使他仍得救恩之樂，賜他樂意的靈扶持他。…我們有救恩之樂，自然而然會有樂意的靈隨主往前。
主所要的，主所願的，主所要求於我們的，我們要有樂意的靈答應、順從。這樂意的靈總是來自我們歡樂、喜樂的靈。我們需要救恩之樂。
毫無疑問，在大衛墮落時，他失去救恩之樂。如今他悔改，所以他求神使他仍得救恩之樂。那就是說，神要帶他回到對救恩的享受。然後從這享受和這喜樂，他就能有樂意的靈。
羅馬十四章十七節說，『神的國…乃在於公義、和平、並聖靈中的喜樂。』我們在神的靈里有喜樂，我們的靈就會是樂意的。我們會有樂意的靈與主交通，敬拜他並禱告。凡能討主喜悅的，我們就會樂意作。這就是說，我們有樂意的靈。
在詩篇五十一篇十七節上半大衛說，神所要的祭，就是憂傷的靈。在神眼中，憂傷的靈比祭物更寶貴。在十七節下半大衛說，憂傷痛悔的心，神必不輕看。憂傷的靈就是悔改的靈，對於任何罪惡都覺得非常憂傷。憂傷的靈是真正悔改的靈。
憂傷的靈，直譯，破碎的靈，破碎的意思就是不完整。這裡的意思不是破成碎塊，乃是說，你不認為自己是那樣完全或完整的。你若認為你是完全、完整的，你就不會悔改，或承認你的軟弱和你的失敗。
你的靈在悔改時，就是破碎的、痛悔的、覺得憂傷的。許多人犯罪以後，不會有破碎的靈，反而會有頑梗、完整的靈。因為他們覺得自己是完全、完整的，他們就不願悔改，他們不願認罪。我們不該這樣，我們該一直有憂傷、破碎的靈。
即使我們不覺得自己犯了罪，我們仍需要憂傷的靈。即使我們沒有犯大罪，我們仍會有小錯。在我們的話語、我們的態度、我們的思想、我們的感覺和我們與別人的談話上，許多時候我們是錯誤的，甚至不知不覺就錯了。
所以我們一直需要保守一個憂傷、破碎的靈。不要認為自己是完全、完整且完美的；沒有人是完全的，所以我們需要憂傷、破碎的靈，悔改並認罪。
參讀：生命的基本功課，第十九課。
English Verfsion
Psa. 51:10 "Create in me a clean
heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
12 "Restore to me the
gladness of Your salvation, and sustain me with a illing spirit." 17 "The sacrifices of God are a broken
spirit; a broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise."
First, we need to have a right spirit (Psa. 51:10b─KJV). This does not
refer to our spirit being right versus being wrong. A right spirit is an
upright spirit. This means that it can stand as something constant. Some
versions say that this is a steadfast, constant, or firm spirit. An upright
spirit is a spirit that is immovable, unshakable, standing constantly as
something firm and steady.
Psalm 51 was the psalm of David for his repentance. He repented that his
spirit was not upright. In other words, his spirit did not stand upright
constantly. His spirit was not steady, not firm, so he was able to be seduced,
or tempted, and he fell. In his repentance he prayed that the Lord would let
him have an upright spirit, a constant, firm, steady spirit. In his prayer for
restoration, he asked the Lord to renew such a spirit within him. We always
need an upright spirit, which is always steadfast, firm, constant, immovable,
and unshakable so that we can never be tempted, seduced, or misled. (Basic
Lessons on Life, p. 150)
In Psalm 51...[David] prayed that God would give him a willing spirit.
David connected the willing spirit with the joy of salvation. He asked the Lord
to restore unto him the joy of salvation and sustain him with a willing
spirit....When we have the joy of salvation, we spontaneously will have a
willing spirit to go along with the Lord. What the Lord wants, what the Lord
desires, what the Lord asks of us, we will have a willing spirit to answer, to
obey. This willing spirit always comes from our rejoicing, our joyful spirit.
We need the joy of salvation.
No doubt, in David’s fall he lost the joy of his salvation. Now he was
repenting, so he asked that God would restore unto him the joy of salvation.
That means God would bring him back to the enjoyment of salvation. Then from
this enjoyment and this joy, he could have a willing spirit....Romans 14:17
says, “The kingdom of God is...righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy
Spirit.” When we have joy in God’s Spirit, our spirit will be willing. We will
have a willing spirit to fellowship with the Lord, to worship Him, and to pray.
Whatever can please the Lord, we will be happy to do. This means we have a
willing spirit.
In Psalm 51:17a David said that the sacrifices of God are a broken
spirit. In other words, in God’s eyes a broken spirit is more precious than
sacrifices. In the second part of verse 17 David said that God would not
despise a broken and contrite heart. A broken spirit is a spirit that repents,
that feels very sorrowful
for any sinfulness. In other words, a
broken spirit is a real repenting spirit.
To be broken means to not be whole. Here it does not mean to be broken
into pieces. It means that you do not consider yourself so perfect or complete.
If you consider that you are perfect and complete, you would not repent or
confess your weaknesses and your failures. When your spirit is repenting, your
spirit is broken, contrite, and feeling sorrowful. After sinning, many would not
have a broken spirit. Instead, they would have a spirit that is stubbornly
whole. Because they feel that they are perfect and complete, they would not
repent. They would not confess. We should not be like this. We should have a
spirit which is always broken.
Even if we do not feel that we have sinned, we still need a broken
spirit. Even if we have not sinned in a great way, we still could be wrong in a
small way. In our words, our attitude, our thoughts, our feelings, and our talk
with others, many times we are wrong, even unconsciously. So we always need to
keep a broken spirit. Do not consider yourself as being whole, complete, and
perfect. No one is perfect, so we always need a broken spirit to repent and
confess. (Basic Lessons on Life, pp. 150-151)
Further Reading: Basic Lessons on Life, lsn. 19
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