生命的长大(十一):造清洁的心有正直的灵
诗人说:" 神阿，求你为我造清洁的心，使我里面重新有正直的灵。(诗五一10)"
"求你使我复得你救恩之乐，赐我乐意的灵扶持我。诗五一12"
"神所要的祭，就是忧伤的灵；神阿，忧伤痛悔的心，你必不轻看。诗五一17"
我们需要有正直的灵（诗五一10下）。这不是指我们的灵是对的，与错的相对。正直的灵意思是它能恒常站住。有些译本说，这是坚固、坚定，或稳固的灵。正直的灵就是灵不摇动、不摇摆，恒常站住，如同稳固、牢靠之物。
诗篇五十一篇是大卫悔改的诗篇，他为著他的灵不正直而悔改。换句话说，他的灵没有恒常正直地站住。他的灵不牢靠、不稳固，所以他会受引诱、受试诱，并且堕落。在他的悔改里，他祷告主让他有正直的灵，坚定、稳固、牢靠的灵。
在他为著复兴的祷告里，他求主在他里面更新这样的灵。我们一直需要正直的灵，总是坚固、稳固、坚定、不摇动，且不摇摆的，使我们绝不会受试探、受试诱或受误引（生命的基本功课，一八三页）。
在诗篇五十一篇，大卫…祷告神赐他乐意的灵（12下）。大卫将乐意的灵联於救恩之乐。他求主使他仍得救恩之乐，赐他乐意的灵扶持他。…我们有救恩之乐，自然而然会有乐意的灵随主往前。
主所要的，主所愿的，主所要求於我们的，我们要有乐意的灵答应、顺从。这乐意的灵总是来自我们欢乐、喜乐的灵。我们需要救恩之乐。
毫无疑问，在大卫堕落时，他失去救恩之乐。如今他悔改，所以他求神使他仍得救恩之乐。那就是说，神要带他回到对救恩的享受。然后从这享受和这喜乐，他就能有乐意的灵。
罗马十四章十七节说，『神的国…乃在於公义、和平、并圣灵中的喜乐。』我们在神的灵里有喜乐，我们的灵就会是乐意的。我们会有乐意的灵与主交通，敬拜他并祷告。凡能讨主喜悦的，我们就会乐意作。这就是说，我们有乐意的灵。
在诗篇五十一篇十七节上半大卫说，神所要的祭，就是忧伤的灵。在神眼中，忧伤的灵比祭物更宝贵。在十七节下半大卫说，忧伤痛悔的心，神必不轻看。忧伤的灵就是悔改的灵，对於任何罪恶都觉得非常忧伤。忧伤的灵是真正悔改的灵。
忧伤的灵，直译，破碎的灵，破碎的意思就是不完整。这里的意思不是破成碎块，乃是说，你不认为自己是那样完全或完整的。你若认为你是完全、完整的，你就不会悔改，或承认你的软弱和你的失败。
你的灵在悔改时，就是破碎的、痛悔的、觉得忧伤的。许多人犯罪以后，不会有破碎的灵，反而会有顽梗、完整的灵。因为他们觉得自己是完全、完整的，他们就不愿悔改，他们不愿认罪。我们不该这样，我们该一直有忧伤、破碎的灵。
即使我们不觉得自己犯了罪，我们仍需要忧伤的灵。即使我们没有犯大罪，我们仍会有小错。在我们的话语、我们的态度、我们的思想、我们的感觉和我们与别人的谈话上，许多时候我们是错误的，甚至不知不觉就错了。
所以我们一直需要保守一个忧伤、破碎的灵。不要认为自己是完全、完整且完美的；没有人是完全的，所以我们需要忧伤、破碎的灵，悔改并认罪。
参读：生命的基本功课，第十九课。
English Verfsion
Psa. 51:10 "Create in me a clean
heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
12 "Restore to me the
gladness of Your salvation, and sustain me with a illing spirit." 17 "The sacrifices of God are a broken
spirit; a broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise."
First, we need to have a right spirit (Psa. 51:10b─KJV). This does not
refer to our spirit being right versus being wrong. A right spirit is an
upright spirit. This means that it can stand as something constant. Some
versions say that this is a steadfast, constant, or firm spirit. An upright
spirit is a spirit that is immovable, unshakable, standing constantly as
something firm and steady.
Psalm 51 was the psalm of David for his repentance. He repented that his
spirit was not upright. In other words, his spirit did not stand upright
constantly. His spirit was not steady, not firm, so he was able to be seduced,
or tempted, and he fell. In his repentance he prayed that the Lord would let
him have an upright spirit, a constant, firm, steady spirit. In his prayer for
restoration, he asked the Lord to renew such a spirit within him. We always
need an upright spirit, which is always steadfast, firm, constant, immovable,
and unshakable so that we can never be tempted, seduced, or misled. (Basic
Lessons on Life, p. 150)
In Psalm 51...[David] prayed that God would give him a willing spirit.
David connected the willing spirit with the joy of salvation. He asked the Lord
to restore unto him the joy of salvation and sustain him with a willing
spirit....When we have the joy of salvation, we spontaneously will have a
willing spirit to go along with the Lord. What the Lord wants, what the Lord
desires, what the Lord asks of us, we will have a willing spirit to answer, to
obey. This willing spirit always comes from our rejoicing, our joyful spirit.
We need the joy of salvation.
No doubt, in David’s fall he lost the joy of his salvation. Now he was
repenting, so he asked that God would restore unto him the joy of salvation.
That means God would bring him back to the enjoyment of salvation. Then from
this enjoyment and this joy, he could have a willing spirit....Romans 14:17
says, “The kingdom of God is...righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy
Spirit.” When we have joy in God’s Spirit, our spirit will be willing. We will
have a willing spirit to fellowship with the Lord, to worship Him, and to pray.
Whatever can please the Lord, we will be happy to do. This means we have a
willing spirit.
In Psalm 51:17a David said that the sacrifices of God are a broken
spirit. In other words, in God’s eyes a broken spirit is more precious than
sacrifices. In the second part of verse 17 David said that God would not
despise a broken and contrite heart. A broken spirit is a spirit that repents,
that feels very sorrowful
for any sinfulness. In other words, a
broken spirit is a real repenting spirit.
To be broken means to not be whole. Here it does not mean to be broken
into pieces. It means that you do not consider yourself so perfect or complete.
If you consider that you are perfect and complete, you would not repent or
confess your weaknesses and your failures. When your spirit is repenting, your
spirit is broken, contrite, and feeling sorrowful. After sinning, many would not
have a broken spirit. Instead, they would have a spirit that is stubbornly
whole. Because they feel that they are perfect and complete, they would not
repent. They would not confess. We should not be like this. We should have a
spirit which is always broken.
Even if we do not feel that we have sinned, we still need a broken
spirit. Even if we have not sinned in a great way, we still could be wrong in a
small way. In our words, our attitude, our thoughts, our feelings, and our talk
with others, many times we are wrong, even unconsciously. So we always need to
keep a broken spirit. Do not consider yourself as being whole, complete, and
perfect. No one is perfect, so we always need a broken spirit to repent and
confess. (Basic Lessons on Life, pp. 150-151)
Further Reading: Basic Lessons on Life, lsn. 19
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